Ascension Spiritual Blog

Relationship Help

2008-12-14T01:17:00.000-08:00

Aloha to everyone, as in my last post I'm going to discuss relationships. I have been chatting to my soul sister about this subject for the past month. I received an email from her the other week. In it she gives her opinion on it all. Now you might have to read it a few times to fully grasp it.

It is wonderful that you are cherishing all the good times and qualities you both shared, for you are honoring the divinity of this creation of love together. You do forget the rest because it isn't based in truth like love is and so does not really exist. Your not alone though hun and your not getting it all wrong either, this is the journey of self discovery that we are all traveling here. I don't know anyone who is in that "ideal" relationship and I truly believe it is a cruel dream to keep holding on to. We all strive for love, as it is innate within us to seek wholeness and union, and it is this which keeps us on our life path of returning all to love in this dimension. I felt very liberated when I let go of the belief that we are here to have fun and embraced that we are here to resolve all unto love that we've held separate from it within ourselves and with others.

When we journey from this perspective the joy and miracles and sense of adventure is naturally realized. We may see others in love, just like you were in the beginning with your beloved, but that is typical in the initial stage of bonding where we only see what we want to see in each other and are on our best behavior, in other words we're more conscious. We are realizing our resonances which allows for our chakric braiding to begin. In this phase we also see each others divine qualities that enhance and inspire us. This is an important stage of bonding within the relationship but it is unrealistic to think that it can be maintained. In the next phase of relationship, as we feel safer and more familiar, we relax a bit more, letting our guard down and our more unconscious tendencies start to show, this is also important and is the beginning of the next cycle where we honor each others differences. This is where our respect grows for each other and a deeper level of trust develops if we are met compassionately. Then if this has been created mutually, a deeper more intimate level of relating blossoms.

In this we feel secure enough to reveal our vulnerable child which is our true nature, but if we're triggered in this open state of being, all our unresolved stuff from our childhood comes up. If this is met with love and compassion it may heal but if not our patterning of protection comes up creating distance through the walls of protection we put up. If acceptance and trust are developed in this stage though, then we move into the next phase of the relationship cycle where both individuals now feel safe to be totally who they are and will naturally start to explore more of their individual natures. During this growth phase there may be a moving away from each other a little to feel free enough to fully explore and reveal more of their soul essence. Then the urge to move out into the world with this new found expression of self occurs, this is natural as we want to share this with others.

Often ones life purpose is discovered in this phase and resonant people are drawn together to co-create with one another when we are expressing from our true essence. There is often a strong drive to create and bond with others and move forward in this phase and this is often misunderstood by partners if they are not yet in the same phase. This is where feelings of abandonment or jealousy may arise. The one growing will feel trapped by this and the other partner will feel betrayed. With both of these energies being held unresolved within the relationship infidelity is the likely outcome.Unresolved insecurities held by one or both partners through these initial phases of the relationship can unfortunately lead to separation if denied. If however we can trust enough to allow the space for individual growth, talk honesty, give the support and love each other through this growth phase, both will come together again with even more to offer each other, which is what keeps a relationship fresh and alive as opposed to stagnant, stale and limiting.

Unresolved insecurities held by one or both partners through these initial phases of the relationship can unfortunately lead to separation if denied. If however we can trust enough to allow the space for individual growth, talk honesty, give the support and love each other through this growth phase, both will come together again with even more to offer each other, which is what keeps a relationship fresh and alive as opposed to stagnant, stale and limiting. Once all these stages have been journeyed together through a full cycle with love, respect, trust and honesty, it is then that one usually feels the desire to marry which is the next phase of loving relationship. There is the knowing there will be the freedom to be who you are and both look forward to growing and exploring together in such a supportive relationship.

If however through any of these stages the respect, trust, and honoring of the differentiation and each others unique qualities is not founded in love, then weak links are created. These weaknesses can then easily break the next time there is any strain or stress within either partners journey, again threatening separation.I'm writing all this not to tell you what to do but to share what I've come to witness through my own journey with relationship as it may help you see things from a new perspective. I find if I can identify which phase of the relationship I'm in and where I've tended to falter in the past I can be more aware of my weak links. These are usually revealed through the reflection my partner is offering. Knowing this i can get perspective and not take it all so personally which allows me to work on my own stuff, and lovingly embrace my partner too so he can feel safe to move forward into more of himself.

So far this is working for us, I am lucky he is wanting to work in this way too, he has been just as frustrated and hurt in the past through relationships as me so we are determined to work together in the name of love. It is hard at times to be so vulnerable and open, especially when my pride gets in the way or I fear he will leave me or be hurt if I share my truths, but every time I have had the courage to do so everything miraculously changes for us.

Love and Relationships

2008-12-13T23:46:00.000-08:00

Namaste to you all, well thing's have finally settled down for me over the past two weeks. I'm working on the Western Australian coast in a mining town called Karratha. It's not my kind of place, though it's serving it's purpose and that is to get fast cash. I've met alot of wonderful people here and believe I've met two life long friends, which is certainly a blessing.

I hope to leave around the 28th of December and head south for my next experience. I've been told by everyone there's some magical places all the way down the coast and the biggest blessing will be to get surfing again.

Now about the title, relationships can be at times one of the hardest things in our lives to have success in. Just about every human on this planet yearn's for that perfect relationship. I believe when everyone realises(as well as myself) that the perfect relationship we all seek, is first and foremost one with ourselves. When we feel good in ourselves, have self-love and are completely comfortable being by ourselves and comfortable with who we are, we then have a chance to bring that special someone into to our lives. As I believe like attracts like. Are relationships just for us to grow, help and learn together? I believe so.

I was contemplating the other day about the holy trinity many enlighten beings have talked about throughout time. For me the holy trinity is between god, yourself and your partner. Let me explain, when you have all of these three areas in your life in perfect harmony, then life is a wonderful, awesome experience. Unfortunately when you focus to much on anyone of these parts, I believe this creates suffering and usually a relationship breakup, whether it's with yourself, god or your partner.

So the key is to pay attention to the three parts of the trinity. Again as I've written before, BALANCE is the key. We all want to create a divine union with another person and the only way to do this is giving equal amounts of love and attention to all three. I see that it creates a stream from your heart to your partners and then to god. It keeps a constant flow of giving and receiving and that's how just about everything in this universe works. Give love and attention to self, god and your partner, receive love and attention from self, god and your partner, it's easy!(yeah right)

Now that I'm awake to this, I'm bringing it into my everyday life and what a transformation I have experienced. My heart is fully open to all that is, my love for self, life etc. has come back ten fold, I couldn't be more happier and at peace.

Another thing I've been fortunately enough to experience lately, is sharing. When I'm talking about sharing here I'm referring to sharing ones wounds, secrets and inner thoughts, in other words sharing everything. To be honest I've come to realise that I've never done this my entire life. The greatest reward from this, is I'm also doing it with a woman. That may sound strange but for one reason or another there's being parts of me that have never wanted to fully open up to a woman. I've always had blockages to this, parts of me that had an illusion that I couldn't trust anyone to reveal my stuff and feel safe doing so.

So whats been the result of sharing? I feel safe for a start, again that sounds strange but I know that deep down alot of people in this world don't feel completely safe to reveal their life experiences in case their not accepted or the other person might see them in a different light. Secondly I feel free, in fact I feel lighter then I have done for years, why? because I'm letting go of baggage. I'm letting go of stale energy that I guess I've been carrying around with me since I was a child. Thirdly to trust another in this world completely is a blessing in it's self. It's brought me such happiness to have finally let go and trust completely in someone else. I want to thank this person now with all my heart and soul. I have been so blessed to have you in my life, thank you.

I've also been talking to a friend about letting go on a conscious level all that isn't yours. In other words letting go of beliefs from your parents, your society and the global consciousness itself. When we realise that we're all carrying around heaps of other peoples stuff, then we can move forward in letting it all go and finally finding out who we truly are, what we truly believe in and how we would really act in everyday life. So this is what I'm going to focus on over the next few months(probably take a lifetime) is sorting out whats my stuff and whats everyone else's.

Aussie Adventure

2008-11-22T20:34:00.000-08:00

Namaste everyone, well I finally made it to Broome, which is on the coast of Western Australia.You wouldn't believe how ecstatic I was to finally swim in the ocean again. It had been about nine or ten weeks since I'd seen the ocean and to a surfer that's agony. I couldn't believe my luck, I actually got to go surfing yesterday, it was only small but it was still big enough to catch a few. I've been able to stand back and witness how more centred and happy I am when I'm near the ocean, I feel a completely different person when near the water.

These next few posts I'm just going to place mainly pictures on them so you can all see what a wonderful country australia is.

Just playing with the camera.

This was taken in South Australia, the area is a few hours south of Adelaide.

We both enjoyed this area immensely.

One of the many problems crossing the country, I was fast asleep and Elisenda was driving,
boy what a fright I had when it exploded, thank god

Elisenda was able to control the car.

Another boarder crossing.

We just crossed the boarder of South australia and the Northern Territory
when we came across a few wedge tail eagles. When I went over to take some photo's
I found two huge tail feathers, we both thought it to be a blessing and a good sign.

This photo was taken on the way, it's actually sand under the fog,
I think we were just starting to hit the desert at this time.

This was taken just outside of Coober Pedy, we finally made it to the desert.

We were told about a place in Coober Pedy where you could camp underground.
This was one of the air shafts, it certainly was an experience.

Traveling Australia

2008-11-12T23:25:00.000-08:00

Namaste to you all, I'm finally ready to begin again on my Aussie adventure. It was great to spend sometime staying in the one place for awhile, but now it's time to move on again. In the short time that I've spent in Alice Springs, I've certainly come to realise that there are still places around Australia where the people make the place what it is.

I realised fully that it's the people that makes a place and not just the place it's self. Alice reminds me of how most of Australia used to be. I really don't know exactly when it changed(probably after September 11) people became closed and fearful. I remember how it didn't really matter where you went or who you met, Australians were always ready to help in anyway they could. In other words their hearts were more open and helping people was part of Australian culture. I and probably alot of people have certainly noticed a shift in energy around the globe since Barack Obama got elected.

I believe we have finally turned a corner in our evolution. I feel we now have a chance to change our destiny. Whether anyone wants to admit it, America is probably one of the only countries in the world that can influence the whole of humanity. In other words if America can change and go down the road of peace, compassion and understanding, then I feel the rest of the world will follow.

Here's some more pictures of this beautiful country

This was taken along the roadside in South Australia, not sure what crop it is, it's everywhere in this area.

I brought a yabbi trap in N.S.W so my friend could see, then taste what a freshwater yabbi tastes like. You just throw them in a pot of boiling water or even better straight on the BBQ. They taste just like a prawn.

