Ascension Spiritual Blog

Friday, August 29, 2008

Extension of 'What the Bleep'

Namaste everyone, last week someone pasted a comment on my blog. It's regarding a short film on quantum mechanics, called 'The Velvet Revolution'. I probably like everyone else was first introduced to quantum mechanics a few years ago by the series 'What the Bleep'.

I found this short film just as interesting, hope you do as well.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-289524211452018903&ei=muS0SP3_Bqa8qgOT5KisDA&q=the+velvet+revolution

Monday, July 28, 2008

Short Aussie Trip

Namaste to you all,

through my travels around the web I came across this little message. Hope you enjoy it, as I have.

May all my wishes come true.
May all my suffering come to the end.
May all my happiness be fulfilled.

May all wishes of people I love come true.
May all sufferings of people I love come to the end.
May all happiness of people I love be fulfilled.

May all wishes of people I hate come true.
May all suffering of people I hate come to the end.
May all happiness of people I hate be fulfilled.

May all wishes of people who hate me come true.
May all sufferings of people who hate me come to the end.
May all happiness of people who hate me be fulfilled.

May all wishes of all living things come true.
May all sufferings of living things come to the end.
May all happiness of living things be fulfilled.

THANK YOU! THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!
YOU WERE AGAIN BORN HERE IN HEAVEN WITH ME.

I wanted my two Catalan companions to experience
as much of the Australian culture as possible.
Part of that culture (for good or bad) is drinking copious amounts alcohol. So first stop was a famous pub on the Sunshine Coast, Queensland.

As you can see Aussies certainly have some strange terms for things.

I tried to take Antoni out in the bush to see his first kangaroos
in the wild. It didn't happen. Then when we arrived at my parents
place, they said: "Oh!, just go down to the University; their are there all the time".
So we did and here we are, a family of kangaroos.

This was taken in the rainforest, in the hinterland of the Sunshine Coast.

Finally after a few days we arrived on Fraser Island. I believe that to really
see this big, rugged country of ours, 'four wheel drives' are a must. There's endless beaches
and rainforest all around Australia.

One of the local inhabitants....yes! it's a dingo.

There were heaps of beautiful forests all over Fraser, certainly great for tree
hugging hippies...lol

Our first night on Fraser Island. Antoni had never had roasted
marshmallows, so he was like a little kid who'd just been let loose in
a candy store.

Some of the wildlife on Fraser.

Some more wildlife of Fraser, probably one of the most beautiful
creatures that I've ever seen in the wild...he he
This is my beautiful partner Elisenda.

This is Orchid Beach. I felt it was the best place on the island.
We were very fortunate, we were the only ones camping on the whole
beach, ahhh!... paradise.

After a few days on Fraser we took my car back to Brisbane
and hired a van to take us to Cairns. What a ride!, hardly anything worked
on it and by the time we got to Cairns, we thought we'd have to push it
for the last fifty kilometres. In a way it made the trip more fun (in a testing kind of way).

We stopped in a place where I lived sixteen years ago. It's called Bowen. At that
time I felt it had some of the best beaches in Queensland,
and it still has. Its one of the only places I've revisited that hasn't
changed too much.

Another friend we spotted along the way. I haven't seen an echidna for a long time.

We stopped in a few more places on the way up. We finally arrived
in Cairns. A lady told us to go to a special animal park just outside
of the city. What a great place! I know its not as good as the wild,

but Antoni only had a few days left so I thought it would be better
to see some of the animals that he hadn't seen before. It was my first
time ever to see a baby koala. Boy, they are cute.

This strange looking bird is a Cassowary. It's almost alien-like.

We went on a boat ride and feed some of the locals. Crocodiles are everywhere
around the northern end of Australia.

Ahhh... one back for the humans. Don't worry! There were no animals
harmed in this photo, it was already dead... Its a baby
crocodile we found on a beach.

As I said once to an english friend of mine in India: "if the spiders don't kill you
inside the house, the snakes will kill outside of your house.

Up this way, if the crocs don't kill you and if the deadly stingers don't
kill you, the sharks will!", and now, an added danger: the deadly coconut....watch out!!!

Waiting for the plane to go back home, what a trip...

The only picture of the trip home...

Ahhh.... back in Byron Bay.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Still Alive

Namaste to you all, friends, family and to everyone else. Yes I'm still alive, (to all of you out there that I haven't returned phone calls, emails etc, etc, don't take it personally) it's been along time since my last post. There's lots of stories about why I haven't posted anything on blogger for seven months (boy where did that go?) or sent out a newsletter, but they're only stories. Today is another day and now is all we have.

