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Merry Christmas - The Reflection

2007-12-23T14:24:00.000-08:00

Aloha to you all, a merry Christmas and a happy new year, to you and all of your loved ones. It's that time again, when the big fat fella in the red suit , comes down your chimney and maybe gives you a present or two.

Boy does life sail by in a flurry, I remember if it was only yesterday, writing and article in India, wishing you all a merry Christmas, It feels like only yesterday. Well what a year it's been, there's not been to many people, that I've talked to over the past few weeks that have commented on, what a huge year it's been.

Looking back on it, it's been an amazing year of growth and understanding for myself and I guess for alot of people. Some of it seems a lifetime ago and some of it seems only yesterday.

Reflecting on it on a deeper level for myself, the year 2007 was all about healing wounds around my childhood or patterns if you like. As well as understanding on a deeper level about relationships with myself first and foremost, then partners and everyone else that has come into my life over the past year.

Since arriving back in Byron I've been fully aware and conscious of when ever someone comes into my space to really be present and know that they have a gift of some sort for me, in the words that they speak. Its been such a wonderful thing to be experiencing. There hasn't been a single person that hasn't offered me a gift yet and I know that by thanking them straight away, when I realise the whole reason that they have connected with me, I hope they to can take something from me. This whole universe is all about giving and receiving and all levels, in all situations and it's going on all the time, JUST BE AWARE.

I realised once I arrived in Byron, why I lived on the Sunshine Coast, a place that I never wanted to live. The main gift the universe was presenting me was to once and for all release my fear and anger I had, regarding my childhood. Months ago it occurred to me, that the main reason that I was again living near my mother and father was simply to heal things from my childhood with them. I believe most adults are walking around still carrying their childhood wounds, still playing out their childhood patterns. Most people, most of the time, in most situations come from childhood experiences, mainly hurtful ones. They say in the first seven years of a humans life is what shapes us for the rest of our lives. I believe this to be true, although there are exceptions, when a person becomes awake and aware that there's more to life then just, working, eating, sex and sleep.

You see since I was eighteen I've realise on some level that I needed to work through my stuff, surrounding my childhood. That the way I acted and re-acted in my life was a result of my upbringing. So since I was eighteen I've tried it all, from re-birthing, to etherically calling in my father and speaking my truth from my inner child point of view. Now all these things might have worked on some level, but it wasn't until a friend pointed out to me this year that it needs to be done on a physical level, for it to really be cleared.

So a few weeks before i left the Sunny Coast, I finally did it. I sat down with my father and did a few processes. The first one I was guided to do, was to ask him about his upbringing, about his life. You see this is my stepfather and I've known him since I was four years old, in saying that though I never really knew him. I sat him down and said that I've known you for thirty two years dad, but I know nothing of you. How many of you out there know what your parents lives were like, what they experienced as a child, as a teenager, as an adult. Well I tell you now the stories I had in my head about my father were alot different to what he proceeded to tell me.

I was very surprised to say the least of what he had to tell me about his life. There's one huge thing ,that I did learn though and that was, finally getting to know the man who had a big influence in my life. I understood alot more about him and why he acts and reacts the way he does, it was a true blessing. After he had finished I thanked him and then told him that I'd like to do another process with him, regarding my childhood and up bringing. I explained that I didn't want in sorrys or him to feel any guilt, I just want him to listen and that I was going to speak for my inner child to him.

I sat there and explained to him how I felt as a child and that how I have kept alot of pain in me throughout my life. I tell you all now, as I was talking I could feel myself getting lighter and lighter. It's hard to explain, if you can imagine, it was like with every word I spoke, energy was releasing out of my being. I cant stress enough to you all, how freeing it is to release these wounds we carry from our childhood. If you can do it, if your parent or parents are open to this process, go for it, if you love yourself enough, if you want to really let go of your baggage, if you want to be free, then do it.

Even if you cant do the second process, do the first, it's a wonderful gift as an adult to learn about the people that brought you into this world, or the people who raised you. The key is to remember its not a blaming session, try to remain as calm as possible, speak from your heart. The end result of this process for me, was that in my heart I feel I have finally let go of my fears and anger. The other blessing I received is a stronger bond between me and my father and if that's all I got from it, then what a gift that is.

Before I did the process I told some friends what I was going to do, one of my friends is a physiologist. To my surprise when I explained what I wanted to do, she then told me that, from a physiologists point of view, WHEN AN ADULT CAN SIT DOWN AND DO A PROCESS LIKE THIS OR SIMILAR, THEN THEY FINALLY BECOME AN ADULT IN THE TRUER SENSE, WE RELEASE THE PAIN THAT WE CARRY AS A WOUNDED CHILD. When she explained this to me I knew I had to do it, why wouldn't you.

I hope that this may encourage some of you to do the same, again we only have this lifetime, don't leave it till its to late. Be bold in your life, take risks, I believe that's what the universe wants us to do. Experience all you can, because it's only through experience that we can heal and remember who we truly are and that is 'DIVINE SPARKS OF GOD'.

I thank everybody who has been apart of my life this year from my fantastic friends, to my lovers and family , I thank you all from the centre of my heart for playing out your parts so well, for me to remember what's most important in life, 'LOVE'. To all my friends that supported me through the hard times, I am truly blessed to have you in my life.

To all of you who read this, may you be blessed with love, light and laughter of the highest form over this festive season, may all of your lives and paths be showered with joy, ease and grace.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Divine Bliss

2007-12-14T22:04:00.000-08:00

Namaste, Aloha and greetings to you all, well what a fantastic life experience I've been having since arriving 'HOME' (Byron Bay). I emphasise the word home, because finally since arriving back from India seven months ago, it feels like home living back in Byron Bay.

Words cannot describe how I feel, if you could see inside my being, my soul would be dancing uncontrollably. My whole being is bursting with joy and happiness, why? because I followed my heart and my guidance. That's all where here for, its what makes our heart sing, if we're follow our heart everything in the universe supports us and nurtures us. Its like a universal law I believe, a bit like karma, what you put out, you get back.

I know for alot of people its hard to just let go, to just follow your heart, your passion, your guidance, but I tell you now 'ITS ALOT HARDER NOT TO, PERIOD'. So I implore you, if your standing at the edge of that cliff, wanting to dive off into the the abyss, into the true river of life, let go, jump and I assure you, you will be caught by the web of life and carried to places that you'd never had dreamed of. There's an old saying that quite a few people use and its one of my favorites 'FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY'.

As you all know when I left the Sunshine coast, I really had nothing to come to when I arrived in Byron. How quickly that changed, I had meet my first angel a few months back, in Sunshine. We are both involved in a fabulous project, its a healing day that a few of us have organised that will be held on the 19th of January. Its called 'Awaken to Joy', we're hoping to get as many people from around the Sunshine coast community to come together in oneness, through many different forms of healing and fun.

I thought a few weeks ago before I came down to Byron I had worked out some short term accommodation, but unfortunately or so I thought at the time it fell through. Again I didn't panic, I just asked my guidance why this had happened, and it simply said 'that there was a better opportunity coming and just relax', so I did. Well at one of the meetings, my new found angel proceeded to let everyone know that she was moving to Byron Bay in the next few weeks(actually it was one week before I was guided to go) well you didn't have to ask me twice, it was so obvious that this angel could help me. So I asked and of course she said 'yes, I'd gladly have you come and stay'. When I arrived that day, I couldn't have felt more at home, more welcomed by this nurturing angel. The place that I was to live for two weeks, was the last place I had lived in Byron before I went to India. Suffolk Park is about two minutes south of the heart of Byron Bay, its a quaint little village right on the ocean, I was about one hundred metres walk from the beach, how blessed was I, living in what I thought, back then, was the best placed I had ever lived in Australia.

Suffolk Park, paradise at my door step.

My friend and I spent some wonderful time together, we could clearly see right away, that we had connected for many reasons, mainly to help each other grow and heal past experiences mostly to do with relationships. In one of our conversations, where we got on to the subject of people following gurus, she said something that I thought was quite ingenious, yet simple at the same time. She said for me to spell out aloud the word guru, well to my surprise the answer is in the word it self, when you say it out aloud 'G,U,R,U', it says it all. I believe we need teachers in our lives to help us to the next level of consciousness, to show us the way, but I don't believe we in this day an age the need to hand over all our power to someone else.

When we allow the universal current to flow through and around us, things come to us, with ease and grace. This was shown to me within the first few days of arriving in Byron. The next angel appeared for me on day two, she had lined me up a job. It was working on a farm, in the hinterland of Byron, I was to pick blueberries. I knew I had at first, take what I could, what was to unfold was such a heart warming experience. The farm is situated in the rolling hills of the Byron Shire, the place where we were picking blueberries had a stream right next to the crop, you could hear the sound of the waterfall all day. The people I worked with, were such beautiful souls, my boss was more like a long lost friend, instead of an employer. So imagine this, standing there picking blueberries, listing to the birds and a majestic waterfall, laughing and chatting with beautiful people(oh and I might add, eating as many delicious blueberries as possible, heaven).