This unusual place is a saltwater lake. This lake in particular in Victoria is called the Pink Lake.

The salt covers everything, it's a very strange place to see.

We found this Blue tongue lizard near the lake. If theres one thing that's great about Australia
is how easy it is to come across wildlife where ever you go.

We stayed in a national park that was in South Australia. Because it was right at the bottom of Australia in the Southern Ocean, it had a feel as if you were in Scotland(cold, green and breezy) I loved it.

Trying to keep out of the cold wind.

This was taken in a wonderful place called Rapid Bay. I know I haven't been to Scotland
but this whole area felt like Scotland(I must have had a past life in Scotland, it felt so familiar to me, like I'd been there before) I cant wait to actually experience the real thing.

Traveling Australia

2008-11-09T14:58:00.000-08:00

Namaste to you all, well as some of you know for the past few months I've been fortunate enough to get a chance to travel around my own country with one of my best friends. At the moment it feels as though it could be the last time I see Australia for quite awhile, so I guess it's important to me now to take a look at my own country before I head back overseas.

Our plan was to travel from the east coast to the west coast. Well for some reason we've been stuck in the middle for a month now. Yep alot of things have happened to keep us around what I call the heart of the nation 'Uluru' or (Ayers Rock as it was once called). It certainly has been interesting living in Alice Springs, which is the closest largest town near the rock. I have never lived in a town where a majority of the population are aboriginal.

I have never understood the plight of the native people of Australia and after spending a month here I'm still no further down the road of understanding how as a nation we can help the aboriginals to help themselves. Now the most obvious thing to alot of people say is education! well what I've seen so far is that, that cant work yet with these people because 90% of the children refuse to go to school and their parents don't make them.

So how can you educate a person if they don't turn up to learn. When I'm talking about education I'm not really just talking about white mans model eg maths, science and english. I mean this certainly helps in this world to have an education, but I think first and foremost these people need to learn about some of the basics of life it self, again. I think through all the pain and abuse as a people they've some how along the road, have forgotten the basic way to live in a semi-harmonious way.

Alice Springs has some of the worst statistics for crime in the world, as well as having been known to have the most alcoholics per-capita in the world. The people I have met in the town talk about how huge the mountain is to climb to help these people, alot of them cant even see the light at the end of the tunnel yet. One friend talks of the only way these people can move forward is, time! Time is needed to heal the pain and suffering these people go through and have been through. I fully agree with this statement, but what can we do to speed up the process of healing? After being around here seeing and hearing from whites and blacks I'm not quite sure.

I used to say about everybody in any situation, if you play victim you will never heal, you will never grow and move on. I still maintain that is the problem with most humans, especially these days. Humans have for some reason taken on the idea that we don't have to be responsible for our own actions, that it is because of other people, other circumstances outside of ourselves that we behave the way we do. Well sorry but I believe that once a person turns around say eighteen to twenty one years old, then it is about this time that we have to understand that we are responsible for everything we do and everything that happens in our lives.

If you want to be happy, successful, miserable, kind, loved, hated, addicted to a substance, rich, poor, etc, etc, then you and only you can have the power to change, to be what you want to be. I know some people will say but that isn't the case with everyone! some peoples circumstances are just to hard to rise above, some people don't have the choice, well that can also be very true and I can understand this. Some peoples tests are huge, but it still doesn't have to be the way they think it has to be, because as a species we all have one thing in common, we all have a thing called CHOICE!!!

Here are some pictures we've taken on our travels.

This pretty well sums up how alot of Aussies try and go about life.

This unusual little creature looks pretty harmless, dont be fooled their called blue bottles.
These little fellas have created many surfers and swimmers plenty of pain.

We stayed at one of my favorite places along the East Coast of Australia, Seals Rocks. It's still pretty untouched, which is very rare for Australia these days.

The surfing at Seals is excellent, as well as the fishing. It's great to see the local fisherman still going out in their little boats, pulling their nets in, as they've done for a hundred years.

We were told this shark was caught a day or so before the picture was taken. The locals were quite upset that the man didn't release it back into the water(and we wonder why so many creatures are becoming extinct).

Some of the locals lazying about, these guys are wild, just very friendly.

This is where I grew up as a kid. I haven't been back to the house where I spent most of my life for about nine years, ah the memories.

This pub is at Windsor, a small river town west of Sydney.

The Three Sisters is one of the most well known tourist attractions in N.S.W. Its situated in the Blue Mountains(one of my favorite places in the world).

We found a fantastic little camp ground in the heart of the Blue Mountains. We met some great people here that have been travelling around OZ for awhile. It was very significant to meet these people, they had a book called 'Camps 4' it's an atlas of Australia, that has every free camp ground in Australia. This book has been our bible, we've saved heaps of money. If you want to drive around Australia, please do yourself a big favour get this book.

The Death of the Postcard

2008-11-03T19:37:00.000-08:00

Namaste to you all, I'd like to share with you all, what I believe is one of the most important universal laws. 'Support to our fellow brothers and sisters' this law I believe is one of the main reasons that we are on this earth, supporting and helping our fellowman in anyway we can.

If this law alone was followed by most of humanity, this world would be a much more peaceful, joyful and loving place. If we share what we have with others, if we can help in anyway possible, our own prosperity increases. Now we need to remember here, that the primary goal is to help each other first, not the reward first. If your looking for reward and acknowledgement first, then you've missed the point and the whole process will backfire.

Now to the story, I met a wonderful couple Adrian and Zoe in India, last year. The first thing I noticed about these two, was their kindness and their warm friendliness, to everyone that crossed their paths. I was very fortunate and blessed to spend some fantastic times with both of them.

At the time Ade was working on a documentary called "The Death of the Postcard" well its finished now. I was privileged to be sent the documentary a few weeks ago. I realised as he was making the film, the strong dedication he had in making this documentary, something else was very prevalent to me and what I think is even more important then just dedication and that was his passion and love for what he was doing.

So here is my little help, firstly for a friend, a brother and for what I think is a wonderful documentary. If you've ever travelled to India or South America backpacking, then I know you'll relate and enjoy this film.

"The DEATH OF THE POSTCARD"
'Experimental Travel Documentary around India and South America (50 mins). Director Adrian Barber collected thousands of e-mails, photos and video clips from travelers to create a shared view and narrative of contemporary travel and travel correspondence. Experience the highs and lows of travel, the bustle of the carnival, the silence of the salt flats, trek high into the Himalayas to the source of the Ganges, or walk the ghats in the ancient city of Varanasi in this beautiful and poetic film, described simply as "the life of a traveler'.

Just click on the link to go straight to his website, The Death Of The PostCard

Mayan Video

2008-10-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

Namaste to you all, well there's one thing I've found out travelling around Australia, they say that we're a developed country, well my friends as far as internet services go, we would rate worse then most third world countries. There's hardly any internet cafes in the middle of Australia and as far as wireless goes half of them haven't ever heard of it before.

Hence no posts or newsletters from Ascension Gateway. I'm in Alice Springs for awhile getting repairs to my car, so I now can get on the net, yippee.

I've wanted to place this video online for probably six weeks now, I found it very interesting as I'm sure most of you will. It certainly opens your eyes up to whats been unfolding around the globe, especially the stock markets and so on. It's not how I wanted to present it, but you'll get the idea. Ian makes alot of sense regarding the Mayan calendar, it certainly will be interesting to see what unfolds.

http://video.google.com.au/videosearch?num=100&hl=en&newwindow=1&safe=off&q=The%20Mayan%20Calendar%20-%20The%20Evolution%20Continues%20&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wv#

Extension of 'What the Bleep'

2008-08-29T01:50:00.000-07:00

Namaste everyone, last week someone pasted a comment on my blog. It's regarding a short film on quantum mechanics, called 'The Velvet Revolution'. I probably like everyone else was first introduced to quantum mechanics a few years ago by the series 'What the Bleep'.

I found this short film just as interesting, hope you do as well.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-289524211452018903&ei=muS0SP3_Bqa8qgOT5KisDA&q=the+velvet+revolution

Short Aussie Trip

2008-07-28T21:04:00.000-07:00

Namaste to you all,

through my travels around the web I came across this little message. Hope you enjoy it, as I have.

May all my wishes come true.
May all my suffering come to the end.
May all my happiness be fulfilled.

May all wishes of people I love come true.
May all sufferings of people I love come to the end.
May all happiness of people I love be fulfilled.

May all wishes of people I hate come true.
May all suffering of people I hate come to the end.
May all happiness of people I hate be fulfilled.

May all wishes of people who hate me come true.
May all sufferings of people who hate me come to the end.
May all happiness of people who hate me be fulfilled.

May all wishes of all living things come true.
May all sufferings of living things come to the end.
May all happiness of living things be fulfilled.

THANK YOU! THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!
YOU WERE AGAIN BORN HERE IN HEAVEN WITH ME.

I wanted my two Catalan companions to experience
as much of the Australian culture as possible.
Part of that culture (for good or bad) is drinking copious amounts alcohol. So first stop was a famous pub on the Sunshine Coast, Queensland.

As you can see Aussies certainly have some strange terms for things.

I tried to take Antoni out in the bush to see his first kangaroos
in the wild. It didn't happen. Then when we arrived at my parents
place, they said: "Oh!, just go down to the University; their are there all the time".
So we did and here we are, a family of kangaroos.

This was taken in the rainforest, in the hinterland of the Sunshine Coast.

Finally after a few days we arrived on Fraser Island. I believe that to really
see this big, rugged country of ours, 'four wheel drives' are a must. There's endless beaches
and rainforest all around Australia.

One of the local inhabitants....yes! it's a dingo.

There were heaps of beautiful forests all over Fraser, certainly great for tree
hugging hippies...lol

Our first night on Fraser Island. Antoni had never had roasted
marshmallows, so he was like a little kid who'd just been let loose in
a candy store.

Some of the wildlife on Fraser.

Some more wildlife of Fraser, probably one of the most beautiful
creatures that I've ever seen in the wild...he he
This is my beautiful partner Elisenda.

This is Orchid Beach. I felt it was the best place on the island.
We were very fortunate, we were the only ones camping on the whole
beach, ahhh!... paradise.

After a few days on Fraser we took my car back to Brisbane
and hired a van to take us to Cairns. What a ride!, hardly anything worked
on it and by the time we got to Cairns, we thought we'd have to push it
for the last fifty kilometres. In a way it made the trip more fun (in a testing kind of way).

We stopped in a place where I lived sixteen years ago. It's called Bowen. At that
time I felt it had some of the best beaches in Queensland,
and it still has. Its one of the only places I've revisited that hasn't
changed too much.

Another friend we spotted along the way. I haven't seen an echidna for a long time.