What a roller coaster of a ride it's been this year, as life always is(and if it's not, maybe you should, get in a carriage and take a seat and let go). Well I'll keep it short, changed jobs a few times, was going to sail a yacht back from the Virgin Islands, to Australia for six months. Then it got called off, so I made other plans, then it was back on again, I was couple of days off, ready to fly out to America, then it fell through again(talk about up, down, in, out and even upside down, he he). Then out of the blue, in all of this mayhem, I met the love of my life, the angel that maybe I've been waiting for all my life.

I have been blessed to have met her, for how ever long it lasts, as I've thought to my self, no matter what happens for the rest of my life, I will always remember that I have had, the experience of loving someone, with all my heart and soul and feeling that love returned to me. Some people don't get to experience this divine love, in a whole lifetime and for a while there I thought I was going to be one of them, now I know I've been fully blessed, this lifetime.

I did get a chance to go on a road trip up the east coast of Australia, which was a fascinating experience, I'll post some pictures of my journey, soon. I realised on the trip how I'd forgotten how spectacular this country is, which also brought in gratitude again, for me, because I'd lost it over the past few years, about Australia.

In all that I have experienced over the past seven months, one thing I've come to understand of myself, is that I've realised and understood fully, about the law of attachment. When things were coming my way and going again, I seemed to not be to effected by what was happening around me. Some of these things could have been life changing experiences or a once in a lifetime experience, through it all I just accepted what ever happens, happens for a reason and I mean everything that happens to us on this earth, no matter how trivial we think it is, has a deep reason and hopefully an understanding of ourselves.

Now for some reason, the big ones, I breezed through, I wish I could say the same for the little one's. Boy have fallen for alot of illusions and tests, that have presented themselves in my day to day life. I'm fully aware of how I've been reacting to certain people and events in my life, though for some reason, I have felt stuck and not been able to rise above it. Oh well, it's time to remember what I already know and that is, as I've said many times, everybody, every experience has a gift for us, if we want to blame, be the victim, then the lesson is not learned. Hence the lesson will present itself again and again. Each time in a different body, a different set of circumstances, there's no hiding from it, it will inevitably come into your life, no matter what, SO LEARN.

I was reminded a few months ago, by a friend, about the old saying, 'you know what makes god/goddess laugh the most? when we make plans'. I looked back again over my life and could see, that when my mind made plans, that what I thought was for my highest good, they never materialised. So I guess the key is, to put out to the universe, what you would like to have come into your life and not be attached to the outcome or if it doesn't eventuate, just move on.

Now on a completely different subject, I can highly recommend the CD 'Ma Fleur' by the group Cinematic Orchestra. It's a wonderful CD, maybe not every ones cuppa tea, but it's the best album I've heard in along time.

So now that I'm back online, I'll be placing posts and newsletters as I used to. Many blessings to you all and to the path that you choose.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Merry Christmas - The Reflection

Aloha to you all, a merry Christmas and a happy new year, to you and all of your loved ones. It's that time again, when the big fat fella in the red suit , comes down your chimney and maybe gives you a present or two.

Boy does life sail by in a flurry, I remember if it was only yesterday, writing and article in India, wishing you all a merry Christmas, It feels like only yesterday. Well what a year it's been, there's not been to many people, that I've talked to over the past few weeks that have commented on, what a huge year it's been.

Looking back on it, it's been an amazing year of growth and understanding for myself and I guess for alot of people. Some of it seems a lifetime ago and some of it seems only yesterday.

Reflecting on it on a deeper level for myself, the year 2007 was all about healing wounds around my childhood or patterns if you like. As well as understanding on a deeper level about relationships with myself first and foremost, then partners and everyone else that has come into my life over the past year.

Since arriving back in Byron I've been fully aware and conscious of when ever someone comes into my space to really be present and know that they have a gift of some sort for me, in the words that they speak. Its been such a wonderful thing to be experiencing. There hasn't been a single person that hasn't offered me a gift yet and I know that by thanking them straight away, when I realise the whole reason that they have connected with me, I hope they to can take something from me. This whole universe is all about giving and receiving and all levels, in all situations and it's going on all the time, JUST BE AWARE.

