Merry Christmas - The Reflection
Aloha to you all, a merry Christmas and a happy new year, to you and all of your loved ones. It's that time again, when the big fat fella in the red suit , comes down your chimney and maybe gives you a present or two.
Boy does life sail by in a flurry, I remember if it was only yesterday, writing and article in India, wishing you all a merry Christmas, It feels like only yesterday. Well what a year it's been, there's not been to many people, that I've talked to over the past few weeks that have commented on, what a huge year it's been.
Looking back on it, it's been an amazing year of growth and understanding for myself and I guess for alot of people. Some of it seems a lifetime ago and some of it seems only yesterday.
Reflecting on it on a deeper level for myself, the year 2007 was all about healing wounds around my childhood or patterns if you like. As well as understanding on a deeper level about relationships with myself first and foremost, then partners and everyone else that has come into my life over the past year.
Since arriving back in Byron I've been fully aware and conscious of when ever someone comes into my space to really be present and know that they have a gift of some sort for me, in the words that they speak. Its been such a wonderful thing to be experiencing. There hasn't been a single person that hasn't offered me a gift yet and I know that by thanking them straight away, when I realise the whole reason that they have connected with me, I hope they to can take something from me. This whole universe is all about giving and receiving and all levels, in all situations and it's going on all the time, JUST BE AWARE.
I realised once I arrived in Byron, why I lived on the Sunshine Coast, a place that I never wanted to live. The main gift the universe was presenting me was to once and for all release my fear and anger I had, regarding my childhood. Months ago it occurred to me, that the main reason that I was again living near my mother and father was simply to heal things from my childhood with them. I believe most adults are walking around still carrying their childhood wounds, still playing out their childhood patterns. Most people, most of the time, in most situations come from childhood experiences, mainly hurtful ones. They say in the first seven years of a humans life is what shapes us for the rest of our lives. I believe this to be true, although there are exceptions, when a person becomes awake and aware that there's more to life then just, working, eating, sex and sleep.
You see since I was eighteen I've realise on some level that I needed to work through my stuff, surrounding my childhood. That the way I acted and re-acted in my life was a result of my upbringing. So since I was eighteen I've tried it all, from re-birthing, to etherically calling in my father and speaking my truth from my inner child point of view. Now all these things might have worked on some level, but it wasn't until a friend pointed out to me this year that it needs to be done on a physical level, for it to really be cleared.
So a few weeks before i left the Sunny Coast, I finally did it. I sat down with my father and did a few processes. The first one I was guided to do, was to ask him about his upbringing, about his life. You see this is my stepfather and I've known him since I was four years old, in saying that though I never really knew him. I sat him down and said that I've known you for thirty two years dad, but I know nothing of you. How many of you out there know what your parents lives were like, what they experienced as a child, as a teenager, as an adult. Well I tell you now the stories I had in my head about my father were alot different to what he proceeded to tell me.
I was very surprised to say the least of what he had to tell me about his life. There's one huge thing ,that I did learn though and that was, finally getting to know the man who had a big influence in my life. I understood alot more about him and why he acts and reacts the way he does, it was a true blessing. After he had finished I thanked him and then told him that I'd like to do another process with him, regarding my childhood and up bringing. I explained that I didn't want in sorrys or him to feel any guilt, I just want him to listen and that I was going to speak for my inner child to him.
I sat there and explained to him how I felt as a child and that how I have kept alot of pain in me throughout my life. I tell you all now, as I was talking I could feel myself getting lighter and lighter. It's hard to explain, if you can imagine, it was like with every word I spoke, energy was releasing out of my being. I cant stress enough to you all, how freeing it is to release these wounds we carry from our childhood. If you can do it, if your parent or parents are open to this process, go for it, if you love yourself enough, if you want to really let go of your baggage, if you want to be free, then do it.
Even if you cant do the second process, do the first, it's a wonderful gift as an adult to learn about the people that brought you into this world, or the people who raised you. The key is to remember its not a blaming session, try to remain as calm as possible, speak from your heart. The end result of this process for me, was that in my heart I feel I have finally let go of my fears and anger. The other blessing I received is a stronger bond between me and my father and if that's all I got from it, then what a gift that is.
Before I did the process I told some friends what I was going to do, one of my friends is a physiologist. To my surprise when I explained what I wanted to do, she then told me that, from a physiologists point of view, WHEN AN ADULT CAN SIT DOWN AND DO A PROCESS LIKE THIS OR SIMILAR, THEN THEY FINALLY BECOME AN ADULT IN THE TRUER SENSE, WE RELEASE THE PAIN THAT WE CARRY AS A WOUNDED CHILD. When she explained this to me I knew I had to do it, why wouldn't you.