We stopped in a few more places on the way up. We finally arrived
in Cairns. A lady told us to go to a special animal park just outside
of the city. What a great place! I know its not as good as the wild,

but Antoni only had a few days left so I thought it would be better
to see some of the animals that he hadn't seen before. It was my first
time ever to see a baby koala. Boy, they are cute.

This strange looking bird is a Cassowary. It's almost alien-like.

We went on a boat ride and feed some of the locals. Crocodiles are everywhere
around the northern end of Australia.

Ahhh... one back for the humans. Don't worry! There were no animals
harmed in this photo, it was already dead... Its a baby
crocodile we found on a beach.

As I said once to an english friend of mine in India: "if the spiders don't kill you
inside the house, the snakes will kill outside of your house.

Up this way, if the crocs don't kill you and if the deadly stingers don't
kill you, the sharks will!", and now, an added danger: the deadly coconut....watch out!!!

Waiting for the plane to go back home, what a trip...

The only picture of the trip home...

Ahhh.... back in Byron Bay.

Still Alive

2008-07-22T19:26:00.000-07:00

Namaste to you all, friends, family and to everyone else. Yes I'm still alive, (to all of you out there that I haven't returned phone calls, emails etc, etc, don't take it personally) it's been along time since my last post. There's lots of stories about why I haven't posted anything on blogger for seven months (boy where did that go?) or sent out a newsletter, but they're only stories. Today is another day and now is all we have.

What a roller coaster of a ride it's been this year, as life always is(and if it's not, maybe you should, get in a carriage and take a seat and let go). Well I'll keep it short, changed jobs a few times, was going to sail a yacht back from the Virgin Islands, to Australia for six months. Then it got called off, so I made other plans, then it was back on again, I was couple of days off, ready to fly out to America, then it fell through again(talk about up, down, in, out and even upside down, he he). Then out of the blue, in all of this mayhem, I met the love of my life, the angel that maybe I've been waiting for all my life.

I have been blessed to have met her, for how ever long it lasts, as I've thought to my self, no matter what happens for the rest of my life, I will always remember that I have had, the experience of loving someone, with all my heart and soul and feeling that love returned to me. Some people don't get to experience this divine love, in a whole lifetime and for a while there I thought I was going to be one of them, now I know I've been fully blessed, this lifetime.

I did get a chance to go on a road trip up the east coast of Australia, which was a fascinating experience, I'll post some pictures of my journey, soon. I realised on the trip how I'd forgotten how spectacular this country is, which also brought in gratitude again, for me, because I'd lost it over the past few years, about Australia.

In all that I have experienced over the past seven months, one thing I've come to understand of myself, is that I've realised and understood fully, about the law of attachment. When things were coming my way and going again, I seemed to not be to effected by what was happening around me. Some of these things could have been life changing experiences or a once in a lifetime experience, through it all I just accepted what ever happens, happens for a reason and I mean everything that happens to us on this earth, no matter how trivial we think it is, has a deep reason and hopefully an understanding of ourselves.

Now for some reason, the big ones, I breezed through, I wish I could say the same for the little one's. Boy have fallen for alot of illusions and tests, that have presented themselves in my day to day life. I'm fully aware of how I've been reacting to certain people and events in my life, though for some reason, I have felt stuck and not been able to rise above it. Oh well, it's time to remember what I already know and that is, as I've said many times, everybody, every experience has a gift for us, if we want to blame, be the victim, then the lesson is not learned. Hence the lesson will present itself again and again. Each time in a different body, a different set of circumstances, there's no hiding from it, it will inevitably come into your life, no matter what, SO LEARN.

I was reminded a few months ago, by a friend, about the old saying, 'you know what makes god/goddess laugh the most? when we make plans'. I looked back again over my life and could see, that when my mind made plans, that what I thought was for my highest good, they never materialised. So I guess the key is, to put out to the universe, what you would like to have come into your life and not be attached to the outcome or if it doesn't eventuate, just move on.

Now on a completely different subject, I can highly recommend the CD 'Ma Fleur' by the group Cinematic Orchestra. It's a wonderful CD, maybe not every ones cuppa tea, but it's the best album I've heard in along time.

So now that I'm back online, I'll be placing posts and newsletters as I used to. Many blessings to you all and to the path that you choose.

Merry Christmas - The Reflection

2007-12-23T14:24:00.000-08:00

Aloha to you all, a merry Christmas and a happy new year, to you and all of your loved ones. It's that time again, when the big fat fella in the red suit , comes down your chimney and maybe gives you a present or two.

Boy does life sail by in a flurry, I remember if it was only yesterday, writing and article in India, wishing you all a merry Christmas, It feels like only yesterday. Well what a year it's been, there's not been to many people, that I've talked to over the past few weeks that have commented on, what a huge year it's been.

Looking back on it, it's been an amazing year of growth and understanding for myself and I guess for alot of people. Some of it seems a lifetime ago and some of it seems only yesterday.

Reflecting on it on a deeper level for myself, the year 2007 was all about healing wounds around my childhood or patterns if you like. As well as understanding on a deeper level about relationships with myself first and foremost, then partners and everyone else that has come into my life over the past year.

Since arriving back in Byron I've been fully aware and conscious of when ever someone comes into my space to really be present and know that they have a gift of some sort for me, in the words that they speak. Its been such a wonderful thing to be experiencing. There hasn't been a single person that hasn't offered me a gift yet and I know that by thanking them straight away, when I realise the whole reason that they have connected with me, I hope they to can take something from me. This whole universe is all about giving and receiving and all levels, in all situations and it's going on all the time, JUST BE AWARE.

I realised once I arrived in Byron, why I lived on the Sunshine Coast, a place that I never wanted to live. The main gift the universe was presenting me was to once and for all release my fear and anger I had, regarding my childhood. Months ago it occurred to me, that the main reason that I was again living near my mother and father was simply to heal things from my childhood with them. I believe most adults are walking around still carrying their childhood wounds, still playing out their childhood patterns. Most people, most of the time, in most situations come from childhood experiences, mainly hurtful ones. They say in the first seven years of a humans life is what shapes us for the rest of our lives. I believe this to be true, although there are exceptions, when a person becomes awake and aware that there's more to life then just, working, eating, sex and sleep.

You see since I was eighteen I've realise on some level that I needed to work through my stuff, surrounding my childhood. That the way I acted and re-acted in my life was a result of my upbringing. So since I was eighteen I've tried it all, from re-birthing, to etherically calling in my father and speaking my truth from my inner child point of view. Now all these things might have worked on some level, but it wasn't until a friend pointed out to me this year that it needs to be done on a physical level, for it to really be cleared.

So a few weeks before i left the Sunny Coast, I finally did it. I sat down with my father and did a few processes. The first one I was guided to do, was to ask him about his upbringing, about his life. You see this is my stepfather and I've known him since I was four years old, in saying that though I never really knew him. I sat him down and said that I've known you for thirty two years dad, but I know nothing of you. How many of you out there know what your parents lives were like, what they experienced as a child, as a teenager, as an adult. Well I tell you now the stories I had in my head about my father were alot different to what he proceeded to tell me.

I was very surprised to say the least of what he had to tell me about his life. There's one huge thing ,that I did learn though and that was, finally getting to know the man who had a big influence in my life. I understood alot more about him and why he acts and reacts the way he does, it was a true blessing. After he had finished I thanked him and then told him that I'd like to do another process with him, regarding my childhood and up bringing. I explained that I didn't want in sorrys or him to feel any guilt, I just want him to listen and that I was going to speak for my inner child to him.

I sat there and explained to him how I felt as a child and that how I have kept alot of pain in me throughout my life. I tell you all now, as I was talking I could feel myself getting lighter and lighter. It's hard to explain, if you can imagine, it was like with every word I spoke, energy was releasing out of my being. I cant stress enough to you all, how freeing it is to release these wounds we carry from our childhood. If you can do it, if your parent or parents are open to this process, go for it, if you love yourself enough, if you want to really let go of your baggage, if you want to be free, then do it.

Even if you cant do the second process, do the first, it's a wonderful gift as an adult to learn about the people that brought you into this world, or the people who raised you. The key is to remember its not a blaming session, try to remain as calm as possible, speak from your heart. The end result of this process for me, was that in my heart I feel I have finally let go of my fears and anger. The other blessing I received is a stronger bond between me and my father and if that's all I got from it, then what a gift that is.

Before I did the process I told some friends what I was going to do, one of my friends is a physiologist. To my surprise when I explained what I wanted to do, she then told me that, from a physiologists point of view, WHEN AN ADULT CAN SIT DOWN AND DO A PROCESS LIKE THIS OR SIMILAR, THEN THEY FINALLY BECOME AN ADULT IN THE TRUER SENSE, WE RELEASE THE PAIN THAT WE CARRY AS A WOUNDED CHILD. When she explained this to me I knew I had to do it, why wouldn't you.

I hope that this may encourage some of you to do the same, again we only have this lifetime, don't leave it till its to late. Be bold in your life, take risks, I believe that's what the universe wants us to do. Experience all you can, because it's only through experience that we can heal and remember who we truly are and that is 'DIVINE SPARKS OF GOD'.

I thank everybody who has been apart of my life this year from my fantastic friends, to my lovers and family , I thank you all from the centre of my heart for playing out your parts so well, for me to remember what's most important in life, 'LOVE'. To all my friends that supported me through the hard times, I am truly blessed to have you in my life.

To all of you who read this, may you be blessed with love, light and laughter of the highest form over this festive season, may all of your lives and paths be showered with joy, ease and grace.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Divine Bliss

2007-12-14T22:04:00.000-08:00

Namaste, Aloha and greetings to you all, well what a fantastic life experience I've been having since arriving 'HOME' (Byron Bay). I emphasise the word home, because finally since arriving back from India seven months ago, it feels like home living back in Byron Bay.

Words cannot describe how I feel, if you could see inside my being, my soul would be dancing uncontrollably. My whole being is bursting with joy and happiness, why? because I followed my heart and my guidance. That's all where here for, its what makes our heart sing, if we're follow our heart everything in the universe supports us and nurtures us. Its like a universal law I believe, a bit like karma, what you put out, you get back.

I know for alot of people its hard to just let go, to just follow your heart, your passion, your guidance, but I tell you now 'ITS ALOT HARDER NOT TO, PERIOD'. So I implore you, if your standing at the edge of that cliff, wanting to dive off into the the abyss, into the true river of life, let go, jump and I assure you, you will be caught by the web of life and carried to places that you'd never had dreamed of. There's an old saying that quite a few people use and its one of my favorites 'FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY'.