I realised once I arrived in Byron, why I lived on the Sunshine Coast, a place that I never wanted to live. The main gift the universe was presenting me was to once and for all release my fear and anger I had, regarding my childhood. Months ago it occurred to me, that the main reason that I was again living near my mother and father was simply to heal things from my childhood with them. I believe most adults are walking around still carrying their childhood wounds, still playing out their childhood patterns. Most people, most of the time, in most situations come from childhood experiences, mainly hurtful ones. They say in the first seven years of a humans life is what shapes us for the rest of our lives. I believe this to be true, although there are exceptions, when a person becomes awake and aware that there's more to life then just, working, eating, sex and sleep.

You see since I was eighteen I've realise on some level that I needed to work through my stuff, surrounding my childhood. That the way I acted and re-acted in my life was a result of my upbringing. So since I was eighteen I've tried it all, from re-birthing, to etherically calling in my father and speaking my truth from my inner child point of view. Now all these things might have worked on some level, but it wasn't until a friend pointed out to me this year that it needs to be done on a physical level, for it to really be cleared.

So a few weeks before i left the Sunny Coast, I finally did it. I sat down with my father and did a few processes. The first one I was guided to do, was to ask him about his upbringing, about his life. You see this is my stepfather and I've known him since I was four years old, in saying that though I never really knew him. I sat him down and said that I've known you for thirty two years dad, but I know nothing of you. How many of you out there know what your parents lives were like, what they experienced as a child, as a teenager, as an adult. Well I tell you now the stories I had in my head about my father were alot different to what he proceeded to tell me.

I was very surprised to say the least of what he had to tell me about his life. There's one huge thing ,that I did learn though and that was, finally getting to know the man who had a big influence in my life. I understood alot more about him and why he acts and reacts the way he does, it was a true blessing. After he had finished I thanked him and then told him that I'd like to do another process with him, regarding my childhood and up bringing. I explained that I didn't want in sorrys or him to feel any guilt, I just want him to listen and that I was going to speak for my inner child to him.

I sat there and explained to him how I felt as a child and that how I have kept alot of pain in me throughout my life. I tell you all now, as I was talking I could feel myself getting lighter and lighter. It's hard to explain, if you can imagine, it was like with every word I spoke, energy was releasing out of my being. I cant stress enough to you all, how freeing it is to release these wounds we carry from our childhood. If you can do it, if your parent or parents are open to this process, go for it, if you love yourself enough, if you want to really let go of your baggage, if you want to be free, then do it.

Even if you cant do the second process, do the first, it's a wonderful gift as an adult to learn about the people that brought you into this world, or the people who raised you. The key is to remember its not a blaming session, try to remain as calm as possible, speak from your heart. The end result of this process for me, was that in my heart I feel I have finally let go of my fears and anger. The other blessing I received is a stronger bond between me and my father and if that's all I got from it, then what a gift that is.

Before I did the process I told some friends what I was going to do, one of my friends is a physiologist. To my surprise when I explained what I wanted to do, she then told me that, from a physiologists point of view, WHEN AN ADULT CAN SIT DOWN AND DO A PROCESS LIKE THIS OR SIMILAR, THEN THEY FINALLY BECOME AN ADULT IN THE TRUER SENSE, WE RELEASE THE PAIN THAT WE CARRY AS A WOUNDED CHILD. When she explained this to me I knew I had to do it, why wouldn't you.

I hope that this may encourage some of you to do the same, again we only have this lifetime, don't leave it till its to late. Be bold in your life, take risks, I believe that's what the universe wants us to do. Experience all you can, because it's only through experience that we can heal and remember who we truly are and that is 'DIVINE SPARKS OF GOD'.

I thank everybody who has been apart of my life this year from my fantastic friends, to my lovers and family , I thank you all from the centre of my heart for playing out your parts so well, for me to remember what's most important in life, 'LOVE'. To all my friends that supported me through the hard times, I am truly blessed to have you in my life.

To all of you who read this, may you be blessed with love, light and laughter of the highest form over this festive season, may all of your lives and paths be showered with joy, ease and grace.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Friday, December 14, 2007

Divine Bliss

Namaste, Aloha and greetings to you all, well what a fantastic life experience I've been having since arriving 'HOME' (Byron Bay). I emphasise the word home, because finally since arriving back from India seven months ago, it feels like home living back in Byron Bay.