I hope that this may encourage some of you to do the same, again we only have this lifetime, don't leave it till its to late. Be bold in your life, take risks, I believe that's what the universe wants us to do. Experience all you can, because it's only through experience that we can heal and remember who we truly are and that is 'DIVINE SPARKS OF GOD'.
I thank everybody who has been apart of my life this year from my fantastic friends, to my lovers and family , I thank you all from the centre of my heart for playing out your parts so well, for me to remember what's most important in life, 'LOVE'. To all my friends that supported me through the hard times, I am truly blessed to have you in my life.
To all of you who read this, may you be blessed with love, light and laughter of the highest form over this festive season, may all of your lives and paths be showered with joy, ease and grace.
MERRY CHRISTMAS.
Divine Bliss
Namaste, Aloha and greetings to you all, well what a fantastic life experience I've been having since arriving 'HOME' (Byron Bay). I emphasise the word home, because finally since arriving back from India seven months ago, it feels like home living back in Byron Bay.
Words cannot describe how I feel, if you could see inside my being, my soul would be dancing uncontrollably. My whole being is bursting with joy and happiness, why? because I followed my heart and my guidance. That's all where here for, its what makes our heart sing, if we're follow our heart everything in the universe supports us and nurtures us. Its like a universal law I believe, a bit like karma, what you put out, you get back.
I know for alot of people its hard to just let go, to just follow your heart, your passion, your guidance, but I tell you now 'ITS ALOT HARDER NOT TO, PERIOD'. So I implore you, if your standing at the edge of that cliff, wanting to dive off into the the abyss, into the true river of life, let go, jump and I assure you, you will be caught by the web of life and carried to places that you'd never had dreamed of. There's an old saying that quite a few people use and its one of my favorites 'FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY'.
As you all know when I left the Sunshine coast, I really had nothing to come to when I arrived in Byron. How quickly that changed, I had meet my first angel a few months back, in Sunshine. We are both involved in a fabulous project, its a healing day that a few of us have organised that will be held on the 19th of January. Its called 'Awaken to Joy', we're hoping to get as many people from around the Sunshine coast community to come together in oneness, through many different forms of healing and fun.
I thought a few weeks ago before I came down to Byron I had worked out some short term accommodation, but unfortunately or so I thought at the time it fell through. Again I didn't panic, I just asked my guidance why this had happened, and it simply said 'that there was a better opportunity coming and just relax', so I did. Well at one of the meetings, my new found angel proceeded to let everyone know that she was moving to Byron Bay in the next few weeks(actually it was one week before I was guided to go) well you didn't have to ask me twice, it was so obvious that this angel could help me. So I asked and of course she said 'yes, I'd gladly have you come and stay'. When I arrived that day, I couldn't have felt more at home, more welcomed by this nurturing angel. The place that I was to live for two weeks, was the last place I had lived in Byron before I went to India. Suffolk Park is about two minutes south of the heart of Byron Bay, its a quaint little village right on the ocean, I was about one hundred metres walk from the beach, how blessed was I, living in what I thought, back then, was the best placed I had ever lived in Australia.
Suffolk Park, paradise at my door step.
My friend and I spent some wonderful time together, we could clearly see right away, that we had connected for many reasons, mainly to help each other grow and heal past experiences mostly to do with relationships. In one of our conversations, where we got on to the subject of people following gurus, she said something that I thought was quite ingenious, yet simple at the same time. She said for me to spell out aloud the word guru, well to my surprise the answer is in the word it self, when you say it out aloud 'G,U,R,U', it says it all. I believe we need teachers in our lives to help us to the next level of consciousness, to show us the way, but I don't believe we in this day an age the need to hand over all our power to someone else.
When we allow the universal current to flow through and around us, things come to us, with ease and grace. This was shown to me within the first few days of arriving in Byron. The next angel appeared for me on day two, she had lined me up a job. It was working on a farm, in the hinterland of Byron, I was to pick blueberries. I knew I had at first, take what I could, what was to unfold was such a heart warming experience. The farm is situated in the rolling hills of the Byron Shire, the place where we were picking blueberries had a stream right next to the crop, you could hear the sound of the waterfall all day. The people I worked with, were such beautiful souls, my boss was more like a long lost friend, instead of an employer. So imagine this, standing there picking blueberries, listing to the birds and a majestic waterfall, laughing and chatting with beautiful people(oh and I might add, eating as many delicious blueberries as possible, heaven).