The other thing I noticed was that everyone I ran into, were so glad to see me back, Byron's like a big community of soul family. The unconditional love that flows around this place is such a blessing. The conversation that transpired between just about everyone I connected with again went something like this, 'Hi great to see you, welcome home, are you here for good? they'd say, 'yes for about a year' , 'fantastic, can I have a healing'. Yes everybody said just about the exact same thing. 'Ok' I said to god, 'I get it you want me to do, go back into healing work'. It was so obvious, that the universe wants me to get back into what I love and what I'm good at. This time I'm going to do it a different way, I'm going to set boundaries on how many healings I do a week, instead of trying to help and assist everyone all at once.

My next little test, was that I had to move out of Suffolk Park, I guess, things had run their course, maybe my friend and I had healed and learned what we needed to, and it was time to move on. Without even putting it out there yet, I was presented with my next gift, I found a room in the hills fives minutes from Byron's CBD. Its a small little community, that two of my soul family live at. I took a trip out there, I'd been there twice before, but only ever at night. What a glorious surprise, this place has its own little Shiva Temple, spring water and an energy that makes your heart open up with joy. As you can imagine I took it straight away. Its like living back in India in a way, this time I have my own little Temple.

The greeting sign at the front gate, it says it all in the name.

My accommodation, simple but sweet.

View from my room.

My own Shiva Temple.

Some of the gardens, ahhh the serenity.

I've been here for a week now, I've met some wonderful people and had such wonderful experiences. Which leads me into my next little teaching, 'THE ART OF MANIFESTING'. On the Monday and Tuesday just gone, I had no work, when it rains you cant pick blueberries, so I wasn't needed. I guess this, in the past would have brought up a little bit of fear, about where I was going to get money from. So on Monday evening I sat in meditation and simply placed out to the universe what I would like to have come into my life, 'NOW'. I asked why I hadn't really got a more stable job yet and that if I'm meant to be here then I would like some more support, with financial matters. My higher self just simply said to 'relax', I already have a job. So as I've said in the past, my guidance is all I have now and that I will trust in it, no matter what. After my meditation I was also called on, to ask Ganesh to clear all obstacles in my path that maybe stopping me form getting my ideal job(Ganesh is the destroyer of illusions and obstacles). With that and this is the key, once you've placed out your intention to the universe, simply let it go, this is the crucial part of the whole process of manifesting, to just let it go, knowing and believing with your whole being that it will come to you.

So Tuesday I awoke completely forgetting about what had occurred the night before, by ten o'clock the phone rang to come in and do some work on the farm. Off I went on my merry way, unaware of what was going to transpire later on that day. After I had finished working, if you could call it that. My boss came up to me and said 'that they were really happy with the way I worked and they wanted to give me more work, for example driving tractors'. I was very humbled and of course I said 'yes', thank you god I said to myself as I drove home that afternoon. While I was cooking my dinner, my phone rang, the person on the other end of the line, was an employer that interviewed me a couple of weeks ago, I'd completely forgotten about them. He said 'you've got the job, can you start tomorrow?, well hows that for manifesting, two jobs in one day, I ended up taking the second one after talking to the farmer, at the end he said that I could come back anytime if I ever wanted a job. Some may say its luck, I don't believe in luck at all, what I do wholly and solely believe in now, is the power of following your heart, following your guidance in everything that you do throughout your life and we are truly taken care of if we're open to it.

I wake up with so much excitement to start the day and have so much gratitude when I lay down to sleep. 'LET GO' , take the plunge, its fun in the river of life, its never boring, everything comes to those who risk to follow their heart.

Byron Bay lighthouse, its known throughout Australia, Its the furthest eastern point of Australia.

The endless beaches of Byron.

If you look closely, you can see a pod of dolphins, around the rocks of the lighthouse throughout the year, you can see whales pass by on their migratory journey up the coast. Dolphin and sea turtles are abundant around Byron.

Another beautiful view of the sacred place.

Faith, Surrender and Flow

2007-11-25T01:46:00.000-08:00

Namaste to you all, I haven't written anything for a while, I've been a busy little bee for the past few weeks. I've started up another website and have spent alot of time on it. I've also been trying to do as many hours at work, to get some money together for my next little adventure into the unknown.

The reason why I used the title 'Faith, Surrender and Flow' was due to the three cards I pulled from a spiritual deck of cards today. You see tomorrow is the day I leave for Byron Bay, I asked when I was shuffling the cards, what message did spirit have for me?. These were the three cards I pulled, these three words are what it's all about for me, in this time of change.

You see, as I wrote previously 'TRUST' is a big lesson for me and these three cards have everything to do with 'TRUST'. I was guided, to go back to Byron Bay a few months ago as some of you would know. Why? I don't need to know, other then my guidance suggested that it would be for my highest good. As I've been saying to people lately, if I'm not going to follow and 'TRUST' my guidance I might as well not be on the path I'm on.

I don't know anything about why Im going or whats going to happen, other then it's for my highest good. I don't know where I'll be living or who with, I have no job to go to and not much money to survive on. What I do know, is that somewhere, at some point in time my being wanted me, to finally embody and fully understand the true meaning of 'TRUST' and "FAITH'. 'TRUST' and 'FAITH' that I will and have always been, looked after by spirit or God if you like.

Now I know if I have these two energies with me, everything will unfold perfectly with ease and grace. I also realise that, if I try to control any of the situation down there, I might miss experiences or opportunities that are for my highest good. This is where the surrender comes in, I need to just 'let go and let God' as they say. By surrendering and letting go, I heal the need to control, I also let go of any expectations. By trying to control things, all the time and having sometimes unreasonable expectations, we set ourselves up for disappointment and unhappiness. Remember that when I use the word surrender, I'm not saying that you are yielding to something outside of yourself; you're actually giving in to your soul. When you fully surrender, you're allowing the universe to work through you. Your also permitting spirit, to give you direction and inspiration that's all for your highest good.

To alot of people, just packing up, leaving and going to a new place with nothing but what you have, might not seem a big deal. For me, I have done it a few times in my life, but for some reason even though everything always unfolded perfectly, I still had fear around it. I now know where it came from and you might be surprised to hear this, I traced it back from the moment I was born. Somewhere in my being I took on the belief that, I'm not supported on this earth and not even supported by God. How do I heal this part of me? how do I fully embrace and embody the true meaning of trust, faith, surrender and flow, easy, by meeting it head on. By going and placing myself in an experience that will allow me to learn or as I say remember what I've forgotten.

The other key for me, once I get to Byron, is to go with the flow. If I allow people and circumstances to help and flow to me, then things will be for my highest good. If I allow my egoic mind to take control and go against the flow, well I probably will miss opportunities, that will be more beneficial to me. When we're in the flow, ease and grace flow around us and through us. If were in the flow of the universe, everything falls into place with divine timing. When we resist the great river of life, we usually end up confused, unhappy and then of coarse we experience suffering. Two keys to move into the flow of life, is to have gratitude and appreciation of all that is in your life. Also remember there's a multitude of help from the universe, allow other people to help you and support you, sometimes its hard to ask for help, I know I've had a problem in the past with this one. Remember, 'IF WE UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYONE ON THIS PLANET IS A DIVINE SPARK OF GOD, THAT EVERYONE IS AN ANGEL, THEN WE ONLY HAVE TO ASK', "ASK AND THOW SHALL RECEIVE".

So with an open heart I leave, as soon as I'm set up, I'll send out another post. I don't know how long that will be, if I'm in the flow and following guidance then you'll all hear from me next week, if not then it will be in divine timing.

Three Masters - 2nd and 3rd Masters

2007-11-05T21:07:00.000-08:00

Namaste, well after the amazing session with Abdy on the Sunday, I couldn't have felt more happier and at peace. I awoke the next day on cloud nine, fully contented with everything in life. The following afternoon as I was walking past a noticeboard, a small flyer stood out like a beacon above all the other mish, mash of advertisements. It was a flyer about an enlightened Indian guru named Shri Shivarudra Balayogi Maharaj or Babaji for short. The flyer said that he was coming to my area that week, his first teachings were the following night and it was only five minutes from my house. Well I was like a little child (or a woman, he, he) who'd just found the keys to a chocolate factory.

I went straight home and called the number, it was all still going a head. 'How blessed was I', I thought two amazing beings in the same week. I came straight home the following day and got ready for the evening. This is where the second of the masters came into play. I've been living with a beautiful friend and her daughter for the past few months. It's the first time in my life that I have lived with a child before. At first I was a bit hesitant, until my guidance had suggested that it would be good for me.