Words cannot describe how I feel, if you could see inside my being, my soul would be dancing uncontrollably. My whole being is bursting with joy and happiness, why? because I followed my heart and my guidance. That's all where here for, its what makes our heart sing, if we're follow our heart everything in the universe supports us and nurtures us. Its like a universal law I believe, a bit like karma, what you put out, you get back.

I know for alot of people its hard to just let go, to just follow your heart, your passion, your guidance, but I tell you now 'ITS ALOT HARDER NOT TO, PERIOD'. So I implore you, if your standing at the edge of that cliff, wanting to dive off into the the abyss, into the true river of life, let go, jump and I assure you, you will be caught by the web of life and carried to places that you'd never had dreamed of. There's an old saying that quite a few people use and its one of my favorites 'FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY'.

As you all know when I left the Sunshine coast, I really had nothing to come to when I arrived in Byron. How quickly that changed, I had meet my first angel a few months back, in Sunshine. We are both involved in a fabulous project, its a healing day that a few of us have organised that will be held on the 19th of January. Its called 'Awaken to Joy', we're hoping to get as many people from around the Sunshine coast community to come together in oneness, through many different forms of healing and fun.

I thought a few weeks ago before I came down to Byron I had worked out some short term accommodation, but unfortunately or so I thought at the time it fell through. Again I didn't panic, I just asked my guidance why this had happened, and it simply said 'that there was a better opportunity coming and just relax', so I did. Well at one of the meetings, my new found angel proceeded to let everyone know that she was moving to Byron Bay in the next few weeks(actually it was one week before I was guided to go) well you didn't have to ask me twice, it was so obvious that this angel could help me. So I asked and of course she said 'yes, I'd gladly have you come and stay'. When I arrived that day, I couldn't have felt more at home, more welcomed by this nurturing angel. The place that I was to live for two weeks, was the last place I had lived in Byron before I went to India. Suffolk Park is about two minutes south of the heart of Byron Bay, its a quaint little village right on the ocean, I was about one hundred metres walk from the beach, how blessed was I, living in what I thought, back then, was the best placed I had ever lived in Australia.

Suffolk Park, paradise at my door step.

My friend and I spent some wonderful time together, we could clearly see right away, that we had connected for many reasons, mainly to help each other grow and heal past experiences mostly to do with relationships. In one of our conversations, where we got on to the subject of people following gurus, she said something that I thought was quite ingenious, yet simple at the same time. She said for me to spell out aloud the word guru, well to my surprise the answer is in the word it self, when you say it out aloud 'G,U,R,U', it says it all. I believe we need teachers in our lives to help us to the next level of consciousness, to show us the way, but I don't believe we in this day an age the need to hand over all our power to someone else.

When we allow the universal current to flow through and around us, things come to us, with ease and grace. This was shown to me within the first few days of arriving in Byron. The next angel appeared for me on day two, she had lined me up a job. It was working on a farm, in the hinterland of Byron, I was to pick blueberries. I knew I had at first, take what I could, what was to unfold was such a heart warming experience. The farm is situated in the rolling hills of the Byron Shire, the place where we were picking blueberries had a stream right next to the crop, you could hear the sound of the waterfall all day. The people I worked with, were such beautiful souls, my boss was more like a long lost friend, instead of an employer. So imagine this, standing there picking blueberries, listing to the birds and a majestic waterfall, laughing and chatting with beautiful people(oh and I might add, eating as many delicious blueberries as possible, heaven).

The other thing I noticed was that everyone I ran into, were so glad to see me back, Byron's like a big community of soul family. The unconditional love that flows around this place is such a blessing. The conversation that transpired between just about everyone I connected with again went something like this, 'Hi great to see you, welcome home, are you here for good? they'd say, 'yes for about a year' , 'fantastic, can I have a healing'. Yes everybody said just about the exact same thing. 'Ok' I said to god, 'I get it you want me to do, go back into healing work'. It was so obvious, that the universe wants me to get back into what I love and what I'm good at. This time I'm going to do it a different way, I'm going to set boundaries on how many healings I do a week, instead of trying to help and assist everyone all at once.

My next little test, was that I had to move out of Suffolk Park, I guess, things had run their course, maybe my friend and I had healed and learned what we needed to, and it was time to move on. Without even putting it out there yet, I was presented with my next gift, I found a room in the hills fives minutes from Byron's CBD. Its a small little community, that two of my soul family live at. I took a trip out there, I'd been there twice before, but only ever at night. What a glorious surprise, this place has its own little Shiva Temple, spring water and an energy that makes your heart open up with joy. As you can imagine I took it straight away. Its like living back in India in a way, this time I have my own little Temple.