As you all know when I left the Sunshine coast, I really had nothing to come to when I arrived in Byron. How quickly that changed, I had meet my first angel a few months back, in Sunshine. We are both involved in a fabulous project, its a healing day that a few of us have organised that will be held on the 19th of January. Its called 'Awaken to Joy', we're hoping to get as many people from around the Sunshine coast community to come together in oneness, through many different forms of healing and fun.

I thought a few weeks ago before I came down to Byron I had worked out some short term accommodation, but unfortunately or so I thought at the time it fell through. Again I didn't panic, I just asked my guidance why this had happened, and it simply said 'that there was a better opportunity coming and just relax', so I did. Well at one of the meetings, my new found angel proceeded to let everyone know that she was moving to Byron Bay in the next few weeks(actually it was one week before I was guided to go) well you didn't have to ask me twice, it was so obvious that this angel could help me. So I asked and of course she said 'yes, I'd gladly have you come and stay'. When I arrived that day, I couldn't have felt more at home, more welcomed by this nurturing angel. The place that I was to live for two weeks, was the last place I had lived in Byron before I went to India. Suffolk Park is about two minutes south of the heart of Byron Bay, its a quaint little village right on the ocean, I was about one hundred metres walk from the beach, how blessed was I, living in what I thought, back then, was the best placed I had ever lived in Australia.

Suffolk Park, paradise at my door step.

My friend and I spent some wonderful time together, we could clearly see right away, that we had connected for many reasons, mainly to help each other grow and heal past experiences mostly to do with relationships. In one of our conversations, where we got on to the subject of people following gurus, she said something that I thought was quite ingenious, yet simple at the same time. She said for me to spell out aloud the word guru, well to my surprise the answer is in the word it self, when you say it out aloud 'G,U,R,U', it says it all. I believe we need teachers in our lives to help us to the next level of consciousness, to show us the way, but I don't believe we in this day an age the need to hand over all our power to someone else.

When we allow the universal current to flow through and around us, things come to us, with ease and grace. This was shown to me within the first few days of arriving in Byron. The next angel appeared for me on day two, she had lined me up a job. It was working on a farm, in the hinterland of Byron, I was to pick blueberries. I knew I had at first, take what I could, what was to unfold was such a heart warming experience. The farm is situated in the rolling hills of the Byron Shire, the place where we were picking blueberries had a stream right next to the crop, you could hear the sound of the waterfall all day. The people I worked with, were such beautiful souls, my boss was more like a long lost friend, instead of an employer. So imagine this, standing there picking blueberries, listing to the birds and a majestic waterfall, laughing and chatting with beautiful people(oh and I might add, eating as many delicious blueberries as possible, heaven).

The other thing I noticed was that everyone I ran into, were so glad to see me back, Byron's like a big community of soul family. The unconditional love that flows around this place is such a blessing. The conversation that transpired between just about everyone I connected with again went something like this, 'Hi great to see you, welcome home, are you here for good? they'd say, 'yes for about a year' , 'fantastic, can I have a healing'. Yes everybody said just about the exact same thing. 'Ok' I said to god, 'I get it you want me to do, go back into healing work'. It was so obvious, that the universe wants me to get back into what I love and what I'm good at. This time I'm going to do it a different way, I'm going to set boundaries on how many healings I do a week, instead of trying to help and assist everyone all at once.

My next little test, was that I had to move out of Suffolk Park, I guess, things had run their course, maybe my friend and I had healed and learned what we needed to, and it was time to move on. Without even putting it out there yet, I was presented with my next gift, I found a room in the hills fives minutes from Byron's CBD. Its a small little community, that two of my soul family live at. I took a trip out there, I'd been there twice before, but only ever at night. What a glorious surprise, this place has its own little Shiva Temple, spring water and an energy that makes your heart open up with joy. As you can imagine I took it straight away. Its like living back in India in a way, this time I have my own little Temple.

The greeting sign at the front gate, it says it all in the name.

My accommodation, simple but sweet.

View from my room.

My own Shiva Temple.

Some of the gardens, ahhh the serenity.

I've been here for a week now, I've met some wonderful people and had such wonderful experiences. Which leads me into my next little teaching, 'THE ART OF MANIFESTING'. On the Monday and Tuesday just gone, I had no work, when it rains you cant pick blueberries, so I wasn't needed. I guess this, in the past would have brought up a little bit of fear, about where I was going to get money from. So on Monday evening I sat in meditation and simply placed out to the universe what I would like to have come into my life, 'NOW'. I asked why I hadn't really got a more stable job yet and that if I'm meant to be here then I would like some more support, with financial matters. My higher self just simply said to 'relax', I already have a job. So as I've said in the past, my guidance is all I have now and that I will trust in it, no matter what. After my meditation I was also called on, to ask Ganesh to clear all obstacles in my path that maybe stopping me form getting my ideal job(Ganesh is the destroyer of illusions and obstacles). With that and this is the key, once you've placed out your intention to the universe, simply let it go, this is the crucial part of the whole process of manifesting, to just let it go, knowing and believing with your whole being that it will come to you.

So Tuesday I awoke completely forgetting about what had occurred the night before, by ten o'clock the phone rang to come in and do some work on the farm. Off I went on my merry way, unaware of what was going to transpire later on that day. After I had finished working, if you could call it that. My boss came up to me and said 'that they were really happy with the way I worked and they wanted to give me more work, for example driving tractors'. I was very humbled and of course I said 'yes', thank you god I said to myself as I drove home that afternoon. While I was cooking my dinner, my phone rang, the person on the other end of the line, was an employer that interviewed me a couple of weeks ago, I'd completely forgotten about them. He said 'you've got the job, can you start tomorrow?, well hows that for manifesting, two jobs in one day, I ended up taking the second one after talking to the farmer, at the end he said that I could come back anytime if I ever wanted a job. Some may say its luck, I don't believe in luck at all, what I do wholly and solely believe in now, is the power of following your heart, following your guidance in everything that you do throughout your life and we are truly taken care of if we're open to it.

I wake up with so much excitement to start the day and have so much gratitude when I lay down to sleep. 'LET GO' , take the plunge, its fun in the river of life, its never boring, everything comes to those who risk to follow their heart.

Byron Bay lighthouse, its known throughout Australia, Its the furthest eastern point of Australia.

The endless beaches of Byron.

If you look closely, you can see a pod of dolphins, around the rocks of the lighthouse throughout the year, you can see whales pass by on their migratory journey up the coast. Dolphin and sea turtles are abundant around Byron.

Another beautiful view of the sacred place.

Faith, Surrender and Flow

2007-11-25T01:46:00.000-08:00

Namaste to you all, I haven't written anything for a while, I've been a busy little bee for the past few weeks. I've started up another website and have spent alot of time on it. I've also been trying to do as many hours at work, to get some money together for my next little adventure into the unknown.

The reason why I used the title 'Faith, Surrender and Flow' was due to the three cards I pulled from a spiritual deck of cards today. You see tomorrow is the day I leave for Byron Bay, I asked when I was shuffling the cards, what message did spirit have for me?. These were the three cards I pulled, these three words are what it's all about for me, in this time of change.

You see, as I wrote previously 'TRUST' is a big lesson for me and these three cards have everything to do with 'TRUST'. I was guided, to go back to Byron Bay a few months ago as some of you would know. Why? I don't need to know, other then my guidance suggested that it would be for my highest good. As I've been saying to people lately, if I'm not going to follow and 'TRUST' my guidance I might as well not be on the path I'm on.

I don't know anything about why Im going or whats going to happen, other then it's for my highest good. I don't know where I'll be living or who with, I have no job to go to and not much money to survive on. What I do know, is that somewhere, at some point in time my being wanted me, to finally embody and fully understand the true meaning of 'TRUST' and "FAITH'. 'TRUST' and 'FAITH' that I will and have always been, looked after by spirit or God if you like.

Now I know if I have these two energies with me, everything will unfold perfectly with ease and grace. I also realise that, if I try to control any of the situation down there, I might miss experiences or opportunities that are for my highest good. This is where the surrender comes in, I need to just 'let go and let God' as they say. By surrendering and letting go, I heal the need to control, I also let go of any expectations. By trying to control things, all the time and having sometimes unreasonable expectations, we set ourselves up for disappointment and unhappiness. Remember that when I use the word surrender, I'm not saying that you are yielding to something outside of yourself; you're actually giving in to your soul. When you fully surrender, you're allowing the universe to work through you. Your also permitting spirit, to give you direction and inspiration that's all for your highest good.

To alot of people, just packing up, leaving and going to a new place with nothing but what you have, might not seem a big deal. For me, I have done it a few times in my life, but for some reason even though everything always unfolded perfectly, I still had fear around it. I now know where it came from and you might be surprised to hear this, I traced it back from the moment I was born. Somewhere in my being I took on the belief that, I'm not supported on this earth and not even supported by God. How do I heal this part of me? how do I fully embrace and embody the true meaning of trust, faith, surrender and flow, easy, by meeting it head on. By going and placing myself in an experience that will allow me to learn or as I say remember what I've forgotten.

The other key for me, once I get to Byron, is to go with the flow. If I allow people and circumstances to help and flow to me, then things will be for my highest good. If I allow my egoic mind to take control and go against the flow, well I probably will miss opportunities, that will be more beneficial to me. When we're in the flow, ease and grace flow around us and through us. If were in the flow of the universe, everything falls into place with divine timing. When we resist the great river of life, we usually end up confused, unhappy and then of coarse we experience suffering. Two keys to move into the flow of life, is to have gratitude and appreciation of all that is in your life. Also remember there's a multitude of help from the universe, allow other people to help you and support you, sometimes its hard to ask for help, I know I've had a problem in the past with this one. Remember, 'IF WE UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYONE ON THIS PLANET IS A DIVINE SPARK OF GOD, THAT EVERYONE IS AN ANGEL, THEN WE ONLY HAVE TO ASK', "ASK AND THOW SHALL RECEIVE".

So with an open heart I leave, as soon as I'm set up, I'll send out another post. I don't know how long that will be, if I'm in the flow and following guidance then you'll all hear from me next week, if not then it will be in divine timing.

Three Masters - 2nd and 3rd Masters

2007-11-05T21:07:00.000-08:00

Namaste, well after the amazing session with Abdy on the Sunday, I couldn't have felt more happier and at peace. I awoke the next day on cloud nine, fully contented with everything in life. The following afternoon as I was walking past a noticeboard, a small flyer stood out like a beacon above all the other mish, mash of advertisements. It was a flyer about an enlightened Indian guru named Shri Shivarudra Balayogi Maharaj or Babaji for short. The flyer said that he was coming to my area that week, his first teachings were the following night and it was only five minutes from my house. Well I was like a little child (or a woman, he, he) who'd just found the keys to a chocolate factory.