Now this little master has brought huge joy into my life, and even the odd teaching. As most little four year old's these days seem to have a knowing of truth, this little one is no exception. While I was getting ready to see Babaji, she questioned me on where I was going. When I proceeded to tell her, she kindly interrupted me and explained to me, that it doesn't matter where you go, god is always in your heart. I thanked her for wise words 'no problem' she said. She then went on to tell me, 'no matter what Domonique you should always follow your heart, always'. I guess because I was in such a heart opened state, I really listened to the words that were spoken to me.

As with the Abdy experience, I seemed to be very receptive to what was occurring around me. I had a few minutes to sit and contemplate, if I was truly following my heart. It didn't take long for me long to realise, that I for some reason, I had fallen into the trap of thinking what I should be doing, instead of what was maybe best for me. I sat and thought about what had being unfolding for me since being back in Australia.

I really went deep on what brings me the greatest joy, in this moment. The first guidance that came to me was going back to India, I then saw Nepal and an African country. What was I doing, volunteer work, mainly with children. I then thought then why am I not doing it? well there's no reason what so ever.

Off and on over the past few months, I've had the odd silly thoughts creep in, one of the big one's is, that I should be settling down. I'm nearly 36 yrs old, I have an opportunity to buy a house at the moment, so I should take it, 'BORING'. Looking at it, there parts of me feeling that by going overseas and doing volunteer work, maybe for a few years, wasn't the best thing for a 36yr old Western male to be doing. In other words, yes I started to buy into what most of the Western society thought a man of my age should be doing. House(meaning big mortgage) a wife and kids. Now don't get me wrong, I would love to have these things in my life again, kids are the only thing I haven't done yet, mortgage and wife been there done that. All I have is how my heart feels and at the moment none of these things interest me.

Back to the story, I thanked my little master for reminding me, of such an important thing. 'Following one's heart, sets your soul free, It's what truly living is all about'. I drove to the house where Babaji was having his get together. The space was absolutely gorgeous, people were looking radiant and I could feel the excitement of anticipation in the air. We waited about five minutes for Babaji to arrive, In came a bearded Indian man, with a smile and eyes that felt warmer then a summers day.

Babaji sat on his little daybed, at the front of the room, legs crossed, wrapped in a white robe. You could feel his energy poring fourth, covering us like a warm blanket. We then were given sheets with Indian chanting and songs on it, we sang for about an hour. He then proceeded to teach us a very simple meditation technique that was past down from his guru. Babaji then spoke of all the important things that matter in life, love, peace, god and compassion. The night was full of joy and happiness, especially for me, for I had let go of the Cliff once again, and had dived into the abyss of the divine.

After that night I knew exactly what I would like to experience this lifetime as the one called Domonique. Now I know I've said it a hundred times that its not a good idea to plan to far a head (believe me I've fallen into that trap a few times). I sat and meditated on it all and asked for guidance on what was for my highest good. The first one was obviously to go back to Byron Bay, then I was given a little glimpse of a bit further down the track.

When I got back from India I read the famous book 'Autobiography of a Yogi' when I first read the word Kriya Yoga, it jumped out of the pages, I knew it was either a past life experience or that it was going to be good for me to do this lifetime, well its both. I looked it up on the net, there's a course running next year in November, for six months, in an ashram in Orissa, India. So if it's meant to be that's where I'll start my journey, after that I was shown I'll travel to Nepal and fulfill a hearts desire to work in orphanages. Now as well, I saw a golden thread going to Kenya, in Africa and to my surprise another one that went all the way to Spain. After reading Paulo Coelho's book 'The Pilgrimage' many years ago, I was inspired to do the same pilgrimage the 'Camino de Santiago', well I was shown that this dream will come into fruition, sooner or later.

Even though I was shown all these wonderful thing's the key is not to be attached to them. It's for me to be in the now and to know in my heart, that one day the universe will lead me to these experiences. Again I am meant to be where I am right now, everything is perfectly unfolding as it should be.

I also in the past couple of months have been told by two of my soul sisters on separate occasions to get the book 'A Course In Miracles', what an inspiration. My friend told me to read a certain passage in the book, I'd like to share with you the last part of it.

"I am here ONLY to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Christ, WHO sent me.
I do Not have to worry about what to say or what to do because
He Who sent me will direct me.
I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to Heal"

For me that says it all.

I have one more thing to add, I've wanted to share this with you all for a while now. Its about cemeteries, yep for alot of people there not a place, you'd want to think about too much, unless you had a loved one pass away. I hope I can write this and get my message across, in the right way. One of the biggest ways, I learned gratitude and to wake up to whats really important in life, was to go to a cemetery or just look at one as I was driving pass. How did this help?, you ask, when I was going through probably, the toughest challenge I've gone through in my life, for some reason I used this strange method to break the illusions I was placing myself in. How? by going and reading about people who'd died, from all different eras and all different ages. It reminded me while I was walking around, that I too will be dead one day, just like all of us. It some how snapped me out of the poor me syndrome, it help me let go of fear. It reaffirmed so strongly to me, that my soul might be immortal, but my body is not. It also taught me that at any given moment, when my numbers up, its up.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is 'LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, OR AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, EACH AND EVERY MOMENT, BECAUSE MOMENTS ARE ALL THAT YOU HAVE', If life's not working for you do something about it, in this moment. Find another way, try another way, your the only with the universes help that can do it.

'Forget not once this journey is begun the end is certain. Doubt along the way will come and go and come and go again. Yet is the ending sure, no one can fail to do what god appointed them to do. When you forget, remember that you walk with him with his word upon your heart'.
'A Course in Miracles'.

Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back .. Aloha brothers and sisters and many blessings.

The Three Masters - !st Master

2007-10-29T19:47:00.000-07:00

Namaste to you all, well what an interesting fortnight I had. It was full of many teachings(or rememberings, as I like to call it) and wonderful heart opening experiences. I was very fortunate to go see the first of the three wonderful beings that had touched my heart. Last Sunday I traveled down south to attend a healing circle, it was run by a very enlightened being called Abdy.

Abdy works with the Christ energy, he aligns you to the presence of the Divine to the Divine's mind, to the Divine's heart and to the Divine Spirit. Before I talk about the amazing session I and everyone else experienced, I'll rewind it to the beginning of the the week. I put out an email asking if anyone wanted to carpool, I received two replies. Sunday came, so I set off in the morning, I left a little bit earlier so I wouldn't have to rush.

Well you guessed it, the universe had other ideas, other tests, other experiences installed for me. I picked up my first passenger with ten minutes to spare, too easy. We hadn't met before so we got acquainted with each other. We were suddenly interrupted in our conversation, to our surprise the main road not far from his place had a traffic jam. 'It's ok, we've plenty of time', I said, I'm not quite sure how long we were bumper to bumper, but the time had certainly been eaten up.

I remember thinking we've still got enough time, there's nothing to worry about. So we kept on our little merry way, chatting as new acquaintances do, we had alot in common, so the conversation flowed very easily and so did the time. We both hadn't been to my next passengers place before so we had to follow a map. First lesson for the day, try remain in the NOW!! even when your in deep conversation. My new friend was half way through his next sentence, when he suddenly said 'what was the name of that street?', when he looked on the map he realised that we'd missed the street we had to turn up by along way. I quickly turned at the next street and got back on the road heading back to where we'd already been.

As I was driving, I looked down at the map, we hadn't just missed her street by a few kilometres we'd missed it by heaps. Next thing of course she rang wondering where we were. By this time we were running late, I noticed I was starting to get a bit anxious. All the good intention of getting to the session with time to spare and in a relaxed state were quickly going out the window. I reminded myself to take a deep breath at this time, and remember to relax and trust that everything was going to be ok.

We finally pulled up at her place, I asked her if she new where we going?'I've been there twice before, but I cant remember', was her reply. 'You've got a map don't you?', she said, 'no I was hoping you had one?', well the energy started to go a bit pear shaped now. Thank god she had one in her car, though it took her a while to find it. Off we set again, this time we were even later, I could feel parts of myself starting to feel responsible for getting us all there on time. My second companion played her part well in this little lesson, she repeatedly said 'she should have gone by herself' and 'that she'd never have been late'. As I kept trying to remember to just trust that we would make it there on time, my new friend unconsciously kept trying to bring my lack of trust up. When I asked her to checkout exactly where we were going in the street directory it occurred to me that she couldn't really read a map, so I was really getting tested now.