The greeting sign at the front gate, it says it all in the name.

My accommodation, simple but sweet.

View from my room.

My own Shiva Temple.

Some of the gardens, ahhh the serenity.

I've been here for a week now, I've met some wonderful people and had such wonderful experiences. Which leads me into my next little teaching, 'THE ART OF MANIFESTING'. On the Monday and Tuesday just gone, I had no work, when it rains you cant pick blueberries, so I wasn't needed. I guess this, in the past would have brought up a little bit of fear, about where I was going to get money from. So on Monday evening I sat in meditation and simply placed out to the universe what I would like to have come into my life, 'NOW'. I asked why I hadn't really got a more stable job yet and that if I'm meant to be here then I would like some more support, with financial matters. My higher self just simply said to 'relax', I already have a job. So as I've said in the past, my guidance is all I have now and that I will trust in it, no matter what. After my meditation I was also called on, to ask Ganesh to clear all obstacles in my path that maybe stopping me form getting my ideal job(Ganesh is the destroyer of illusions and obstacles). With that and this is the key, once you've placed out your intention to the universe, simply let it go, this is the crucial part of the whole process of manifesting, to just let it go, knowing and believing with your whole being that it will come to you.

So Tuesday I awoke completely forgetting about what had occurred the night before, by ten o'clock the phone rang to come in and do some work on the farm. Off I went on my merry way, unaware of what was going to transpire later on that day. After I had finished working, if you could call it that. My boss came up to me and said 'that they were really happy with the way I worked and they wanted to give me more work, for example driving tractors'. I was very humbled and of course I said 'yes', thank you god I said to myself as I drove home that afternoon. While I was cooking my dinner, my phone rang, the person on the other end of the line, was an employer that interviewed me a couple of weeks ago, I'd completely forgotten about them. He said 'you've got the job, can you start tomorrow?, well hows that for manifesting, two jobs in one day, I ended up taking the second one after talking to the farmer, at the end he said that I could come back anytime if I ever wanted a job. Some may say its luck, I don't believe in luck at all, what I do wholly and solely believe in now, is the power of following your heart, following your guidance in everything that you do throughout your life and we are truly taken care of if we're open to it.

I wake up with so much excitement to start the day and have so much gratitude when I lay down to sleep. 'LET GO' , take the plunge, its fun in the river of life, its never boring, everything comes to those who risk to follow their heart.

Byron Bay lighthouse, its known throughout Australia, Its the furthest eastern point of Australia.

The endless beaches of Byron.

If you look closely, you can see a pod of dolphins, around the rocks of the lighthouse throughout the year, you can see whales pass by on their migratory journey up the coast. Dolphin and sea turtles are abundant around Byron.

Another beautiful view of the sacred place.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Faith, Surrender and Flow

Namaste to you all, I haven't written anything for a while, I've been a busy little bee for the past few weeks. I've started up another website and have spent alot of time on it. I've also been trying to do as many hours at work, to get some money together for my next little adventure into the unknown.

The reason why I used the title 'Faith, Surrender and Flow' was due to the three cards I pulled from a spiritual deck of cards today. You see tomorrow is the day I leave for Byron Bay, I asked when I was shuffling the cards, what message did spirit have for me?. These were the three cards I pulled, these three words are what it's all about for me, in this time of change.

You see, as I wrote previously 'TRUST' is a big lesson for me and these three cards have everything to do with 'TRUST'. I was guided, to go back to Byron Bay a few months ago as some of you would know. Why? I don't need to know, other then my guidance suggested that it would be for my highest good. As I've been saying to people lately, if I'm not going to follow and 'TRUST' my guidance I might as well not be on the path I'm on.

I don't know anything about why Im going or whats going to happen, other then it's for my highest good. I don't know where I'll be living or who with, I have no job to go to and not much money to survive on. What I do know, is that somewhere, at some point in time my being wanted me, to finally embody and fully understand the true meaning of 'TRUST' and "FAITH'. 'TRUST' and 'FAITH' that I will and have always been, looked after by spirit or God if you like.