I went straight home and called the number, it was all still going a head. 'How blessed was I', I thought two amazing beings in the same week. I came straight home the following day and got ready for the evening. This is where the second of the masters came into play. I've been living with a beautiful friend and her daughter for the past few months. It's the first time in my life that I have lived with a child before. At first I was a bit hesitant, until my guidance had suggested that it would be good for me.

Now this little master has brought huge joy into my life, and even the odd teaching. As most little four year old's these days seem to have a knowing of truth, this little one is no exception. While I was getting ready to see Babaji, she questioned me on where I was going. When I proceeded to tell her, she kindly interrupted me and explained to me, that it doesn't matter where you go, god is always in your heart. I thanked her for wise words 'no problem' she said. She then went on to tell me, 'no matter what Domonique you should always follow your heart, always'. I guess because I was in such a heart opened state, I really listened to the words that were spoken to me.

As with the Abdy experience, I seemed to be very receptive to what was occurring around me. I had a few minutes to sit and contemplate, if I was truly following my heart. It didn't take long for me long to realise, that I for some reason, I had fallen into the trap of thinking what I should be doing, instead of what was maybe best for me. I sat and thought about what had being unfolding for me since being back in Australia.

I really went deep on what brings me the greatest joy, in this moment. The first guidance that came to me was going back to India, I then saw Nepal and an African country. What was I doing, volunteer work, mainly with children. I then thought then why am I not doing it? well there's no reason what so ever.

Off and on over the past few months, I've had the odd silly thoughts creep in, one of the big one's is, that I should be settling down. I'm nearly 36 yrs old, I have an opportunity to buy a house at the moment, so I should take it, 'BORING'. Looking at it, there parts of me feeling that by going overseas and doing volunteer work, maybe for a few years, wasn't the best thing for a 36yr old Western male to be doing. In other words, yes I started to buy into what most of the Western society thought a man of my age should be doing. House(meaning big mortgage) a wife and kids. Now don't get me wrong, I would love to have these things in my life again, kids are the only thing I haven't done yet, mortgage and wife been there done that. All I have is how my heart feels and at the moment none of these things interest me.

Back to the story, I thanked my little master for reminding me, of such an important thing. 'Following one's heart, sets your soul free, It's what truly living is all about'. I drove to the house where Babaji was having his get together. The space was absolutely gorgeous, people were looking radiant and I could feel the excitement of anticipation in the air. We waited about five minutes for Babaji to arrive, In came a bearded Indian man, with a smile and eyes that felt warmer then a summers day.

Babaji sat on his little daybed, at the front of the room, legs crossed, wrapped in a white robe. You could feel his energy poring fourth, covering us like a warm blanket. We then were given sheets with Indian chanting and songs on it, we sang for about an hour. He then proceeded to teach us a very simple meditation technique that was past down from his guru. Babaji then spoke of all the important things that matter in life, love, peace, god and compassion. The night was full of joy and happiness, especially for me, for I had let go of the Cliff once again, and had dived into the abyss of the divine.

After that night I knew exactly what I would like to experience this lifetime as the one called Domonique. Now I know I've said it a hundred times that its not a good idea to plan to far a head (believe me I've fallen into that trap a few times). I sat and meditated on it all and asked for guidance on what was for my highest good. The first one was obviously to go back to Byron Bay, then I was given a little glimpse of a bit further down the track.

When I got back from India I read the famous book 'Autobiography of a Yogi' when I first read the word Kriya Yoga, it jumped out of the pages, I knew it was either a past life experience or that it was going to be good for me to do this lifetime, well its both. I looked it up on the net, there's a course running next year in November, for six months, in an ashram in Orissa, India. So if it's meant to be that's where I'll start my journey, after that I was shown I'll travel to Nepal and fulfill a hearts desire to work in orphanages. Now as well, I saw a golden thread going to Kenya, in Africa and to my surprise another one that went all the way to Spain. After reading Paulo Coelho's book 'The Pilgrimage' many years ago, I was inspired to do the same pilgrimage the 'Camino de Santiago', well I was shown that this dream will come into fruition, sooner or later.

Even though I was shown all these wonderful thing's the key is not to be attached to them. It's for me to be in the now and to know in my heart, that one day the universe will lead me to these experiences. Again I am meant to be where I am right now, everything is perfectly unfolding as it should be.

I also in the past couple of months have been told by two of my soul sisters on separate occasions to get the book 'A Course In Miracles', what an inspiration. My friend told me to read a certain passage in the book, I'd like to share with you the last part of it.

"I am here ONLY to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Christ, WHO sent me.
I do Not have to worry about what to say or what to do because
He Who sent me will direct me.
I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to Heal"

For me that says it all.

I have one more thing to add, I've wanted to share this with you all for a while now. Its about cemeteries, yep for alot of people there not a place, you'd want to think about too much, unless you had a loved one pass away. I hope I can write this and get my message across, in the right way. One of the biggest ways, I learned gratitude and to wake up to whats really important in life, was to go to a cemetery or just look at one as I was driving pass. How did this help?, you ask, when I was going through probably, the toughest challenge I've gone through in my life, for some reason I used this strange method to break the illusions I was placing myself in. How? by going and reading about people who'd died, from all different eras and all different ages. It reminded me while I was walking around, that I too will be dead one day, just like all of us. It some how snapped me out of the poor me syndrome, it help me let go of fear. It reaffirmed so strongly to me, that my soul might be immortal, but my body is not. It also taught me that at any given moment, when my numbers up, its up.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is 'LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, OR AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, EACH AND EVERY MOMENT, BECAUSE MOMENTS ARE ALL THAT YOU HAVE', If life's not working for you do something about it, in this moment. Find another way, try another way, your the only with the universes help that can do it.

'Forget not once this journey is begun the end is certain. Doubt along the way will come and go and come and go again. Yet is the ending sure, no one can fail to do what god appointed them to do. When you forget, remember that you walk with him with his word upon your heart'.
'A Course in Miracles'.

Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back .. Aloha brothers and sisters and many blessings.

The Three Masters - !st Master

2007-10-29T19:47:00.000-07:00

Namaste to you all, well what an interesting fortnight I had. It was full of many teachings(or rememberings, as I like to call it) and wonderful heart opening experiences. I was very fortunate to go see the first of the three wonderful beings that had touched my heart. Last Sunday I traveled down south to attend a healing circle, it was run by a very enlightened being called Abdy.

Abdy works with the Christ energy, he aligns you to the presence of the Divine to the Divine's mind, to the Divine's heart and to the Divine Spirit. Before I talk about the amazing session I and everyone else experienced, I'll rewind it to the beginning of the the week. I put out an email asking if anyone wanted to carpool, I received two replies. Sunday came, so I set off in the morning, I left a little bit earlier so I wouldn't have to rush.

Well you guessed it, the universe had other ideas, other tests, other experiences installed for me. I picked up my first passenger with ten minutes to spare, too easy. We hadn't met before so we got acquainted with each other. We were suddenly interrupted in our conversation, to our surprise the main road not far from his place had a traffic jam. 'It's ok, we've plenty of time', I said, I'm not quite sure how long we were bumper to bumper, but the time had certainly been eaten up.

I remember thinking we've still got enough time, there's nothing to worry about. So we kept on our little merry way, chatting as new acquaintances do, we had alot in common, so the conversation flowed very easily and so did the time. We both hadn't been to my next passengers place before so we had to follow a map. First lesson for the day, try remain in the NOW!! even when your in deep conversation. My new friend was half way through his next sentence, when he suddenly said 'what was the name of that street?', when he looked on the map he realised that we'd missed the street we had to turn up by along way. I quickly turned at the next street and got back on the road heading back to where we'd already been.

As I was driving, I looked down at the map, we hadn't just missed her street by a few kilometres we'd missed it by heaps. Next thing of course she rang wondering where we were. By this time we were running late, I noticed I was starting to get a bit anxious. All the good intention of getting to the session with time to spare and in a relaxed state were quickly going out the window. I reminded myself to take a deep breath at this time, and remember to relax and trust that everything was going to be ok.

We finally pulled up at her place, I asked her if she new where we going?'I've been there twice before, but I cant remember', was her reply. 'You've got a map don't you?', she said, 'no I was hoping you had one?', well the energy started to go a bit pear shaped now. Thank god she had one in her car, though it took her a while to find it. Off we set again, this time we were even later, I could feel parts of myself starting to feel responsible for getting us all there on time. My second companion played her part well in this little lesson, she repeatedly said 'she should have gone by herself' and 'that she'd never have been late'. As I kept trying to remember to just trust that we would make it there on time, my new friend unconsciously kept trying to bring my lack of trust up. When I asked her to checkout exactly where we were going in the street directory it occurred to me that she couldn't really read a map, so I was really getting tested now.

See we all have parts of us that like to have control over certain situations in varying degrees and one of mine is, I like to know where I'm going and where I am on a map(probably a reflection on what I unconsciously do sometimes in life it's self lol). I witnessed myself now starting to get even more anxious. There were parts of me that felt like saying 'look just hand it over to the other person and see what they can workout'. Next minute bang!! something went under the bonnet of my car. I pulled over, this was the first time for many years anything had gone wrong with any of my cars.

Again I took a deep breath, this time my inner guidance said TRUST!!!!, I took a another deep breath and got out of the car and lifted the bonnet, one of the belts had shredded. My first thought was how am I going to fix this, the belt had rapped around the fan, I knew if I could cut the belt, the car was still going to be alright. Next minute a thought had occured to me, that I remember seeing a pair of scissors in my car along time ago and for some reason, when I went to take them out, something said to me (guidance) to leave them in there because I might need them one day, well this was certainly that day. I quickly cut the belt and off we went, no air conditioning and no power steering, but a car none the less that was still sort of drivable.

By this time a huge energy washed over me, part of me was starting to laugh at the whole situation. It was like I could really see the whole experience from above, for what it really was, for some reason to me it was so obvious, it was like it was too obvious, that I could really see through the illusion that had been unfolding all day. I tell you they must have been really laughing up in the clouds, placing all these obstacles in front of me, to see if I would fall from grace. Well for some reason this day, I was fully aware of what was unfolding and what was really going on.

This day my whole being knew, that going to Abdy was going to be special and for some reason after the first incident of the morning that I was going to be tested, that test is one of the most important tests a human being can have throughout their lifetime and that test is 'TRUST'. It's a big one, TRUST just about comes up on a daily bases, alot of things that happen to us are all about TRUST.

I know for me that TRUST has been a big issue throughout my life. When I talk of TRUST, I'm talking about real TRUST, by this I mean trusting in everything that happens in your life is for your highest good. Having a deep sense of TRUST in the universe and life itself as it unfolds. By having TRUST we bring in positive emotions like inner peace, a feeling of being centred and grounded. When we have these energies flowing through us, we are less likely to have negative emotions like stress, anxiety, frustration and fear, no matter what the situation.