The other thing I noticed was that everyone I ran into, were so glad to see me back, Byron's like a big community of soul family. The unconditional love that flows around this place is such a blessing. The conversation that transpired between just about everyone I connected with again went something like this, 'Hi great to see you, welcome home, are you here for good? they'd say, 'yes for about a year' , 'fantastic, can I have a healing'. Yes everybody said just about the exact same thing. 'Ok' I said to god, 'I get it you want me to do, go back into healing work'. It was so obvious, that the universe wants me to get back into what I love and what I'm good at. This time I'm going to do it a different way, I'm going to set boundaries on how many healings I do a week, instead of trying to help and assist everyone all at once.
My next little test, was that I had to move out of Suffolk Park, I guess, things had run their course, maybe my friend and I had healed and learned what we needed to, and it was time to move on. Without even putting it out there yet, I was presented with my next gift, I found a room in the hills fives minutes from Byron's CBD. Its a small little community, that two of my soul family live at. I took a trip out there, I'd been there twice before, but only ever at night. What a glorious surprise, this place has its own little Shiva Temple, spring water and an energy that makes your heart open up with joy. As you can imagine I took it straight away. Its like living back in India in a way, this time I have my own little Temple.
The greeting sign at the front gate, it says it all in the name.
My accommodation, simple but sweet.
View from my room.
My own Shiva Temple.
Some of the gardens, ahhh the serenity.
I've been here for a week now, I've met some wonderful people and had such wonderful experiences. Which leads me into my next little teaching, 'THE ART OF MANIFESTING'. On the Monday and Tuesday just gone, I had no work, when it rains you cant pick blueberries, so I wasn't needed. I guess this, in the past would have brought up a little bit of fear, about where I was going to get money from. So on Monday evening I sat in meditation and simply placed out to the universe what I would like to have come into my life, 'NOW'. I asked why I hadn't really got a more stable job yet and that if I'm meant to be here then I would like some more support, with financial matters. My higher self just simply said to 'relax', I already have a job. So as I've said in the past, my guidance is all I have now and that I will trust in it, no matter what. After my meditation I was also called on, to ask Ganesh to clear all obstacles in my path that maybe stopping me form getting my ideal job(Ganesh is the destroyer of illusions and obstacles). With that and this is the key, once you've placed out your intention to the universe, simply let it go, this is the crucial part of the whole process of manifesting, to just let it go, knowing and believing with your whole being that it will come to you.
So Tuesday I awoke completely forgetting about what had occurred the night before, by ten o'clock the phone rang to come in and do some work on the farm. Off I went on my merry way, unaware of what was going to transpire later on that day. After I had finished working, if you could call it that. My boss came up to me and said 'that they were really happy with the way I worked and they wanted to give me more work, for example driving tractors'. I was very humbled and of course I said 'yes', thank you god I said to myself as I drove home that afternoon. While I was cooking my dinner, my phone rang, the person on the other end of the line, was an employer that interviewed me a couple of weeks ago, I'd completely forgotten about them. He said 'you've got the job, can you start tomorrow?, well hows that for manifesting, two jobs in one day, I ended up taking the second one after talking to the farmer, at the end he said that I could come back anytime if I ever wanted a job. Some may say its luck, I don't believe in luck at all, what I do wholly and solely believe in now, is the power of following your heart, following your guidance in everything that you do throughout your life and we are truly taken care of if we're open to it.
I wake up with so much excitement to start the day and have so much gratitude when I lay down to sleep. 'LET GO' , take the plunge, its fun in the river of life, its never boring, everything comes to those who risk to follow their heart.
Byron Bay lighthouse, its known throughout Australia, Its the furthest eastern point of Australia.
The endless beaches of Byron.
If you look closely, you can see a pod of dolphins, around the rocks of the lighthouse throughout the year, you can see whales pass by on their migratory journey up the coast. Dolphin and sea turtles are abundant around Byron.
Another beautiful view of the sacred place.
Faith, Surrender and Flow
Namaste to you all, I haven't written anything for a while, I've been a busy little bee for the past few weeks. I've started up another website and have spent alot of time on it. I've also been trying to do as many hours at work, to get some money together for my next little adventure into the unknown.
The reason why I used the title 'Faith, Surrender and Flow' was due to the three cards I pulled from a spiritual deck of cards today. You see tomorrow is the day I leave for Byron Bay, I asked when I was shuffling the cards, what message did spirit have for me?. These were the three cards I pulled, these three words are what it's all about for me, in this time of change.
You see, as I wrote previously 'TRUST' is a big lesson for me and these three cards have everything to do with 'TRUST'. I was guided, to go back to Byron Bay a few months ago as some of you would know. Why? I don't need to know, other then my guidance suggested that it would be for my highest good. As I've been saying to people lately, if I'm not going to follow and 'TRUST' my guidance I might as well not be on the path I'm on.