Now I know if I have these two energies with me, everything will unfold perfectly with ease and grace. I also realise that, if I try to control any of the situation down there, I might miss experiences or opportunities that are for my highest good. This is where the surrender comes in, I need to just 'let go and let God' as they say. By surrendering and letting go, I heal the need to control, I also let go of any expectations. By trying to control things, all the time and having sometimes unreasonable expectations, we set ourselves up for disappointment and unhappiness. Remember that when I use the word surrender, I'm not saying that you are yielding to something outside of yourself; you're actually giving in to your soul. When you fully surrender, you're allowing the universe to work through you. Your also permitting spirit, to give you direction and inspiration that's all for your highest good.

To alot of people, just packing up, leaving and going to a new place with nothing but what you have, might not seem a big deal. For me, I have done it a few times in my life, but for some reason even though everything always unfolded perfectly, I still had fear around it. I now know where it came from and you might be surprised to hear this, I traced it back from the moment I was born. Somewhere in my being I took on the belief that, I'm not supported on this earth and not even supported by God. How do I heal this part of me? how do I fully embrace and embody the true meaning of trust, faith, surrender and flow, easy, by meeting it head on. By going and placing myself in an experience that will allow me to learn or as I say remember what I've forgotten.

The other key for me, once I get to Byron, is to go with the flow. If I allow people and circumstances to help and flow to me, then things will be for my highest good. If I allow my egoic mind to take control and go against the flow, well I probably will miss opportunities, that will be more beneficial to me. When we're in the flow, ease and grace flow around us and through us. If were in the flow of the universe, everything falls into place with divine timing. When we resist the great river of life, we usually end up confused, unhappy and then of coarse we experience suffering. Two keys to move into the flow of life, is to have gratitude and appreciation of all that is in your life. Also remember there's a multitude of help from the universe, allow other people to help you and support you, sometimes its hard to ask for help, I know I've had a problem in the past with this one. Remember, 'IF WE UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYONE ON THIS PLANET IS A DIVINE SPARK OF GOD, THAT EVERYONE IS AN ANGEL, THEN WE ONLY HAVE TO ASK', "ASK AND THOW SHALL RECEIVE".

So with an open heart I leave, as soon as I'm set up, I'll send out another post. I don't know how long that will be, if I'm in the flow and following guidance then you'll all hear from me next week, if not then it will be in divine timing.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Three Masters - 2nd and 3rd Masters

Namaste, well after the amazing session with Abdy on the Sunday, I couldn't have felt more happier and at peace. I awoke the next day on cloud nine, fully contented with everything in life. The following afternoon as I was walking past a noticeboard, a small flyer stood out like a beacon above all the other mish, mash of advertisements. It was a flyer about an enlightened Indian guru named Shri Shivarudra Balayogi Maharaj or Babaji for short. The flyer said that he was coming to my area that week, his first teachings were the following night and it was only five minutes from my house. Well I was like a little child (or a woman, he, he) who'd just found the keys to a chocolate factory.

I went straight home and called the number, it was all still going a head. 'How blessed was I', I thought two amazing beings in the same week. I came straight home the following day and got ready for the evening. This is where the second of the masters came into play. I've been living with a beautiful friend and her daughter for the past few months. It's the first time in my life that I have lived with a child before. At first I was a bit hesitant, until my guidance had suggested that it would be good for me.

Now this little master has brought huge joy into my life, and even the odd teaching. As most little four year old's these days seem to have a knowing of truth, this little one is no exception. While I was getting ready to see Babaji, she questioned me on where I was going. When I proceeded to tell her, she kindly interrupted me and explained to me, that it doesn't matter where you go, god is always in your heart. I thanked her for wise words 'no problem' she said. She then went on to tell me, 'no matter what Domonique you should always follow your heart, always'. I guess because I was in such a heart opened state, I really listened to the words that were spoken to me.

As with the Abdy experience, I seemed to be very receptive to what was occurring around me. I had a few minutes to sit and contemplate, if I was truly following my heart. It didn't take long for me long to realise, that I for some reason, I had fallen into the trap of thinking what I should be doing, instead of what was maybe best for me. I sat and thought about what had being unfolding for me since being back in Australia.

I really went deep on what brings me the greatest joy, in this moment. The first guidance that came to me was going back to India, I then saw Nepal and an African country. What was I doing, volunteer work, mainly with children. I then thought then why am I not doing it? well there's no reason what so ever.