See we all have parts of us that like to have control over certain situations in varying degrees and one of mine is, I like to know where I'm going and where I am on a map(probably a reflection on what I unconsciously do sometimes in life it's self lol). I witnessed myself now starting to get even more anxious. There were parts of me that felt like saying 'look just hand it over to the other person and see what they can workout'. Next minute bang!! something went under the bonnet of my car. I pulled over, this was the first time for many years anything had gone wrong with any of my cars.

Again I took a deep breath, this time my inner guidance said TRUST!!!!, I took a another deep breath and got out of the car and lifted the bonnet, one of the belts had shredded. My first thought was how am I going to fix this, the belt had rapped around the fan, I knew if I could cut the belt, the car was still going to be alright. Next minute a thought had occured to me, that I remember seeing a pair of scissors in my car along time ago and for some reason, when I went to take them out, something said to me (guidance) to leave them in there because I might need them one day, well this was certainly that day. I quickly cut the belt and off we went, no air conditioning and no power steering, but a car none the less that was still sort of drivable.

By this time a huge energy washed over me, part of me was starting to laugh at the whole situation. It was like I could really see the whole experience from above, for what it really was, for some reason to me it was so obvious, it was like it was too obvious, that I could really see through the illusion that had been unfolding all day. I tell you they must have been really laughing up in the clouds, placing all these obstacles in front of me, to see if I would fall from grace. Well for some reason this day, I was fully aware of what was unfolding and what was really going on.

This day my whole being knew, that going to Abdy was going to be special and for some reason after the first incident of the morning that I was going to be tested, that test is one of the most important tests a human being can have throughout their lifetime and that test is 'TRUST'. It's a big one, TRUST just about comes up on a daily bases, alot of things that happen to us are all about TRUST.

I know for me that TRUST has been a big issue throughout my life. When I talk of TRUST, I'm talking about real TRUST, by this I mean trusting in everything that happens in your life is for your highest good. Having a deep sense of TRUST in the universe and life itself as it unfolds. By having TRUST we bring in positive emotions like inner peace, a feeling of being centred and grounded. When we have these energies flowing through us, we are less likely to have negative emotions like stress, anxiety, frustration and fear, no matter what the situation.

Now looking at that day, it could have been quite easy for me to allow what was happening around me to overwhelm me. Don't get me wrong there were little moments where I started to waver, I feel though after all that happened I remained very calm. There were a few more little tests right up until we got there, but you get the gist of what I'm talking about here.

We eventually arrived at the hall, with one minute to spare, yippee. The day was absolutely amazing, the shifts I experienced were profound for myself and I believe everyone involved. Now you wouldnt believe what Abdy spoke of after the session, yep you guess it, it was all about trust and that no matter what happens in your life everything will be ok. The whole day was truly a blessing for me and a catalysts for what is to come in the near future for me and the rest of my life.

My true test of trust is coming up in the not to distant future, my guidance in a meditation had suggested to me that in the last week of November to the first week of December that it is for my highest good to go back to Byron Bay, a place I love. I had the same guidance nearly two years ago, to leave where I was and to move to Byron Bay. So as I promised myself a few months ago that I would always follow my guidance no matter what, so now I'm getting ready to go.

Now what I'll be doing there I'm not quite sure, I just have to go with an open mind and most importantly an open heart. So it really is the final test for me to fully embody TRUST, this lifetime. Our inner guidance is so important for us to follow if we want to experience a more fulfilling life, with hopefully a more easier path to follow. I guess as we live out our life here on earth, it's up to us as individuals if we want to follow divine guidance or our egoic mind. I believe which ever we choose of the two (and it is our choice) we will eventually get to our destination, sooner or later, one's just a little bit less of a bumpy ride. Then again, when I think about it, if we are to remember who we truly are this lifetime we sometimes have to get down and dirty. As you all know, most of the time when we are met with our biggest challenges and come out the other side, we usually don't just take a step, we usually make a jump.

To be continued....

Lending a Hand

2007-10-16T04:17:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, my friend sent me an email the other day, with a very exciting project. There's a wonderful group of people that have come up with such a simple way to help the world's poorer communities. The concept is easy and very rewarding, you loan money to people, who want to set up their own business.

kiva.org enables you to connect with and loan money to small businesses in the developing world (microfinance). You can make as little as a US$25 loan to help low-income entrepreneurs in the developing world. ‘Sponsoring a business’ is an incredibly direct and effective way for us in the West to provide affordable working capital for the poor (money to buy a sewing machine, livestock, etc.), empowering them to earn their way out of poverty and into economic independence.

As my friend points out, " this concept strikes me as being a great way for me to keep recycling money as well as provide scope to give more than a standard donation – when you get your money back you can use it yourself, or re-loan it. The old saying, ‘give a man a fish and feed him for a day; teach a man how to fish and he can feed himself every day’ morphs to ‘help a man buy fishing equipment and he can feed himself and his family, sell fish as a livelihood, and then repay you so you can do it all over again!"

I don't need to say anymore then, one of the greatest things a human being can experience in their life time is the act of giving to another from the heart. I know I'll be sponsoring someone, anything that's this simple has to be a good thing. So please check it out, you'll find all the info you need, again their website is www.kiva.org , to give is to receive, its a natural law.

Home is Where the Heart is

2007-10-08T19:47:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, I just realised that tomorrow is the, 10/10/2007 its exactly a year ago, that I left Australia for India. Like I guess most of us, I cant believe how quickly a year has gone. It truly only feels like yesterday that I was saying goodbye to a good friend of mine at Brisbane airport. I've been witnessing myself over the past couple of days and I've noticed that there's still apart of me that wishes I was still there.

I know that its so important to be in the now and its just as important to have a 'gratitude attitude'. Its funny in the past couple of days friends that I met over in India have been unconsciously contacting me again, to bring up my stuff. I realise too how most of them had touched my soul and brought me great joy. I also realise that its ok, to acknowledge these beautiful souls and my fantastic experience that I had in India and to just let it go.

Something else has come to my attention, when one of my closest friends came and stayed with me over the past week, I hadn't taken any photos of where I live. So I thought I'd place some photos of the area that I live in. It took me awhile to settle down here, because for some reason I never liked the place. If you'd said a year and a half ago that I'd be living in the Sunshine Coast area for a while, I would have laughed my head off, well here I am and have been living here for about four months.

I guess god/goddess wants me to really learn gratitude and to appreciate every part of my life no matter whats happening. I have to realise and fully embrace, that I'm exactly where I'm meant to be, doing exactly what I'm meant to be doing, period. This is a very important teaching for myself and probably most of the population, by having deep gratitude, acceptance and love for all areas of our lives, then we are naturally flowing with life. By trying to fight against certain areas of our lives we automatically become stuck. Instead of flowing down the stream of life in our little canoe, by fighting our circumstances, by resisting them we some how turn our canoe around and start paddling up stream against the flow, what does that bring? suffering and turmoil.

'WHAT WE RESIST, PERSISTS', its sometimes hard to understand this law or to even believe that its possible, believe me it is, 'SO LET GO AND LET GOD'. I had some experiences over the weekend that were very tempting to say least. Last week I was asked, to ring a friend of mine and find out times for a meditation class, I used to attend in another town, before I left to go to India. Well I found out, that my friend no longer lived there, so I got chatting to the lovely lady who owned the house. See my friend used to be her carer, he had told me about it a few months ago. It all seemed so perfect, she was still looking for someone, I had rang, she also wanted someone to do full time healing in her house etc etc. So off I went, down to have an interview with her, it seemed so perfect, I could help someone who really needed help, get back into my healing work full time, live where I really wanted to live, spend more time on my website. Though there was one thing missing, divine timing, my higher self explained to me that it wasn't for my highest good to go there now, plus a few other things.

I thought I had embraced my circumstances fully here, but as soon as an opportunity came up I was ready to drop everything and run. Its nothing to do with anything outside of myself, its feeling comfortable within myself no matter whats happening around me. When I fully learn this lesson then and only then will I move on, into another experience. I realise too that's there's lots of little reasons why I'm here. I ran into a lady not far from where I live, that has a few orphanages in Nepal, its been a dream of mine as some of you would know to first do volunteer work in Nepal, then set up an orphanage as well. She has plenty of contacts and information about it, which is a blessing, who knows it could be a huge reason that I'm on the Sunshine coast, was to meet this lady. Again a huge part of me just wanted to get ticket and go to Nepal, but again its all about divine timing and whats best for me now. For many reasons the universe wants me to stay in the Sunshine Coast, so that's exactly what I'll do, with gratitude, acceptance and love.

Here's some pictures.

View from my room.

The house.

The backyard.

This was taken at a small village called Montville, its about 45 minutes from my place.

This is part of the Kondalilla Falls, my parents used to live about a ten minute walk from here.

This is one of the headlands in a national park about a ten minute drive from my house. As you can see there's plenty of beautiful places to visit, that are only a short drive from where I live, how blessed am I.