Now looking at that day, it could have been quite easy for me to allow what was happening around me to overwhelm me. Don't get me wrong there were little moments where I started to waver, I feel though after all that happened I remained very calm. There were a few more little tests right up until we got there, but you get the gist of what I'm talking about here.

We eventually arrived at the hall, with one minute to spare, yippee. The day was absolutely amazing, the shifts I experienced were profound for myself and I believe everyone involved. Now you wouldnt believe what Abdy spoke of after the session, yep you guess it, it was all about trust and that no matter what happens in your life everything will be ok. The whole day was truly a blessing for me and a catalysts for what is to come in the near future for me and the rest of my life.

My true test of trust is coming up in the not to distant future, my guidance in a meditation had suggested to me that in the last week of November to the first week of December that it is for my highest good to go back to Byron Bay, a place I love. I had the same guidance nearly two years ago, to leave where I was and to move to Byron Bay. So as I promised myself a few months ago that I would always follow my guidance no matter what, so now I'm getting ready to go.

Now what I'll be doing there I'm not quite sure, I just have to go with an open mind and most importantly an open heart. So it really is the final test for me to fully embody TRUST, this lifetime. Our inner guidance is so important for us to follow if we want to experience a more fulfilling life, with hopefully a more easier path to follow. I guess as we live out our life here on earth, it's up to us as individuals if we want to follow divine guidance or our egoic mind. I believe which ever we choose of the two (and it is our choice) we will eventually get to our destination, sooner or later, one's just a little bit less of a bumpy ride. Then again, when I think about it, if we are to remember who we truly are this lifetime we sometimes have to get down and dirty. As you all know, most of the time when we are met with our biggest challenges and come out the other side, we usually don't just take a step, we usually make a jump.

To be continued....

Lending a Hand

2007-10-16T04:17:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, my friend sent me an email the other day, with a very exciting project. There's a wonderful group of people that have come up with such a simple way to help the world's poorer communities. The concept is easy and very rewarding, you loan money to people, who want to set up their own business.

kiva.org enables you to connect with and loan money to small businesses in the developing world (microfinance). You can make as little as a US$25 loan to help low-income entrepreneurs in the developing world. ‘Sponsoring a business’ is an incredibly direct and effective way for us in the West to provide affordable working capital for the poor (money to buy a sewing machine, livestock, etc.), empowering them to earn their way out of poverty and into economic independence.

As my friend points out, " this concept strikes me as being a great way for me to keep recycling money as well as provide scope to give more than a standard donation – when you get your money back you can use it yourself, or re-loan it. The old saying, ‘give a man a fish and feed him for a day; teach a man how to fish and he can feed himself every day’ morphs to ‘help a man buy fishing equipment and he can feed himself and his family, sell fish as a livelihood, and then repay you so you can do it all over again!"

I don't need to say anymore then, one of the greatest things a human being can experience in their life time is the act of giving to another from the heart. I know I'll be sponsoring someone, anything that's this simple has to be a good thing. So please check it out, you'll find all the info you need, again their website is www.kiva.org , to give is to receive, its a natural law.

Home is Where the Heart is

2007-10-08T19:47:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, I just realised that tomorrow is the, 10/10/2007 its exactly a year ago, that I left Australia for India. Like I guess most of us, I cant believe how quickly a year has gone. It truly only feels like yesterday that I was saying goodbye to a good friend of mine at Brisbane airport. I've been witnessing myself over the past couple of days and I've noticed that there's still apart of me that wishes I was still there.

I know that its so important to be in the now and its just as important to have a 'gratitude attitude'. Its funny in the past couple of days friends that I met over in India have been unconsciously contacting me again, to bring up my stuff. I realise too how most of them had touched my soul and brought me great joy. I also realise that its ok, to acknowledge these beautiful souls and my fantastic experience that I had in India and to just let it go.

Something else has come to my attention, when one of my closest friends came and stayed with me over the past week, I hadn't taken any photos of where I live. So I thought I'd place some photos of the area that I live in. It took me awhile to settle down here, because for some reason I never liked the place. If you'd said a year and a half ago that I'd be living in the Sunshine Coast area for a while, I would have laughed my head off, well here I am and have been living here for about four months.

I guess god/goddess wants me to really learn gratitude and to appreciate every part of my life no matter whats happening. I have to realise and fully embrace, that I'm exactly where I'm meant to be, doing exactly what I'm meant to be doing, period. This is a very important teaching for myself and probably most of the population, by having deep gratitude, acceptance and love for all areas of our lives, then we are naturally flowing with life. By trying to fight against certain areas of our lives we automatically become stuck. Instead of flowing down the stream of life in our little canoe, by fighting our circumstances, by resisting them we some how turn our canoe around and start paddling up stream against the flow, what does that bring? suffering and turmoil.

'WHAT WE RESIST, PERSISTS', its sometimes hard to understand this law or to even believe that its possible, believe me it is, 'SO LET GO AND LET GOD'. I had some experiences over the weekend that were very tempting to say least. Last week I was asked, to ring a friend of mine and find out times for a meditation class, I used to attend in another town, before I left to go to India. Well I found out, that my friend no longer lived there, so I got chatting to the lovely lady who owned the house. See my friend used to be her carer, he had told me about it a few months ago. It all seemed so perfect, she was still looking for someone, I had rang, she also wanted someone to do full time healing in her house etc etc. So off I went, down to have an interview with her, it seemed so perfect, I could help someone who really needed help, get back into my healing work full time, live where I really wanted to live, spend more time on my website. Though there was one thing missing, divine timing, my higher self explained to me that it wasn't for my highest good to go there now, plus a few other things.

I thought I had embraced my circumstances fully here, but as soon as an opportunity came up I was ready to drop everything and run. Its nothing to do with anything outside of myself, its feeling comfortable within myself no matter whats happening around me. When I fully learn this lesson then and only then will I move on, into another experience. I realise too that's there's lots of little reasons why I'm here. I ran into a lady not far from where I live, that has a few orphanages in Nepal, its been a dream of mine as some of you would know to first do volunteer work in Nepal, then set up an orphanage as well. She has plenty of contacts and information about it, which is a blessing, who knows it could be a huge reason that I'm on the Sunshine coast, was to meet this lady. Again a huge part of me just wanted to get ticket and go to Nepal, but again its all about divine timing and whats best for me now. For many reasons the universe wants me to stay in the Sunshine Coast, so that's exactly what I'll do, with gratitude, acceptance and love.

Here's some pictures.

View from my room.

The house.

The backyard.

This was taken at a small village called Montville, its about 45 minutes from my place.

This is part of the Kondalilla Falls, my parents used to live about a ten minute walk from here.

This is one of the headlands in a national park about a ten minute drive from my house. As you can see there's plenty of beautiful places to visit, that are only a short drive from where I live, how blessed am I.

Its Blowing in the Wind

2007-10-08T18:47:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, I came across this article on a very important environmental issue, I've been talking about it off and on for many years now. The issue is, I've never understood how we live in a country(Australia) that has the capacity, to lead the world in new environmental
technology on a large scale and we've done nothing about it.

We have the perfect landscape for solar and wind technology, to probably supply most of our electrical needs, yet I bet you we probably have the least amount of it, in operation in the western world. Why? because for a hundred years we have been run by weak governments. Most of our history we have let other governments dictate to us whats best for us. First it was Great Britain then America, Japan and now more then ever its China.

Behind all of these countries are large multinational companies, with endless amounts of resources, what ever they want they get. Most of these are mining companies, Australia rely heavily on these companies to keep our economy staying strong. It doesn't matter about the destruction of our environment and our future. Its all about how much money they can make now, how many resources they can get now and the quickest way to do it.

For the life of me, I cant see why the Australian government and big business cant see the massive potential, we have in leading the world in new ways to harness our greatest source of energy, the sun. If there's one thing we have an abundance of here in Australia, its the sun and to a lesser extent wind.

I'm happy that someone has had the insight to use our true resources, that benefit both the earth and humankind. Just looking at that word 'Human-kind', we certainly need to take that name on in a bigger way, if we want to save our glorious planet. What does upset me a little bit is that it's taken an overseas company to get the ball rolling instead of and Australian company(which is usually the case). I just pray that now once and for all, everyone jumps on this bandwagon and pushes Australia to lead the world into a brighter future for the earth and all its inhabitants.

Conergy Plans A$2 Bln Australia Wind Farm
"SYDNEY - Conergy Germany's largest solar energy company by sales, said on Monday it plans to build a A$2 billion (US$1.8 billion)wind farm in Australia as part of a plan to expand the company's presence in Asia-Pacific." Planetark
>>Environmental News

Spring in My Step

2007-09-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all,( I guess I better explain to some of you the true deep meaning of aloha). As most of you would all know Aloha comes from the Hawaiian people and just about everyone would have heard of this greeting. What alot of people wouldn't know as I didn't, the sacredness and power of this word. Aloha has many different meanings it's not just saying hello. When someone greets you aloha, it's not just a hello it's a deep honouring of one soul to another.

Some of the meanings I've come across and there's countless more, here's what the actual word means, Alo = presence, front, face] + [hâ = breath, "The presence of (Divine) Breath." Here are some of the english words to describe this sacred word, love, affection, compassion, mercy, sympathy, kindness, sentiment, grace, charity; greeting, salutation, regards; sweetheart, lover, lover, loved one; beloved, loving, kind, compassionate, charitable, lovable; to love, be fond of; to show kindness, mercy, pity, charity, affection; to venerate; to remember with affection; to greet, to hail.

To me especially aloha (like the Indian greeting namaste) has two more profound meanings, the first, I recognise and honour the god/goddess in you brother/sister and the other, we are one with each other for eternity. I really do believe by greeting people who would be open to you saying aloha or namaste constantly, would hopefully remind us of how important it is to understand that we are all one. By honouring everyone we meet along our path we honour ourselves, by seeing the divine in another we are automatically seeing the divine in ourselves.

What a fantastic spring equinox experience I had on Sunday, I had a very enriching day at a gorgeous friends place. The day started out with my friend channelling Lord Maitreya. The channelling was all about relationships, he talked about the true deeper meaning of relationships. We were also blessed, with some clearing techniques which helped shift a few blockages. I'll be posting the channelling within the next week, hopefully some of you might be able to also receive something from it.

One of the the best things about the day, was again meeting more like minded, open hearted people. As I wrote similar in a previous post, 'as the petals of our heart unfold like a flower in the morning sun, permeating our divine essence, so too do we then allow others to do the same'. The afternoon was also filled with an unusual Indian sweat lodge to say the least. The rocks weren't quite hot enough, so there wasn't much sweating going on, but the releasing and warmth of everyone's heart was enough to make the experience a success.