I don't know anything about why Im going or whats going to happen, other then it's for my highest good. I don't know where I'll be living or who with, I have no job to go to and not much money to survive on. What I do know, is that somewhere, at some point in time my being wanted me, to finally embody and fully understand the true meaning of 'TRUST' and "FAITH'. 'TRUST' and 'FAITH' that I will and have always been, looked after by spirit or God if you like.
Now I know if I have these two energies with me, everything will unfold perfectly with ease and grace. I also realise that, if I try to control any of the situation down there, I might miss experiences or opportunities that are for my highest good. This is where the surrender comes in, I need to just 'let go and let God' as they say. By surrendering and letting go, I heal the need to control, I also let go of any expectations. By trying to control things, all the time and having sometimes unreasonable expectations, we set ourselves up for disappointment and unhappiness. Remember that when I use the word surrender, I'm not saying that you are yielding to something outside of yourself; you're actually giving in to your soul. When you fully surrender, you're allowing the universe to work through you. Your also permitting spirit, to give you direction and inspiration that's all for your highest good.
To alot of people, just packing up, leaving and going to a new place with nothing but what you have, might not seem a big deal. For me, I have done it a few times in my life, but for some reason even though everything always unfolded perfectly, I still had fear around it. I now know where it came from and you might be surprised to hear this, I traced it back from the moment I was born. Somewhere in my being I took on the belief that, I'm not supported on this earth and not even supported by God. How do I heal this part of me? how do I fully embrace and embody the true meaning of trust, faith, surrender and flow, easy, by meeting it head on. By going and placing myself in an experience that will allow me to learn or as I say remember what I've forgotten.
The other key for me, once I get to Byron, is to go with the flow. If I allow people and circumstances to help and flow to me, then things will be for my highest good. If I allow my egoic mind to take control and go against the flow, well I probably will miss opportunities, that will be more beneficial to me. When we're in the flow, ease and grace flow around us and through us. If were in the flow of the universe, everything falls into place with divine timing. When we resist the great river of life, we usually end up confused, unhappy and then of coarse we experience suffering. Two keys to move into the flow of life, is to have gratitude and appreciation of all that is in your life. Also remember there's a multitude of help from the universe, allow other people to help you and support you, sometimes its hard to ask for help, I know I've had a problem in the past with this one. Remember, 'IF WE UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYONE ON THIS PLANET IS A DIVINE SPARK OF GOD, THAT EVERYONE IS AN ANGEL, THEN WE ONLY HAVE TO ASK', "ASK AND THOW SHALL RECEIVE".
So with an open heart I leave, as soon as I'm set up, I'll send out another post. I don't know how long that will be, if I'm in the flow and following guidance then you'll all hear from me next week, if not then it will be in divine timing.
Three Masters - 2nd and 3rd Masters
Namaste, well after the amazing session with
Abdy on the Sunday, I couldn't have felt more happier and at peace. I awoke the next day on cloud nine, fully contented with everything in life. The following afternoon as I was walking past a noticeboard, a small
flyer stood out like a beacon above all the other
mish, mash of advertisements. It was a
flyer about an enlightened Indian guru named
Shri Shivarudra Balayogi Maharaj or
Babaji for short. The
flyer said that he was coming to my area that week, his first teachings were the following night and it was only five minutes from my house. Well I was like a little child (or a woman, he, he) who'd just found the keys to a chocolate factory.
I went straight home and called the number, it was all still going a head. 'How blessed was I', I thought two amazing beings in the same week. I came straight home the following day and got ready for the evening. This is where the second of the masters came into play. I've been living with a beautiful friend and her daughter for the past few months. It's the first time in my life that I have lived with a child before. At first I was a bit hesitant, until my guidance had suggested that it would be good for me.
Now this little master has brought huge joy into my life, and even the odd teaching. As most little four year
old's these days seem to have a knowing of truth, this little one is no exception. While I was getting ready to see
Babaji, she questioned me on where I was going. When I proceeded to tell her, she kindly interrupted me and explained to me, that it doesn't matter where you go, god is always in your heart. I thanked her for wise words 'no problem' she said. She then went on to tell me, 'no matter what
Domonique you should always follow your heart, always'. I guess because I was in such a heart opened state, I really listened to the words that were spoken to me.
As with the
Abdy experience, I seemed to be very receptive to what was occurring around me. I had a few minutes to sit and contemplate, if I was truly following my heart. It didn't take long for me long to realise, that I for some reason, I had fallen into the trap of thinking what I should be doing, instead of what was maybe best for me. I sat and thought about what had being unfolding for me since being back in Australia.