Its Blowing in the Wind

2007-10-08T18:47:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, I came across this article on a very important environmental issue, I've been talking about it off and on for many years now. The issue is, I've never understood how we live in a country(Australia) that has the capacity, to lead the world in new environmental
technology on a large scale and we've done nothing about it.

We have the perfect landscape for solar and wind technology, to probably supply most of our electrical needs, yet I bet you we probably have the least amount of it, in operation in the western world. Why? because for a hundred years we have been run by weak governments. Most of our history we have let other governments dictate to us whats best for us. First it was Great Britain then America, Japan and now more then ever its China.

Behind all of these countries are large multinational companies, with endless amounts of resources, what ever they want they get. Most of these are mining companies, Australia rely heavily on these companies to keep our economy staying strong. It doesn't matter about the destruction of our environment and our future. Its all about how much money they can make now, how many resources they can get now and the quickest way to do it.

For the life of me, I cant see why the Australian government and big business cant see the massive potential, we have in leading the world in new ways to harness our greatest source of energy, the sun. If there's one thing we have an abundance of here in Australia, its the sun and to a lesser extent wind.

I'm happy that someone has had the insight to use our true resources, that benefit both the earth and humankind. Just looking at that word 'Human-kind', we certainly need to take that name on in a bigger way, if we want to save our glorious planet. What does upset me a little bit is that it's taken an overseas company to get the ball rolling instead of and Australian company(which is usually the case). I just pray that now once and for all, everyone jumps on this bandwagon and pushes Australia to lead the world into a brighter future for the earth and all its inhabitants.

Conergy Plans A$2 Bln Australia Wind Farm
"SYDNEY - Conergy Germany's largest solar energy company by sales, said on Monday it plans to build a A$2 billion (US$1.8 billion)wind farm in Australia as part of a plan to expand the company's presence in Asia-Pacific." Planetark
>>Environmental News

Spring in My Step

2007-09-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all,( I guess I better explain to some of you the true deep meaning of aloha). As most of you would all know Aloha comes from the Hawaiian people and just about everyone would have heard of this greeting. What alot of people wouldn't know as I didn't, the sacredness and power of this word. Aloha has many different meanings it's not just saying hello. When someone greets you aloha, it's not just a hello it's a deep honouring of one soul to another.

Some of the meanings I've come across and there's countless more, here's what the actual word means, Alo = presence, front, face] + [hâ = breath, "The presence of (Divine) Breath." Here are some of the english words to describe this sacred word, love, affection, compassion, mercy, sympathy, kindness, sentiment, grace, charity; greeting, salutation, regards; sweetheart, lover, lover, loved one; beloved, loving, kind, compassionate, charitable, lovable; to love, be fond of; to show kindness, mercy, pity, charity, affection; to venerate; to remember with affection; to greet, to hail.

To me especially aloha (like the Indian greeting namaste) has two more profound meanings, the first, I recognise and honour the god/goddess in you brother/sister and the other, we are one with each other for eternity. I really do believe by greeting people who would be open to you saying aloha or namaste constantly, would hopefully remind us of how important it is to understand that we are all one. By honouring everyone we meet along our path we honour ourselves, by seeing the divine in another we are automatically seeing the divine in ourselves.

What a fantastic spring equinox experience I had on Sunday, I had a very enriching day at a gorgeous friends place. The day started out with my friend channelling Lord Maitreya. The channelling was all about relationships, he talked about the true deeper meaning of relationships. We were also blessed, with some clearing techniques which helped shift a few blockages. I'll be posting the channelling within the next week, hopefully some of you might be able to also receive something from it.

One of the the best things about the day, was again meeting more like minded, open hearted people. As I wrote similar in a previous post, 'as the petals of our heart unfold like a flower in the morning sun, permeating our divine essence, so too do we then allow others to do the same'. The afternoon was also filled with an unusual Indian sweat lodge to say the least. The rocks weren't quite hot enough, so there wasn't much sweating going on, but the releasing and warmth of everyone's heart was enough to make the experience a success.

So the whole day was to have the intent of bringing in our heart desires for the next year and letting go of the old and being thankful for the year that passed. Remember one of the major key's to everything we do throughout our lives is 'INTENT'. It doesn't matter what you do in life even the small mundane things, having a purposeful intent allows us to experience everything on a deeper level.

The Flow on Effect

2007-09-22T19:04:00.000-07:00

Aloha to you all, another week gone by, again I am finding an even deeper love and appreciation of the awesome gift we are given each and every moment 'the breath of life'. I'm witnessing the natural flow on effect throughout my life because of one thing 'MY COMMITMENT TO SELF LOVE AND SELF REALISATION'.

There is an old saying 'our outer world is a reflection of our inner world', over the past month this saying has been unfolding as exactly that. Through turning my attention and intention to finding inner peace and love, what naturally happens? experiences in my outer world reflect my inner world. People and situations are coming into my life each and everyday to support and nurture me once again.

If we look at ourselves in this way for example, think of a picture you might have seen of a universe. It's a mass of energy swirling around the cosmos, there are many parts that make up this universe. In the core of the universe is the main energy point. This centre point has a gravitational effect, everything is held in perfect alignment because of this force. Floating around are many other important energy points, exactly placed with perfection. Throughout the universe there many different areas which hold different energies, from warmth to extreme cold, places where it is dormant and places where there is much life.

Even though what we may perceive are many different polarities throughout the universe, there is one undeniable thing, every single part of the universe no matter what it is, makes that universe a whole. Now we must be mindful that things will also gravitate towards this universe from outside of it's self. They can just pass through or have a huge impact, what is meant to be will be.

Like the universe we are made up of lots of different parts. Those parts of us are all perfect, they are doing their job in divine order. Now the difference between humans and the universe is that humans label everything, for example good and bad, wrong and right, desirable and undesirable etc etc. Where as the universe (nature) will just accept all parts of it's self, will witness things passing through it's space and just keep on being as it was.

So I look at my self as a little mini universe spinning around in space. If the core of my being is strong, is glowing, then I naturally will attract the same universes(people) and experiences to me, without getting to off centre one way or the other. Each and everyday I'm moving through my own inner lessons with more ease and grace, which builds my inner core of light, which then allows me to enjoy more of life.

There are natural laws of the universe, I realise now on a deeper level then I ever have before, by turning within for self love, by building that inner core so it is solid and strong. There is a natural process that unfolds after that. Everything in our outer world reflects back to us, to enhance our inner world. It builds up momentum like a snow ball effect, self esteem and love builds, more and more people and experiences come into our lives that helps this inner love grow. It is a natural reciprocating effect, by nurturing and loving our own being, we inadvertently attract people and experiences to enhance this. I guess it's a bit like the law of gravity, 'what goes up must come down', 'what shines out must shine back' .

I just want to add this little saying my best and dearest friend wrote to me awhile ago,(not sure if it's his).

Dark times are good for learning and growing, but the light times are what life is all about. I can add to that, the more light times the more light comes through, the more lighthearted we become.

The Nature of Things

2007-09-17T21:42:00.000-07:00

I realised over the weekend there was one main ingredient I had forgotten, one vital piece of the journey that we're on, while we're here on this amazing planet. 'NATURE', yes I had forgotten how important nature is to our well being (silly billy, lol). I've surfed since I was twelve years old, there were times throughout my life when surfing was placed on the back burner. When I hit thirty, it became my passion once again.

For some unknown reason since coming back from India, I haven't surfed much at all. If there's one thing in my life I know creates, so much pleasure, joy, healing, oneness, peace etc etc, its surfing. I went for my first surf in three months, that's the longest I've stayed out of the water for years. I tell you I really like to make my growth periods very hard, no half heartedness here lol.

The other blessing I got to experience over the weekend, was going for a forest walk, the backyard of the house that I'm living at has a huge forest(how blessed am I). Now being an Aussie, some of you might question why I used the word forest instead of bush(to everyone that doesn't know outside of Australia, Australians call the forest, bush. We like to shorten everything, lol). Again when we look at the word 'FOREST', if we break it up what do we get? 'FOR-REST', and that's exactly what happens to our whole being on many levels, when we are surrounded by nature.

So please remember as I have done once again, how much of a necessity it is to connect to nature. If there's one thing that will uplift your spirits and open your heart its mother nature. This is why its called 'MOTHER NATURE' because what do mothers do for us 'THEY NURTURE US'. That's probably why they didn't need to change the word 'NURTURE' much, because 'NATURE and NURTURE' mean the same thing.