Off and on over the past few months, I've had the odd silly thoughts creep in, one of the big one's is, that I should be settling down. I'm nearly 36 yrs old, I have an opportunity to buy a house at the moment, so I should take it, 'BORING'. Looking at it, there parts of me feeling that by going overseas and doing volunteer work, maybe for a few years, wasn't the best thing for a 36yr old Western male to be doing. In other words, yes I started to buy into what most of the Western society thought a man of my age should be doing. House(meaning big mortgage) a wife and kids. Now don't get me wrong, I would love to have these things in my life again, kids are the only thing I haven't done yet, mortgage and wife been there done that. All I have is how my heart feels and at the moment none of these things interest me.

Back to the story, I thanked my little master for reminding me, of such an important thing. 'Following one's heart, sets your soul free, It's what truly living is all about'. I drove to the house where Babaji was having his get together. The space was absolutely gorgeous, people were looking radiant and I could feel the excitement of anticipation in the air. We waited about five minutes for Babaji to arrive, In came a bearded Indian man, with a smile and eyes that felt warmer then a summers day.

Babaji sat on his little daybed, at the front of the room, legs crossed, wrapped in a white robe. You could feel his energy poring fourth, covering us like a warm blanket. We then were given sheets with Indian chanting and songs on it, we sang for about an hour. He then proceeded to teach us a very simple meditation technique that was past down from his guru. Babaji then spoke of all the important things that matter in life, love, peace, god and compassion. The night was full of joy and happiness, especially for me, for I had let go of the Cliff once again, and had dived into the abyss of the divine.

After that night I knew exactly what I would like to experience this lifetime as the one called Domonique. Now I know I've said it a hundred times that its not a good idea to plan to far a head (believe me I've fallen into that trap a few times). I sat and meditated on it all and asked for guidance on what was for my highest good. The first one was obviously to go back to Byron Bay, then I was given a little glimpse of a bit further down the track.

When I got back from India I read the famous book 'Autobiography of a Yogi' when I first read the word Kriya Yoga, it jumped out of the pages, I knew it was either a past life experience or that it was going to be good for me to do this lifetime, well its both. I looked it up on the net, there's a course running next year in November, for six months, in an ashram in Orissa, India. So if it's meant to be that's where I'll start my journey, after that I was shown I'll travel to Nepal and fulfill a hearts desire to work in orphanages. Now as well, I saw a golden thread going to Kenya, in Africa and to my surprise another one that went all the way to Spain. After reading Paulo Coelho's book 'The Pilgrimage' many years ago, I was inspired to do the same pilgrimage the 'Camino de Santiago', well I was shown that this dream will come into fruition, sooner or later.

Even though I was shown all these wonderful thing's the key is not to be attached to them. It's for me to be in the now and to know in my heart, that one day the universe will lead me to these experiences. Again I am meant to be where I am right now, everything is perfectly unfolding as it should be.

I also in the past couple of months have been told by two of my soul sisters on separate occasions to get the book 'A Course In Miracles', what an inspiration. My friend told me to read a certain passage in the book, I'd like to share with you the last part of it.

"I am here ONLY to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Christ, WHO sent me.
I do Not have to worry about what to say or what to do because
He Who sent me will direct me.
I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to Heal"

For me that says it all.

I have one more thing to add, I've wanted to share this with you all for a while now. Its about cemeteries, yep for alot of people there not a place, you'd want to think about too much, unless you had a loved one pass away. I hope I can write this and get my message across, in the right way. One of the biggest ways, I learned gratitude and to wake up to whats really important in life, was to go to a cemetery or just look at one as I was driving pass. How did this help?, you ask, when I was going through probably, the toughest challenge I've gone through in my life, for some reason I used this strange method to break the illusions I was placing myself in. How? by going and reading about people who'd died, from all different eras and all different ages. It reminded me while I was walking around, that I too will be dead one day, just like all of us. It some how snapped me out of the poor me syndrome, it help me let go of fear. It reaffirmed so strongly to me, that my soul might be immortal, but my body is not. It also taught me that at any given moment, when my numbers up, its up.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is 'LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, OR AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, EACH AND EVERY MOMENT, BECAUSE MOMENTS ARE ALL THAT YOU HAVE', If life's not working for you do something about it, in this moment. Find another way, try another way, your the only with the universes help that can do it.

'Forget not once this journey is begun the end is certain. Doubt along the way will come and go and come and go again. Yet is the ending sure, no one can fail to do what god appointed them to do. When you forget, remember that you walk with him with his word upon your heart'.
'A Course in Miracles'.

Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back .. Aloha brothers and sisters and many blessings.