I really went deep on what brings me the greatest joy, in this moment. The first guidance that came to me was going back to India, I then saw Nepal and an African country. What was I doing, volunteer work, mainly with children. I then thought then why am I not doing it? well there's no reason what so ever.
Off and on over the past few months, I've had the odd silly thoughts
creep in, one of the big one's is, that I should be settling down. I'm nearly 36 yrs old, I have an opportunity to buy a house at the moment, so I should take it, 'BORING'. Looking at it, there parts of me feeling that by going overseas and doing volunteer work, maybe for a few years, wasn't the best thing for a 36yr old Western male to be doing. In other words, yes I started to buy into what most of the Western society thought a man of my age should be doing. House(meaning big mortgage) a wife and kids. Now don't get me wrong, I would love to have these things in my life again, kids are the only thing I haven't done yet, mortgage and wife been there done that. All I have is how my heart feels and at the moment none of these things interest me.
Back to the story, I thanked my little master for reminding me, of such an important thing. 'Following one's heart, sets your soul free, It's what truly living is all about'. I drove to the house where
Babaji was having his get together. The space was absolutely gorgeous, people were looking radiant and I could feel the excitement of anticipation in the air. We waited about five minutes for
Babaji to arrive, In came a bearded Indian man, with a smile and eyes that felt warmer then a summers day.
Babaji sat on his little daybed, at the front of the room, legs crossed, wrapped in a white robe. You could feel his energy poring fourth, covering us like a warm blanket. We then were given sheets with Indian chanting and songs on it, we sang for about an hour. He then proceeded to teach us a very simple meditation technique that was past down from his guru.
Babaji then spoke of all the important things that matter in life, love, peace, god and compassion. The night was full of joy and happiness, especially for me, for I had let go of the Cliff once again, and had dived into the abyss of the divine.
After that night I knew exactly what I would like to experience this lifetime as the one called
Domonique. Now I know I've said it a hundred times that its not a good idea to plan to far a head (believe me I've fallen into that trap a few times). I sat and meditated on it all and asked for guidance on what was for my highest good. The first one was obviously to go back to Byron Bay, then I was given a little glimpse of a bit further down the track.
When I got back from India I read the famous book 'Autobiography of a Yogi' when I first read the word
Kriya Yoga, it jumped out of the pages, I knew it was either a past life experience or that it was going to be good for me to do this lifetime, well its both. I looked it up on the net, there's a course running next year in November, for six months, in an ashram in
Orissa, India. So if it's meant to be that's where I'll start my journey, after that I was shown I'll travel to Nepal and fulfill a hearts desire to work in orphanages. Now as well, I saw a golden thread going to Kenya, in Africa and to my surprise another one that went all the way to Spain. After reading Paulo
Coelho's book 'The Pilgrimage' many years ago, I was inspired to do the same pilgrimage the '
Camino de Santiago', well I was shown that this dream will come into fruition, sooner or later.
Even though I was shown all these wonderful thing's the key is not to be attached to them. It's for me to be in the now and to know in my heart, that one day the universe will lead me to these experiences. Again I am meant to be where I am right now, everything is perfectly unfolding as it should be.
I also in the past couple of months have been told by two of my soul sisters on separate occasions to get the book 'A Course In Miracles', what an inspiration. My friend told me to read a certain passage in the book, I'd like to share with you the last part of it.
"I am here ONLY to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Christ, WHO sent me.
I do Not have to worry about what to say or what to do because
He Who sent me will direct me.
I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to Heal"
For me that says it all.
I have one more thing to add, I've wanted to share this with you all for a while now. Its about cemeteries, yep for
alot of people there not a place, you'd want to think about too much, unless you had a loved one pass away. I hope I can write this and get my message across, in the right way. One of the biggest ways, I learned gratitude and to wake up to whats really important in life, was to go to a cemetery or just look at one as I was driving pass. How did this help?, you ask, when I was going through probably, the toughest challenge I've gone through in my life, for some reason I used this strange method to break the illusions I was placing myself in. How? by going and reading about people who'd died, from all different eras and all different ages. It reminded me while I was walking around, that I too will be dead one day, just like all of us. It some how snapped me out of the poor me syndrome, it help me let go of fear. It reaffirmed so strongly to me, that my soul might be immortal, but my body is not. It also taught me that at any given moment, when my numbers up, its up.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is 'LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, OR AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, EACH AND EVERY MOMENT, BECAUSE MOMENTS ARE ALL THAT YOU HAVE', If life's not working for you do something about it, in this moment. Find another way, try another way, your the only with the universes help that can do it.