Now when I go surfing, I just don't go surfing, I'm fully aware of the cleansing powers of the ocean. I call the ocean 'sister sea' and I ask her to cleanse my whole being, from my auric field right down to the cell's of my body. Being in the water also allows me to let any frustrations out, so as I'm paddling I place my head under the water and give a good old scream from the depths of my being. You'll be amazed how freeing it is, many of us especially in the West don't allow ourselves to let go, you might not realise how much energy you store in your body.

Through learning Ka Huna massage, I quickly realised how much the human body stores energy. One of the main areas that I found held alot of energy was the jaw. Think about it, every time you hold back on saying something, every time you don't speak out, energy has to go some where. When its to do with communication that energy remains in the jaw. So make it part of your weekly or even daily ritual to have a good old fashion scream, I guarantee you'll feel a whole lot better for it.

Make being in nature a priority if you can, I know just by the two fantastic experiences I had over the weekend, I feel awesome. It's wonderful to have that spark, spring and spirit in my soul again. Like everything you do throughout your day place out an intention, when you do get to go into nature, ask to be cleansed, ask for guidance on what ever is troubling you. Above all have gratitude to God/Goddess remind yourself how blessed you are to be here, to be able to experience such a precious, wonderful gift and that gift is 'LIFE' it's self.

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Science Catching Up

2007-09-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

I found a small article, about scientists simulating out of body experiences. It sounds a bit out there, I find it very interesting when ever science crosses over to the spiritual side of things. The more science starts to understand that there's more out there then just the 3D world, I think the better. I can feel there really is a change coming. More and more people around the globe, day by day, are becoming awake that we are not separate that we are one. That there's a deeper purpose to life then just surviving, then just material gain etc etc.

I as many know there has never in the history of the world been so many awakened beings on our planet at once. It is an exciting time to be here on this beautiful earth. The more institutions like science align to a deeper understanding of our universe, the more people out there will see that the whole concept of spirituality, has a major part to play in the evolution of the human race and our beloved planet.

Out of body experiences in laboratory
"The experiments of Dr Rupert Sheldrake, whose concept of “extended mind” is one of the more interesting developments in biological research this century, seem to have touched off a number of other scientists to follow suit." spiritual-nirvana
>> New Age News

Lasting Change

2007-09-15T20:59:00.000-07:00

For the past few weeks I've had many experiences that keep pointing to a very important subject -"how to make positive changes last?". I read an article on this issue today and again parts of my being feel that a lot of what so called "self-help experts" are telling us doesn't give the whole picture.

The article I had read is from a very famous author and after reading it, part of me still feels there are some major components missing. They don't tell you how to truly move through your stuff to have a more permanent state of happiness, joy and love. Now there was a time in my life where I believed that if we truly wanted to move into a permanent state of open heartedness, unconditional love and joy it could be achieved in this life time; if this was your heart's desire. Many people laughed and some even ridiculed me for suggesting such a thing. Well, as I write this, I realise that there's part of me that still feels that this can be achieved. I ask you this one question; if you are a person that believes in ascended masters eg Jesus, Buddha and Babaji then what is one of the main messages that every single one of these masters passes on? 'You can do and achieve as I have done'.

Why do humans limit themselves, settle for second best, choose to believe that there are limits to what we can do and achieve? simple 'FEAR'. Right from when we're born most of the human population is bombarded with limiting thought beliefs, words and action from every angle. Well, if you are another person that believes that 'we are all one' and that we are all, in essence, a seed from God. Then you'll have no problem in believing 'if they can do it (ascended masters) then so can I'. There are a few major things that keep us stuck and things that keep us repeating our old patterns.

Let's look at them; see, the thing that I find is a major problem in many self-help books is they seem to only focus on the mind. Yes, our mind is one of the most powerful instruments in the universe, but we must remember that we are all made up of many things and it is just one of the pieces that makes the whole. You see I had an amazing experience the other night. I was very fortunate to have had a deep, old wound come to the surface that needed to be recognised, loved and accepted. Now, seven years ago when I was going through a very emotional time after my divorce, I read alot of self-help books, I practiced every moment of the day turning my belief systems around into positive , loving ways of being. Well seven years later that exact same energy came to the surface; the difference this time, I have the tools and knowledge to move through it.

Why did this happen? Well for me, I know fully now, especially after the other night, part of my being was still carrying the wound or energy that was from that experience and to be truthful I bet you it was probably from an even earlier experience. What did I do different? I ALLOWED IT TO BE, I welcomed it for it is a part of me, I allowed my self to feel it deeply. It lasted for an hour, mind you it was very intense, the end result I know in my being that I have moved through it now. The lesson and experience is now complete and with that I am becoming a more loving whole being.

So, after all that, what I'm trying to understand? that there is a process for truly making a permanent change, first allow what ever it is, pain, fear, sadness etc etc to come up allow yourself to really feel it deeply, go right into the feeling, accept it on all levels and I can pretty much guarantee it will pass. After this process is complete then I believe this is the time to start on the positive thoughts, words and actions, in some way there is now a part of you that can now allow these processes to take root. In a way we could look at it as emptying your vessel to allow God/goddess to fill that void, with love.

What's another key in forming a new solid positive way of being? REPETITION. You must have a continuous flow of positive thoughts, words and actions to make a permanent change in your life. Now things will come to the surface that's guaranteed, depending on how much work you've done will depend on how often and severe it will be for you in your life and how much you want the lesson before you to drag out. But there's one thing I know somewhere, some part of me understands that it will slowly but surely dissipate over time if you have a true desire to live your life on this earth as if your living in heaven.

I reminded a friend the other day of a saying that I use to fully believe in and again am starting to use 'BE IN THE WORLD, BUT NOT OF THE WORLD' in other words be present and accepting of the world around you on all levels but remember not to get caught up in it, see it for what it truly is 'A WONDERFUL JOURNEY FROM ONE POINT TO ANOTHER'.

Being Open to All That Is

2007-09-05T20:26:00.000-07:00

This article was sent to me the other day, some of you might find it interesting. It's similar to what I put on a post the other week and guess it again may explain why so many people are going through huge shifts. I know most of my friends around me are going through similar processes to what I've gone through. I guess on many levels there are many of us that have chosen to be on this earth to open up and understand who we truly are on a deep level, so its inevitable that we'll go through some hard times.

So the only way we can accomplish becoming an open hearted being, to become completely whole and come from a space of unconditional love, is to bring all parts of us into the light. When we fully understand that there are many parts of ourselves that have been wounded throughout all time, space and dimensions, then we understand that working with just some parts of our being wont be enough.

Its taken a while but science has finally come on board and understood that there isn't just this 3D dimension. Through quantum physics, scientists are realising we live in a multidimensional universe. I believe to take the holistic approach in becoming our full potential this lifetime we have to be open to believing that we are made up of many parts. Some of these aspects of ourselves can be effecting us in this lifetime, in other words the here and the now.

For example, do you ever wonder why you cant attract money or a partner that you feel you could have a divine connection with?. You've tried all the self-help books, relationship books and how to have abundance in your life books and it just doesn't work. Well this is when we need to look outside the square, when we fully understand that there is no past and there is no future there is only the now then we understand that everything is effecting us in the now. For example, that as a child we took on the belief that we didn't deserve love or we made a vowel of poverty from another lifetime these can still play out in this lifetime, in this now space. You might not believe this but on some level we a getting effected by these parts of ourselves for example, inner child, emotional body, chakras, feminine and masculine self etc, etc.

Now sometimes it can be hard to access these parts on our own, that's why there are plenty of healers and healing techniques around that can help in these areas. Where do you start? well start by letting the universe know that you'd like to work on a certain part of yourself and that you'd like assistance in finding the most appropriate practitioner or healing modality for you at this time. Be open to little signs along the way, for example hearing a friend mention a fantastic healing he or she received or a pamphlet standing out, be open, look for signs.

Also especially in these times, I know we can easily get effected by outer energies if we are off our centre. If we're not grounded and our pillar of light, auric field are not as strong as they could be, sometimes we are open to other peoples thought forms and energies around us. We can even be effected by the mass conscious mind. Be aware that sometimes we may feel ok and then wham out of the blue we feel off centre again. Take note of who's around you at the time, what your listening to on the TV or radio. If something does come up, ask if it is yours and you might find that sometimes it isn't. Now some of you might be thinking, well that's not taking responsibility for our stuff etc that you wouldn't have had it come up if it wasn't yours. I'm not suggesting that its all the time, I'm just pointing out that on occasions if your not strong and clear in yourself we can be susceptible to energies outside of ourselves.

Go on the inner if you can and ask who or what its about, then just simply hand it back. If you feel you've had your power taken away from someone in your life try speaking to them on the inner. If that doesn't work go and talk to them about it(if their open), tell them how you feel (don't use blame or attack), but always go with an open heart and see them as an innocent child of god. Most people wouldn't even know that they are dumping on you or taking some of your energy from you. Know that every interaction we have in our lives with anyone, there is a transference of energy on some level, period.