So the whole day was to have the intent of bringing in our heart desires for the next year and letting go of the old and being thankful for the year that passed. Remember one of the major key's to everything we do throughout our lives is 'INTENT'. It doesn't matter what you do in life even the small mundane things, having a purposeful intent allows us to experience everything on a deeper level.

The Flow on Effect

2007-09-22T19:04:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, another week gone by, again I am finding an even deeper love and appreciation of the awesome gift we are given each and every moment 'the breath of life'. I'm witnessing the natural flow on effect throughout my life because of one thing 'MY COMMITMENT TO SELF LOVE AND SELF REALISATION'.

There is an old saying 'our outer world is a reflection of our inner world', over the past month this saying has been unfolding as exactly that. Through turning my attention and intention to finding inner peace and love, what naturally happens? experiences in my outer world reflect my inner world. People and situations are coming into my life each and everyday to support and nurture me once again.

If we look at ourselves in this way for example, think of a picture you might have seen of a universe. It's a mass of energy swirling around the cosmos, there are many parts that make up this universe. In the core of the universe is the main energy point. This centre point has a gravitational effect, everything is held in perfect alignment because of this force. Floating around are many other important energy points, exactly placed with perfection. Throughout the universe there many different areas which hold different energies, from warmth to extreme cold, places where it is dormant and places where there is much life.

Even though what we may perceive are many different polarities throughout the universe, there is one undeniable thing, every single part of the universe no matter what it is, makes that universe a whole. Now we must be mindful that things will also gravitate towards this universe from outside of it's self. They can just pass through or have a huge impact, what is meant to be will be.

Like the universe we are made up of lots of different parts. Those parts of us are all perfect, they are doing their job in divine order. Now the difference between humans and the universe is that humans label everything, for example good and bad, wrong and right, desirable and undesirable etc etc. Where as the universe (nature) will just accept all parts of it's self, will witness things passing through it's space and just keep on being as it was.

So I look at my self as a little mini universe spinning around in space. If the core of my being is strong, is glowing, then I naturally will attract the same universes(people) and experiences to me, without getting to off centre one way or the other. Each and everyday I'm moving through my own inner lessons with more ease and grace, which builds my inner core of light, which then allows me to enjoy more of life.

There are natural laws of the universe, I realise now on a deeper level then I ever have before, by turning within for self love, by building that inner core so it is solid and strong. There is a natural process that unfolds after that. Everything in our outer world reflects back to us, to enhance our inner world. It builds up momentum like a snow ball effect, self esteem and love builds, more and more people and experiences come into our lives that helps this inner love grow. It is a natural reciprocating effect, by nurturing and loving our own being, we inadvertently attract people and experiences to enhance this. I guess it's a bit like the law of gravity, 'what goes up must come down', 'what shines out must shine back' .

I just want to add this little saying my best and dearest friend wrote to me awhile ago,(not sure if it's his).

Dark times are good for learning and growing, but the light times are what life is all about. I can add to that, the more light times the more light comes through, the more lighthearted we become.

The Nature of Things

2007-09-17T21:42:00.000-07:00

I realised over the weekend there was one main ingredient I had forgotten, one vital piece of the journey that we're on, while we're here on this amazing planet. 'NATURE', yes I had forgotten how important nature is to our well being (silly billy, lol). I've surfed since I was twelve years old, there were times throughout my life when surfing was placed on the back burner. When I hit thirty, it became my passion once again.

For some unknown reason since coming back from India, I haven't surfed much at all. If there's one thing in my life I know creates, so much pleasure, joy, healing, oneness, peace etc etc, its surfing. I went for my first surf in three months, that's the longest I've stayed out of the water for years. I tell you I really like to make my growth periods very hard, no half heartedness here lol.

The other blessing I got to experience over the weekend, was going for a forest walk, the backyard of the house that I'm living at has a huge forest(how blessed am I). Now being an Aussie, some of you might question why I used the word forest instead of bush(to everyone that doesn't know outside of Australia, Australians call the forest, bush. We like to shorten everything, lol). Again when we look at the word 'FOREST', if we break it up what do we get? 'FOR-REST', and that's exactly what happens to our whole being on many levels, when we are surrounded by nature.

So please remember as I have done once again, how much of a necessity it is to connect to nature. If there's one thing that will uplift your spirits and open your heart its mother nature. This is why its called 'MOTHER NATURE' because what do mothers do for us 'THEY NURTURE US'. That's probably why they didn't need to change the word 'NURTURE' much, because 'NATURE and NURTURE' mean the same thing.

Now when I go surfing, I just don't go surfing, I'm fully aware of the cleansing powers of the ocean. I call the ocean 'sister sea' and I ask her to cleanse my whole being, from my auric field right down to the cell's of my body. Being in the water also allows me to let any frustrations out, so as I'm paddling I place my head under the water and give a good old scream from the depths of my being. You'll be amazed how freeing it is, many of us especially in the West don't allow ourselves to let go, you might not realise how much energy you store in your body.

Through learning Ka Huna massage, I quickly realised how much the human body stores energy. One of the main areas that I found held alot of energy was the jaw. Think about it, every time you hold back on saying something, every time you don't speak out, energy has to go some where. When its to do with communication that energy remains in the jaw. So make it part of your weekly or even daily ritual to have a good old fashion scream, I guarantee you'll feel a whole lot better for it.

Make being in nature a priority if you can, I know just by the two fantastic experiences I had over the weekend, I feel awesome. It's wonderful to have that spark, spring and spirit in my soul again. Like everything you do throughout your day place out an intention, when you do get to go into nature, ask to be cleansed, ask for guidance on what ever is troubling you. Above all have gratitude to God/Goddess remind yourself how blessed you are to be here, to be able to experience such a precious, wonderful gift and that gift is 'LIFE' it's self.

Living
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Science Catching Up

2007-09-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

I found a small article, about scientists simulating out of body experiences. It sounds a bit out there, I find it very interesting when ever science crosses over to the spiritual side of things. The more science starts to understand that there's more out there then just the 3D world, I think the better. I can feel there really is a change coming. More and more people around the globe, day by day, are becoming awake that we are not separate that we are one. That there's a deeper purpose to life then just surviving, then just material gain etc etc.

I as many know there has never in the history of the world been so many awakened beings on our planet at once. It is an exciting time to be here on this beautiful earth. The more institutions like science align to a deeper understanding of our universe, the more people out there will see that the whole concept of spirituality, has a major part to play in the evolution of the human race and our beloved planet.

Out of body experiences in laboratory
"The experiments of Dr Rupert Sheldrake, whose concept of “extended mind” is one of the more interesting developments in biological research this century, seem to have touched off a number of other scientists to follow suit." spiritual-nirvana
>> New Age News

Lasting Change

2007-09-15T20:59:00.000-07:00

For the past few weeks I've had many experiences that keep pointing to a very important subject -"how to make positive changes last?". I read an article on this issue today and again parts of my being feel that a lot of what so called "self-help experts" are telling us doesn't give the whole picture.

The article I had read is from a very famous author and after reading it, part of me still feels there are some major components missing. They don't tell you how to truly move through your stuff to have a more permanent state of happiness, joy and love. Now there was a time in my life where I believed that if we truly wanted to move into a permanent state of open heartedness, unconditional love and joy it could be achieved in this life time; if this was your heart's desire. Many people laughed and some even ridiculed me for suggesting such a thing. Well, as I write this, I realise that there's part of me that still feels that this can be achieved. I ask you this one question; if you are a person that believes in ascended masters eg Jesus, Buddha and Babaji then what is one of the main messages that every single one of these masters passes on? 'You can do and achieve as I have done'.

Why do humans limit themselves, settle for second best, choose to believe that there are limits to what we can do and achieve? simple 'FEAR'. Right from when we're born most of the human population is bombarded with limiting thought beliefs, words and action from every angle. Well, if you are another person that believes that 'we are all one' and that we are all, in essence, a seed from God. Then you'll have no problem in believing 'if they can do it (ascended masters) then so can I'. There are a few major things that keep us stuck and things that keep us repeating our old patterns.

Let's look at them; see, the thing that I find is a major problem in many self-help books is they seem to only focus on the mind. Yes, our mind is one of the most powerful instruments in the universe, but we must remember that we are all made up of many things and it is just one of the pieces that makes the whole. You see I had an amazing experience the other night. I was very fortunate to have had a deep, old wound come to the surface that needed to be recognised, loved and accepted. Now, seven years ago when I was going through a very emotional time after my divorce, I read alot of self-help books, I practiced every moment of the day turning my belief systems around into positive , loving ways of being. Well seven years later that exact same energy came to the surface; the difference this time, I have the tools and knowledge to move through it.

Why did this happen? Well for me, I know fully now, especially after the other night, part of my being was still carrying the wound or energy that was from that experience and to be truthful I bet you it was probably from an even earlier experience. What did I do different? I ALLOWED IT TO BE, I welcomed it for it is a part of me, I allowed my self to feel it deeply. It lasted for an hour, mind you it was very intense, the end result I know in my being that I have moved through it now. The lesson and experience is now complete and with that I am becoming a more loving whole being.

So, after all that, what I'm trying to understand? that there is a process for truly making a permanent change, first allow what ever it is, pain, fear, sadness etc etc to come up allow yourself to really feel it deeply, go right into the feeling, accept it on all levels and I can pretty much guarantee it will pass. After this process is complete then I believe this is the time to start on the positive thoughts, words and actions, in some way there is now a part of you that can now allow these processes to take root. In a way we could look at it as emptying your vessel to allow God/goddess to fill that void, with love.

What's another key in forming a new solid positive way of being? REPETITION. You must have a continuous flow of positive thoughts, words and actions to make a permanent change in your life. Now things will come to the surface that's guaranteed, depending on how much work you've done will depend on how often and severe it will be for you in your life and how much you want the lesson before you to drag out. But there's one thing I know somewhere, some part of me understands that it will slowly but surely dissipate over time if you have a true desire to live your life on this earth as if your living in heaven.

I reminded a friend the other day of a saying that I use to fully believe in and again am starting to use 'BE IN THE WORLD, BUT NOT OF THE WORLD' in other words be present and accepting of the world around you on all levels but remember not to get caught up in it, see it for what it truly is 'A WONDERFUL JOURNEY FROM ONE POINT TO ANOTHER'.