'Forget not once this journey is begun the end is certain. Doubt along the way will come and go and come and go again. Yet is the ending sure, no one can fail to do what god appointed them to do. When you forget, remember that you walk with him with his word upon your heart'.
'A Course in Miracles'.
Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back .. Aloha brothers and sisters and many blessings.
The Three Masters - !st Master
Namaste to you all, well what an interesting fortnight I had. It was full of many teachings(or rememberings, as I like to call it) and wonderful heart opening experiences. I was very fortunate to go see the first of the three wonderful beings that had touched my heart. Last Sunday I traveled down south to attend a healing circle, it was run by a very enlightened being called Abdy.
Abdy works with the Christ energy, he aligns you to the presence of the Divine to the Divine's mind, to the Divine's heart and to the Divine Spirit. Before I talk about the amazing session I and everyone else experienced, I'll rewind it to the beginning of the the week. I put out an email asking if anyone wanted to carpool, I received two replies. Sunday came, so I set off in the morning, I left a little bit earlier so I wouldn't have to rush.
Well you guessed it, the universe had other ideas, other tests, other experiences installed for me. I picked up my first passenger with ten minutes to spare, too easy. We hadn't met before so we got acquainted with each other. We were suddenly interrupted in our conversation, to our surprise the main road not far from his place had a traffic jam. 'It's ok, we've plenty of time', I said, I'm not quite sure how long we were bumper to bumper, but the time had certainly been eaten up.
I remember thinking we've still got enough time, there's nothing to worry about. So we kept on our little merry way, chatting as new acquaintances do, we had alot in common, so the conversation flowed very easily and so did the time. We both hadn't been to my next passengers place before so we had to follow a map. First lesson for the day, try remain in the NOW!! even when your in deep conversation. My new friend was half way through his next sentence, when he suddenly said 'what was the name of that street?', when he looked on the map he realised that we'd missed the street we had to turn up by along way. I quickly turned at the next street and got back on the road heading back to where we'd already been.
As I was driving, I looked down at the map, we hadn't just missed her street by a few kilometres we'd missed it by heaps. Next thing of course she rang wondering where we were. By this time we were running late, I noticed I was starting to get a bit anxious. All the good intention of getting to the session with time to spare and in a relaxed state were quickly going out the window. I reminded myself to take a deep breath at this time, and remember to relax and trust that everything was going to be ok.
We finally pulled up at her place, I asked her if she new where we going?'I've been there twice before, but I cant remember', was her reply. 'You've got a map don't you?', she said, 'no I was hoping you had one?', well the energy started to go a bit pear shaped now. Thank god she had one in her car, though it took her a while to find it. Off we set again, this time we were even later, I could feel parts of myself starting to feel responsible for getting us all there on time. My second companion played her part well in this little lesson, she repeatedly said 'she should have gone by herself' and 'that she'd never have been late'. As I kept trying to remember to just trust that we would make it there on time, my new friend unconsciously kept trying to bring my lack of trust up. When I asked her to checkout exactly where we were going in the street directory it occurred to me that she couldn't really read a map, so I was really getting tested now.
See we all have parts of us that like to have control over certain situations in varying degrees and one of mine is, I like to know where I'm going and where I am on a map(probably a reflection on what I unconsciously do sometimes in life it's self lol). I witnessed myself now starting to get even more anxious. There were parts of me that felt like saying 'look just hand it over to the other person and see what they can workout'. Next minute bang!! something went under the bonnet of my car. I pulled over, this was the first time for many years anything had gone wrong with any of my cars.
Again I took a deep breath, this time my inner guidance said TRUST!!!!, I took a another deep breath and got out of the car and lifted the bonnet, one of the belts had shredded. My first thought was how am I going to fix this, the belt had rapped around the fan, I knew if I could cut the belt, the car was still going to be alright. Next minute a thought had occured to me, that I remember seeing a pair of scissors in my car along time ago and for some reason, when I went to take them out, something said to me (guidance) to leave them in there because I might need them one day, well this was certainly that day. I quickly cut the belt and off we went, no air conditioning and no power steering, but a car none the less that was still sort of drivable.
By this time a huge energy washed over me, part of me was starting to laugh at the whole situation. It was like I could really see the whole experience from above, for what it really was, for some reason to me it was so obvious, it was like it was too obvious, that I could really see through the illusion that had been unfolding all day. I tell you they must have been really laughing up in the clouds, placing all these obstacles in front of me, to see if I would fall from grace. Well for some reason this day, I was fully aware of what was unfolding and what was really going on.
This day my whole being knew, that going to Abdy was going to be special and for some reason after the first incident of the morning that I was going to be tested, that test is one of the most important tests a human being can have throughout their lifetime and that test is 'TRUST'. It's a big one, TRUST just about comes up on a daily bases, alot of things that happen to us are all about TRUST.