Remember you don't have to go through it by yourself, ask and thou shall receive. These times are huge and we need all the assistance we can get. Be open for assistance on all levels, just ask the universe, know and see yourself getting what you've asked for.

CONFUSION

"ENTERING THE HIGHER REALMS can really bring aboutstates of confusion. Yes, we are beginning a residency in thehigher realms, but we haven't completely left the old 3D worldyet! Much of what we believed regarding higher ways of beingand living were at times inaccurate. This information arrivedthrough a 3D mind, or rather through adis-connect state of mind. Much of the spiritual information thatwe were taught, or that we bought into, was therefore comingfrom a lower vibrating level of consciousness.

As many of us are having some very strange and interestingexperiences through the ascension process, we can then becomequite confused about what is really going on, and whateverything was really all about in the first place. Add to this theenergy shifts. When we experience an energy shift, it serves toraise our vibration. When this occurs, much of everything withinand without is moved around. And during this time of so much"vibration raising," things are adjusting and lining up in regardto a critical mass, so that change can occur. This can cause aconfusing waiting period. It is no wonder then, that we canbecome very confused at times and not know what in the worldis going on!

Confusion can occur when we thought that things would unfoldin a certain way. If we were to believe, for instance, that as weraise our consciousness, everything just naturally gets better andbetter, we would be in for a big surprise. The purging andreleasing resulting from the ascension process creates depressionand challenging energies, to say the least. And then there are thelong periods of waiting, as mentioned above, where we seem tobe in a void or in limbo as we are waiting for others to catch up,while we are also "rebooting" or re-aligning for the next step. Wemay continually expect that the next step will be oh so muchbetter, and then are usually disappointed and let down when itisn't.

Dying while in a 3D body is a very long process. Yes, there aremoments of really experiencing great feelings of a higher order,but the process is also very real, as it takes us through anddeeply into ourselves. It also seems to stop and start...and thiscan cause confusion as well.

"Have we gotten anywhere at all?" you may wonder at times. Orperhaps you may have had feelings that all this ascension stuffcreated absolutely nothing New. The truth of the matter is thatwe have made incredible progress. Taking an entire planet oflower vibrating energy and raising it up is no small matter.Things began at higher levels and then needed to trickle downinto the physical. In addition, the lightworkers began theirascension journeys far ahead of everyone else, and therefore havebeen at it for a very long time. This was their service forhumanity, and this is one reason why it may seem like things aretaking forever. But for others, they have yet to begin.
If you were to look back on what your life was like a year ago, orperhaps even a few months ago, I would imagine you would seethat great changes had occurred. You probably are not the sameperson you used to be and you are also probably in a verydifferent situation in many areas of your life.

Confusion can result when we are seeing a process that doesnot resemble what we had imagined in our old 3D mind. But ourold 3D mind did not know much. For the most part, it wasdisconnected from Source. And in addition to all of the above,those of us who are here experiencing the ascension process as aservice to humanity, are at the helm of the process as well. Thismeans that things can literally change on a dime. At higher soullevels, we get together, have regular meetings, and arrive with aplan. And although there is most certainly a general plan, thelogistics and road to get there are subject to "wiggle room." Sojust when we think we know and understand what will happennext, it doesn't! (Unless, of course, you are very consciouslyconnected to yourself at a soul level...)

If you have chosen this page, you are being encouraged to knowthat all is always in divine and perfect order. Being in themoment can greatly ease any discomforts that confusion canbring. If you can get out of the way in regard to analyzing andneeding to know, you will connect more greatly to Source in thelong-run. The higher we begin vibrating, the more clarity wereceive, as we are beginning to "see" things at a much higherlevel from the other side of the veil. And clarity is not alwayswhat we thought it would be! But as we progress further andfurther along our paths of ascension, we begin to find much morepeace, as we truly begin to find the clarity that was alwaysthere...we just weren't vibrating high enough to understand it yet."
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Inner and Outer Relationships

2007-09-04T00:29:00.000-07:00

Circumstances over the past month have changed dramatically for me, is it because there has been a huge shift on the inner for me, then this reflects on my outer world, you bet. Going through what I'd gone through over the past few months, clearing's, deep reflection, facing my self with honesty and integrity and being fully aware of where I come from in all areas of my life, slowly but surely I've come through the other side with a new zest and deeper understanding of life. It's easy to get wayward on our own self-growth, to lose focus on what brings us joy and happiness and to forget about what's really important to us.

As I've said before there's now more distractions then ever in the history of the human race, everyone's so busy now we forget about ourselves. We give every excuse why we cant just sit and be, meditate and reflect on where we are in our lives. One of the biggest is when we're in a relationship, this is probably one of the greatest distractions of all if we allow it, because I know for me and alot of society, when we're in a relationship it's easy to fall into the trap of, first placing our inner focus on the person that is the subject of our love and affection and secondly if and when the relationship starts to fall apart we then do the old blaming game and focusing on trying to fix the other person instead of taking responsibility for our own actions. These are certainly fabulous distractions on not dealing with our own inner work.

The key I believe is to communicate right from the start to your partner, friends and loved ones that each and everyday you need time for reflection, meditation or just quite time. Establish this important boundary first off and stick to it. The important thing here though is making that commitment to yourself, if you cant commit to yourself then you wont be able to commit to anyone, simple.

Like any cycle in the universe relationships come and go, with ourselves and with others, for me now on a deeper level then I have ever had, I finally realise how important it is to have the discipline and commitment to having a strong loving relationship with my self each and everyday throughout my entire life. Through total commitment to one's self this is how we can make permanent, positive changes to ourselves which will effect all other areas of our lives. I looked at my current circumstances and at first I felt that I was upset to be alone again, but then I realised that in this word alone there is a key, for when we break it down and look at it, we see what it really stands for "AL-ONE", so over the past month that has been what I've achieved again, a deep connection to my self, to source and a deep commitment to inner work and reflection.

It was said to me by a beautiful friend of mine that her friend describes relationships as 'growth machines' and I fully agree, for me relationships are a necessity and show me where I'm at in regards to my self-worth and self-love. If we can take on the understanding that everyone, especially people that we have an intimate relationship with is a teacher and an angel sent to help us grow and learn more about ourselves, if we all looked at it like this there would be alot less hurt and bitterness in the world if the relationship has run its course and ended.

I personally couldn't be more grateful to the teacher/angel that had come into my life, she helped me learn more lessons about my self in such a short time then any other relationship I've had in the past it was such a blessing for me. I believe that everythings speeding up on all levels and what we may have taken to learn in say five to ten years in a relationship we now learn in say six to twelve months. I know in my heart that one of the biggest gifts that has come up for me through it was there was still alot of things that needed to be brought to light about my childhood and how it has effected me throughout my adult life, especially concerning relationships.

As I've been saying to all my beautiful friends lately, I have chosen to be at all times fully aware, real and come only from integrity in all areas and moments in my life. Now I'm not saying that I haven't been this way throughout my life, it's just I'm taking it to a new level, where I'm aware if on some level I'm trying to manipulate a situation in some way or unconsciously trying to get things to go my way, whether its for mine or the other persons highest good.

I gave a healing to a friend the other day and one of the things I pointed out to her was that when we choose to start loving, nurturing and respecting ourselves then and only then can we attract a person of like mind, its a natural law. I said to her 'IF NOT NOW THEN WHEN?' and this certainly goes for me as well, when will we finally choose to fully start loving ourselves and having a healthy relationship with ourselves first, to go within and not without. I have learnt so much through relationships and I feel now in my heart I would like to have a divine union with another being, to make two parts become one. I fully understand on a deeper level this can only be achieved when I have a divine union with my self first. I accept what has occurred in my life and don't regret anything, far from it, but I feel It really is time for me to make one of the biggest commitments a human being can make and that is the path of self-love.

The Wave of Love

2007-08-22T22:33:00.000-07:00

I was at a wonderful luncheon on Sunday with some amazing people, my good friend who organised the day showed me this very interesting website called universallifetools. The movie, which is what it's all about was fascinating. See for yourselves, I'm certainly going to follow it, because for along time now I've been a very strong advocate on self-love. I know through self-love the whole world will change, I know it's one of, if not the reason why where all here.

The universe works in so many wondrous ways, I had made a commitment last week to look within and find that greatest love of all "self-love". I guess I've realised we don't ever lose it, so I've nothing to look for, I just have to get back to my self and tap into that nurturing, unlimited well of energy that sits deep inside all of us. So of course the universe brings in experiences, people and things to assist us on our journey and this is one of them for me and maybe for you. I know I have to go back first to the basics and that is self-acceptance, over the past few months that's even been hard to have, India sure shook me up lol.