Being Open to All That Is

2007-09-05T20:26:00.000-07:00

This article was sent to me the other day, some of you might find it interesting. It's similar to what I put on a post the other week and guess it again may explain why so many people are going through huge shifts. I know most of my friends around me are going through similar processes to what I've gone through. I guess on many levels there are many of us that have chosen to be on this earth to open up and understand who we truly are on a deep level, so its inevitable that we'll go through some hard times.

So the only way we can accomplish becoming an open hearted being, to become completely whole and come from a space of unconditional love, is to bring all parts of us into the light. When we fully understand that there are many parts of ourselves that have been wounded throughout all time, space and dimensions, then we understand that working with just some parts of our being wont be enough.

Its taken a while but science has finally come on board and understood that there isn't just this 3D dimension. Through quantum physics, scientists are realising we live in a multidimensional universe. I believe to take the holistic approach in becoming our full potential this lifetime we have to be open to believing that we are made up of many parts. Some of these aspects of ourselves can be effecting us in this lifetime, in other words the here and the now.

For example, do you ever wonder why you cant attract money or a partner that you feel you could have a divine connection with?. You've tried all the self-help books, relationship books and how to have abundance in your life books and it just doesn't work. Well this is when we need to look outside the square, when we fully understand that there is no past and there is no future there is only the now then we understand that everything is effecting us in the now. For example, that as a child we took on the belief that we didn't deserve love or we made a vowel of poverty from another lifetime these can still play out in this lifetime, in this now space. You might not believe this but on some level we a getting effected by these parts of ourselves for example, inner child, emotional body, chakras, feminine and masculine self etc, etc.

Now sometimes it can be hard to access these parts on our own, that's why there are plenty of healers and healing techniques around that can help in these areas. Where do you start? well start by letting the universe know that you'd like to work on a certain part of yourself and that you'd like assistance in finding the most appropriate practitioner or healing modality for you at this time. Be open to little signs along the way, for example hearing a friend mention a fantastic healing he or she received or a pamphlet standing out, be open, look for signs.

Also especially in these times, I know we can easily get effected by outer energies if we are off our centre. If we're not grounded and our pillar of light, auric field are not as strong as they could be, sometimes we are open to other peoples thought forms and energies around us. We can even be effected by the mass conscious mind. Be aware that sometimes we may feel ok and then wham out of the blue we feel off centre again. Take note of who's around you at the time, what your listening to on the TV or radio. If something does come up, ask if it is yours and you might find that sometimes it isn't. Now some of you might be thinking, well that's not taking responsibility for our stuff etc that you wouldn't have had it come up if it wasn't yours. I'm not suggesting that its all the time, I'm just pointing out that on occasions if your not strong and clear in yourself we can be susceptible to energies outside of ourselves.

Go on the inner if you can and ask who or what its about, then just simply hand it back. If you feel you've had your power taken away from someone in your life try speaking to them on the inner. If that doesn't work go and talk to them about it(if their open), tell them how you feel (don't use blame or attack), but always go with an open heart and see them as an innocent child of god. Most people wouldn't even know that they are dumping on you or taking some of your energy from you. Know that every interaction we have in our lives with anyone, there is a transference of energy on some level, period.

Remember you don't have to go through it by yourself, ask and thou shall receive. These times are huge and we need all the assistance we can get. Be open for assistance on all levels, just ask the universe, know and see yourself getting what you've asked for.

CONFUSION

"ENTERING THE HIGHER REALMS can really bring aboutstates of confusion. Yes, we are beginning a residency in thehigher realms, but we haven't completely left the old 3D worldyet! Much of what we believed regarding higher ways of beingand living were at times inaccurate. This information arrivedthrough a 3D mind, or rather through adis-connect state of mind. Much of the spiritual information thatwe were taught, or that we bought into, was therefore comingfrom a lower vibrating level of consciousness.

As many of us are having some very strange and interestingexperiences through the ascension process, we can then becomequite confused about what is really going on, and whateverything was really all about in the first place. Add to this theenergy shifts. When we experience an energy shift, it serves toraise our vibration. When this occurs, much of everything withinand without is moved around. And during this time of so much"vibration raising," things are adjusting and lining up in regardto a critical mass, so that change can occur. This can cause aconfusing waiting period. It is no wonder then, that we canbecome very confused at times and not know what in the worldis going on!

Confusion can occur when we thought that things would unfoldin a certain way. If we were to believe, for instance, that as weraise our consciousness, everything just naturally gets better andbetter, we would be in for a big surprise. The purging andreleasing resulting from the ascension process creates depressionand challenging energies, to say the least. And then there are thelong periods of waiting, as mentioned above, where we seem tobe in a void or in limbo as we are waiting for others to catch up,while we are also "rebooting" or re-aligning for the next step. Wemay continually expect that the next step will be oh so muchbetter, and then are usually disappointed and let down when itisn't.

Dying while in a 3D body is a very long process. Yes, there aremoments of really experiencing great feelings of a higher order,but the process is also very real, as it takes us through anddeeply into ourselves. It also seems to stop and start...and thiscan cause confusion as well.

"Have we gotten anywhere at all?" you may wonder at times. Orperhaps you may have had feelings that all this ascension stuffcreated absolutely nothing New. The truth of the matter is thatwe have made incredible progress. Taking an entire planet oflower vibrating energy and raising it up is no small matter.Things began at higher levels and then needed to trickle downinto the physical. In addition, the lightworkers began theirascension journeys far ahead of everyone else, and therefore havebeen at it for a very long time. This was their service forhumanity, and this is one reason why it may seem like things aretaking forever. But for others, they have yet to begin.
If you were to look back on what your life was like a year ago, orperhaps even a few months ago, I would imagine you would seethat great changes had occurred. You probably are not the sameperson you used to be and you are also probably in a verydifferent situation in many areas of your life.

Confusion can result when we are seeing a process that doesnot resemble what we had imagined in our old 3D mind. But ourold 3D mind did not know much. For the most part, it wasdisconnected from Source. And in addition to all of the above,those of us who are here experiencing the ascension process as aservice to humanity, are at the helm of the process as well. Thismeans that things can literally change on a dime. At higher soullevels, we get together, have regular meetings, and arrive with aplan. And although there is most certainly a general plan, thelogistics and road to get there are subject to "wiggle room." Sojust when we think we know and understand what will happennext, it doesn't! (Unless, of course, you are very consciouslyconnected to yourself at a soul level...)

If you have chosen this page, you are being encouraged to knowthat all is always in divine and perfect order. Being in themoment can greatly ease any discomforts that confusion canbring. If you can get out of the way in regard to analyzing andneeding to know, you will connect more greatly to Source in thelong-run. The higher we begin vibrating, the more clarity wereceive, as we are beginning to "see" things at a much higherlevel from the other side of the veil. And clarity is not alwayswhat we thought it would be! But as we progress further andfurther along our paths of ascension, we begin to find much morepeace, as we truly begin to find the clarity that was alwaysthere...we just weren't vibrating high enough to understand it yet."
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Inner and Outer Relationships

2007-09-04T00:29:00.000-07:00

Circumstances over the past month have changed dramatically for me, is it because there has been a huge shift on the inner for me, then this reflects on my outer world, you bet. Going through what I'd gone through over the past few months, clearing's, deep reflection, facing my self with honesty and integrity and being fully aware of where I come from in all areas of my life, slowly but surely I've come through the other side with a new zest and deeper understanding of life. It's easy to get wayward on our own self-growth, to lose focus on what brings us joy and happiness and to forget about what's really important to us.

As I've said before there's now more distractions then ever in the history of the human race, everyone's so busy now we forget about ourselves. We give every excuse why we cant just sit and be, meditate and reflect on where we are in our lives. One of the biggest is when we're in a relationship, this is probably one of the greatest distractions of all if we allow it, because I know for me and alot of society, when we're in a relationship it's easy to fall into the trap of, first placing our inner focus on the person that is the subject of our love and affection and secondly if and when the relationship starts to fall apart we then do the old blaming game and focusing on trying to fix the other person instead of taking responsibility for our own actions. These are certainly fabulous distractions on not dealing with our own inner work.

The key I believe is to communicate right from the start to your partner, friends and loved ones that each and everyday you need time for reflection, meditation or just quite time. Establish this important boundary first off and stick to it. The important thing here though is making that commitment to yourself, if you cant commit to yourself then you wont be able to commit to anyone, simple.

Like any cycle in the universe relationships come and go, with ourselves and with others, for me now on a deeper level then I have ever had, I finally realise how important it is to have the discipline and commitment to having a strong loving relationship with my self each and everyday throughout my entire life. Through total commitment to one's self this is how we can make permanent, positive changes to ourselves which will effect all other areas of our lives. I looked at my current circumstances and at first I felt that I was upset to be alone again, but then I realised that in this word alone there is a key, for when we break it down and look at it, we see what it really stands for "AL-ONE", so over the past month that has been what I've achieved again, a deep connection to my self, to source and a deep commitment to inner work and reflection.

It was said to me by a beautiful friend of mine that her friend describes relationships as 'growth machines' and I fully agree, for me relationships are a necessity and show me where I'm at in regards to my self-worth and self-love. If we can take on the understanding that everyone, especially people that we have an intimate relationship with is a teacher and an angel sent to help us grow and learn more about ourselves, if we all looked at it like this there would be alot less hurt and bitterness in the world if the relationship has run its course and ended.

I personally couldn't be more grateful to the teacher/angel that had come into my life, she helped me learn more lessons about my self in such a short time then any other relationship I've had in the past it was such a blessing for me. I believe that everythings speeding up on all levels and what we may have taken to learn in say five to ten years in a relationship we now learn in say six to twelve months. I know in my heart that one of the biggest gifts that has come up for me through it was there was still alot of things that needed to be brought to light about my childhood and how it has effected me throughout my adult life, especially concerning relationships.

As I've been saying to all my beautiful friends lately, I have chosen to be at all times fully aware, real and come only from integrity in all areas and moments in my life. Now I'm not saying that I haven't been this way throughout my life, it's just I'm taking it to a new level, where I'm aware if on some level I'm trying to manipulate a situation in some way or unconsciously trying to get things to go my way, whether its for mine or the other persons highest good.

I gave a healing to a friend the other day and one of the things I pointed out to her was that when we choose to start loving, nurturing and respecting ourselves then and only then can we attract a person of like mind, its a natural law. I said to her 'IF NOT NOW THEN WHEN?' and this certainly goes for me as well, when will we finally choose to fully start loving ourselves and having a healthy relationship with ourselves first, to go within and not without. I have learnt so much through relationships and I feel now in my heart I would like to have a divine union with another being, to make two parts become one. I fully understand on a deeper level this can only be achieved when I have a divine union with my self first. I accept what has occurred in my life and don't regret anything, far from it, but I feel It really is time for me to make one of the biggest commitments a human being can make and that is the path of self-love.