I know for me that TRUST has been a big issue throughout my life. When I talk of TRUST, I'm talking about real TRUST, by this I mean trusting in everything that happens in your life is for your highest good. Having a deep sense of TRUST in the universe and life itself as it unfolds. By having TRUST we bring in positive emotions like inner peace, a feeling of being centred and grounded. When we have these energies flowing through us, we are less likely to have negative emotions like stress, anxiety, frustration and fear, no matter what the situation.
Now looking at that day, it could have been quite easy for me to allow what was happening around me to overwhelm me. Don't get me wrong there were little moments where I started to waver, I feel though after all that happened I remained very calm. There were a few more little tests right up until we got there, but you get the gist of what I'm talking about here.
We eventually arrived at the hall, with one minute to spare, yippee. The day was absolutely amazing, the shifts I experienced were profound for myself and I believe everyone involved. Now you wouldnt believe what Abdy spoke of after the session, yep you guess it, it was all about trust and that no matter what happens in your life everything will be ok. The whole day was truly a blessing for me and a catalysts for what is to come in the near future for me and the rest of my life.
My true test of trust is coming up in the not to distant future, my guidance in a meditation had suggested to me that in the last week of November to the first week of December that it is for my highest good to go back to Byron Bay, a place I love. I had the same guidance nearly two years ago, to leave where I was and to move to Byron Bay. So as I promised myself a few months ago that I would always follow my guidance no matter what, so now I'm getting ready to go.
Now what I'll be doing there I'm not quite sure, I just have to go with an open mind and most importantly an open heart. So it really is the final test for me to fully embody TRUST, this lifetime. Our inner guidance is so important for us to follow if we want to experience a more fulfilling life, with hopefully a more easier path to follow. I guess as we live out our life here on earth, it's up to us as individuals if we want to follow divine guidance or our egoic mind. I believe which ever we choose of the two (and it is our choice) we will eventually get to our destination, sooner or later, one's just a little bit less of a bumpy ride. Then again, when I think about it, if we are to remember who we truly are this lifetime we sometimes have to get down and dirty. As you all know, most of the time when we are met with our biggest challenges and come out the other side, we usually don't just take a step, we usually make a jump.
To be continued....
Lending a Hand
Aloha to you all, my friend sent me an email the other day, with a very exciting project. There's a wonderful group of people that have come up with such a simple way to help the world's poorer communities. The concept is easy and very rewarding, you loan money to people, who want to set up their own business.
kiva.org enables you to connect with and loan money to small businesses in the developing world (microfinance). You can make as little as a US$25 loan to help low-income entrepreneurs in the developing world. ‘Sponsoring a business’ is an incredibly direct and effective way for us in the West to provide affordable working capital for the poor (money to buy a sewing machine, livestock, etc.), empowering them to earn their way out of poverty and into economic independence.
As my friend points out, " this concept strikes me as being a great way for me to keep recycling money as well as provide scope to give more than a standard donation – when you get your money back you can use it yourself, or re-loan it. The old saying, ‘give a man a fish and feed him for a day; teach a man how to fish and he can feed himself every day’ morphs to ‘help a man buy fishing equipment and he can feed himself and his family, sell fish as a livelihood, and then repay you so you can do it all over again!"
I don't need to say anymore then, one of the greatest things a human being can experience in their life time is the act of giving to another from the heart. I know I'll be sponsoring someone, anything that's this simple has to be a good thing. So please check it out, you'll find all the info you need, again their website is
www.kiva.org , to give is to receive, its a natural law.
Home is Where the Heart is
Aloha to you all, I just realised that tomorrow is the, 10/10/2007 its exactly a year ago, that I left Australia for India. Like I guess most of us, I cant believe how quickly a year has gone. It truly only feels like yesterday that I was saying goodbye to a good friend of mine at Brisbane airport. I've been witnessing myself over the past couple of days and I've noticed that there's still apart of me that wishes I was still there.
I know that its so important to be in the now and its just as important to have a 'gratitude attitude'. Its funny in the past couple of days friends that I met over in India have been unconsciously contacting me again, to bring up my stuff. I realise too how most of them had touched my soul and brought me great joy. I also realise that its ok, to acknowledge these beautiful souls and my fantastic experience that I had in India and to just let it go.
Something else has come to my attention, when one of my closest friends came and stayed with me over the past week, I hadn't taken any photos of where I live. So I thought I'd place some photos of the area that I live in. It took me awhile to settle down here, because for some reason I never liked the place. If you'd said a year and a half ago that I'd be living in the Sunshine Coast area for a while, I would have laughed my head off, well here I am and have been living here for about four months.
I guess god/goddess wants me to really learn gratitude and to appreciate every part of my life no matter whats happening. I have to realise and fully embrace, that I'm exactly where I'm meant to be, doing exactly what I'm meant to be doing, period. This is a very important teaching for myself and probably most of the population, by having deep gratitude, acceptance and love for all areas of our lives, then we are naturally flowing with life. By trying to fight against certain areas of our lives we automatically become stuck. Instead of flowing down the stream of life in our little canoe, by fighting our circumstances, by resisting them we some how turn our canoe around and start paddling up stream against the flow, what does that bring? suffering and turmoil.
'WHAT WE RESIST, PERSISTS', its sometimes hard to understand this law or to even believe that its possible, believe me it is, 'SO LET GO AND LET GOD'. I had some experiences over the weekend that were very tempting to say least. Last week I was asked, to ring a friend of mine and find out times for a meditation class, I used to attend in another town, before I left to go to India. Well I found out, that my friend no longer lived there, so I got chatting to the lovely lady who owned the house. See my friend used to be her carer, he had told me about it a few months ago. It all seemed so perfect, she was still looking for someone, I had rang, she also wanted someone to do full time healing in her house etc etc. So off I went, down to have an interview with her, it seemed so perfect, I could help someone who really needed help, get back into my healing work full time, live where I really wanted to live, spend more time on my website. Though there was one thing missing, divine timing, my higher self explained to me that it wasn't for my highest good to go there now, plus a few other things.
I thought I had embraced my circumstances fully here, but as soon as an opportunity came up I was ready to drop everything and run. Its nothing to do with anything outside of myself, its feeling comfortable within myself no matter whats happening around me. When I fully learn this lesson then and only then will I move on, into another experience. I realise too that's there's lots of little reasons why I'm here. I ran into a lady not far from where I live, that has a few orphanages in Nepal, its been a dream of mine as some of you would know to first do volunteer work in Nepal, then set up an orphanage as well. She has plenty of contacts and information about it, which is a blessing, who knows it could be a huge reason that I'm on the Sunshine coast, was to meet this lady. Again a huge part of me just wanted to get ticket and go to Nepal, but again its all about divine timing and whats best for me now. For many reasons the universe wants me to stay in the Sunshine Coast, so that's exactly what I'll do, with gratitude, acceptance and love.
Here's some pictures.
View from my room.
The house.
The backyard.
This was taken at a small village called Montville, its about 45 minutes from my place.
This is part of the Kondalilla Falls, my parents used to live about a ten minute walk from here.
This is one of the headlands in a national park about a ten minute drive from my house. As you can see there's plenty of beautiful places to visit, that are only a short drive from where I live, how blessed am I.
Its Blowing in the Wind
Aloha to you all, I came across this article on a very important environmental issue, I've been talking about it off and on for many years now. The issue is, I've never understood how we live in a country(Australia) that has the capacity, to lead the world in new environmental
technology on a large scale and we've done nothing about it.
We have the perfect landscape for solar and wind technology, to probably supply most of our electrical needs, yet I bet you we probably have the least amount of it, in operation in the western world. Why? because for a hundred years we have been run by weak governments. Most of our history we have let other governments dictate to us whats best for us. First it was Great Britain then America, Japan and now more then ever its China.
Behind all of these countries are large multinational companies, with endless amounts of resources, what ever they want they get. Most of these are mining companies, Australia rely heavily on these companies to keep our economy staying strong. It doesn't matter about the destruction of our environment and our future. Its all about how much money they can make now, how many resources they can get now and the quickest way to do it.
For the life of me, I cant see why the Australian government and big business cant see the massive potential, we have in leading the world in new ways to harness our greatest source of energy, the sun. If there's one thing we have an abundance of here in Australia, its the sun and to a lesser extent wind.
I'm happy that someone has had the insight to use our true resources, that benefit both the earth and humankind. Just looking at that word 'Human-kind', we certainly need to take that name on in a bigger way, if we want to save our glorious planet. What does upset me a little bit is that it's taken an overseas company to get the ball rolling instead of and Australian company(which is usually the case). I just pray that now once and for all, everyone jumps on this bandwagon and pushes Australia to lead the world into a brighter future for the earth and all its inhabitants.
Conergy Plans A$2 Bln Australia Wind Farm"
SYDNEY - Conergy Germany's largest solar energy company by sales, said on Monday it plans to build a A$2 billion (US$1.8 billion)wind farm in Australia as part of a plan to expand the company's presence in Asia-Pacific." Planetark>>
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