I was first shown codes at a Wesak festival seven years ago and I got alot of benefit out of them, then about five years ago I attended a Sacred Mystery School for a year, they were big on codes as an activation and healing tool. Most of the group draw codes to assist themselves and others, I've done a few my self over the years.

I found a book of mine the other day that was going to be a journal, you guessed it, I started but didn't keep it going, the entry that I did have was dated the 30th of October 2005, it was nice to read what I was experiencing and thinking at the time, I now find this little message I wrote appropriate for me now as it was back then.

The Return
As the river of self-love returns back to me
Again will I drink and dive in it
Replenishing my self once again
There will be no dam strong enough to hold it back
I shall release it like a flood that covers all of my universe
It will wash my inner world as well as my outer world
For it is time to drown once again in the sacredness of love
How blessed am I a child of God.

Every Bit Counts

2007-08-22T22:09:00.001-07:00

A friend that I met in India sent me this email the other week and I thought it would be good to share it with you all. Google has decided to offer all the uses on the net an alternative to there normal homepage, it's called Blackle. I changed over, as the title says "Every Bit Counts", I must admit it took a bit of getting used to.
How is Blackle saving energy?
"Blackle was created by Heap Media to remind us all of the need to take small steps in our everyday lives to save energy. Blackle searches are powered by Google Custom Search.
Blackle saves energy because the screen is predominantly black. "Image displayed is primarily a function of the user's color settings and desktop graphics, as well as the color and size of open application windows; a given monitor requires more power to display a white (or light) screen than a black (or dark) screen." www.blackle.com/about/

Astrology Influence

2007-08-06T20:34:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine sent me this email last week explaining what's been happening to me and maybe allot of people for sometime. When I read it, it sure sounded like what I've been going through over the past few months and in a funny way it's good to know I'm not the only one.

I guess when I look back over the past three months it certainly has some merit. Though there is a part of me that cant help but think is it just another thing outside of myself that I think is effecting me, giving power to it, or can outer energies have this much influence in our lives? See this is just another thing that I'm trying to embody, I'm trying not to use the word understand because again is it just my mind that wants to understand and then I'll never fully know what is truth and what is illusion?

I wonder too, do I make it even more difficult on myself by trying to comprehend, trying to learn and embody some of life's deeper teachings, should I just let it all be? It was said to me the other day by a friend of mine, that another friend asked if I was still in my stuff? my friend replied 'yes'. Then my other friend went on to say,'he seems to have been in it for awhile and dragging it out a bit', well I thought to myself yes maybe I do, but I cannot deny what is coming up for me, I thought I could do what allot of people in this world do and just get over it, start thinking positive, fake it before you make it, change my attitude and so on and so on.

Well I'm sorry but I've tried just about every technique there is, from positive thinking to affirmations, feeling the emotion and then letting it go etc etc, and guess what in my heart I don't think they work, I think their just a band-aid effect. I'm hoping to find or a better word allow a new way of moving through our emotions a new way of coming through the other side. You see people like my friend who commented on why I'm dragging out my negative, depression or what ever you want to call it, they might come across most of the time as a positive person, an out going person, some would even say that they have got their stuff together, I see it completely different, if there's one thing I've learned to do very well and that's reading peoples energy, seeing through the masks and veils that they put up to the world. Now I don't go around reading people all day, for some reason when certain people are in my life I get shown at times their core wounds. When this friend of mine is my presence I see straight through her veils very easily and what I truly see isn't what shes trying to project out to the world.

So what is that I'm trying to say? is maybe by letting what ever you are feeling in each and every moment allow it to be what it is, don't make it wrong or right, don't make it anything, just allow it to be. Maybe we don't even have to know where its from just allow what is to just be, through acceptance peace will prevail. I realise too that allot of people in this world don't like to be around people who are going through a rough patch, they want to try and fix people, yes you might say they don't want to see friends and loved ones in pain, I can pretty much guarantee that maybe it hurts them because it brings up their stuff, if it wasn't in them too it wouldn't effect them.

And after all of this who really knows, are there different ways for each and everyone of us? probably, I hope we can understand the truth and the core to human emotions. I see day by day more and more people turning to anti-depressants, which I know some people need to get them back to some normality, but I feel allot of the time taking drugs is the easy way out, another quick fix. I mean when I was doing healing I worked out that about three out of five clients were on, or were going on anti-depressants and that's sad.

Here's the article.

WHATS UP ON PLANET EARTH? THE WEIRD ENERGIES...NOTHING MAKES SENSE

Here's the latest: The Mercury retrograde alongside the solstice (and just the ascension process alone!) began a pattern that we are still experiencing. Some things are just plain weird right now, with stories and scenarios changing by the minute. There also seems to be much to do, oh much to do, and when one thing is finished, another arrives right on its heels. But the "weird" things that seem to be occurring are the most predominant, as much simply does not make sense.

Why? Because we are once again "re-calibrating" and restructuring. Much came to the surface because of the solstice/retrograde energies. This created a lot of debris in our paths, a big mish mosh of energies that were flying around with nothing left to adhere to, and basically a temporary holding pattern for many of us with some of our endeavors. Things, then, are not settled yet, or all the way into their new grooves and we cannot then, move forward until we get stabilized. When much is being purged or released, as was the case with the solstice/retrograde , the darker and denser energies move up and out. When much of these types of energies are flying around, it can create what feels like depression (and it can be very sudden and intense indeed), sadness, grief, a strong desire for something that feels right and better to arrive very soon, and even feelings of panic and great loss.

This is a typical ascension scenario. In the beginning years (from 2000 onward), depression was a continual epidemic because of this. Much has been transmuted and removed now, so this scenario only occurs here and there. If you are one who has been feeling depressed for quite some time, please take care of yourself and don't assume it is simply an ascension symptom. Medication may be required and a good doctor can really help. Most old souls, like we are,experienced abuse and suffering in our younger years (so we could transmute these energies for all of the planet through ourselves), and a great amount of healing can be required before we can move forward. But once we do, many more of the beautiful and glorious experiences seem to arrive in an avalanche!

Ascension depression comes in intense waves and lasts briefly. It can feel nearly unmanageable and it can go deep. But we are able to experience much bliss in between. This is the difference. It is the same with panic and anxiety, and waves of crying and sadness. They come and go, and are not always present. It can be quite challenging to know what is really going on at times. And the ascension process mimics menopause very closely, with short term memory loss, hot flashes and night sweats, heightened emotions, abdominal weight gain, food cravings, an inability to lose weight (no matter what we do!), sleeplessness, and the like. Only most men are having these symptoms as well! This latest round went deep. We excavated much. It was rough. And because of all these released energies flying around, our paths can get cloudy. It is hard to see with so much in our way. The beauty of the ascension process, is that as more and more gets cleared away, we are then able to really and truly "see" what is real.

All the peripherals are gone. We do not need them anymore. My husband Phil loves to cook. He is an awesome cook and does all the grocery shopping and prepares all the meals. Our refrigerator is usually very full. I am not used to this, as I am a terrible cook, and my refrigerator was always nearly empty. I am now having trouble "seeing" what is really in the refrigerator, as it is so full! But he knows what is in there, even if I don't. When much is temporarily in our paths, we can easily lose sight of where we once knew we were headed. We may not know what is going on. It can be tempting to come up with a new and sudden change of plans, as we are confused. But if we know that we are simply re-calibrating, and that much will become clearer when the debris clears, we can then move forward in a new and better way in the near future.

Basically, then, much has been disrupted and does not know where it belongs anymore. There are many old energies that are lost and without a home, as the older and lower vibrating energies can no longer reside in this new world. The energies have nothing to attach to, so "weird" things are occurring that do not make sense. But the "going deep into as yet un-attended to energies" scenario can create some wonderful things as well. Things that were on the back burner or were not ready for attention are suddenly needing assistance if we are to move forward.

Karen

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Feng Shui Fact or Fiction?

2007-07-24T02:10:00.000-07:00

Namaste to you all, I came across this article on the ancient Chinese science called Feng Shui. Most of you would have heard about it by now, it's become very popular over the past few years in the west.

So what is Feng Shui exactly? basically Feng Shui is a system that involves a set of guidelines for creating harmony and balance in your living and working environment. There are many ways in which the Chinese masters of Feng Shui worked out how to create positive Chi(energy). From placing furniture in a certain way and place, to hanging certain ornaments in particular areas.

I had a bit to do with Feng Shui many years ago when I owned a hairdressing salon. My partner at the time got right into it, she studied all the books an even got the assistance of a Feng Shui consultant in to set up the shop and house. I'm still to this day sitting on the fence on the subject. I'm open to everything and I witnessed enough occasions where Feng Shui certainly looked to be an exact science. For example when ever a light bulb would blow in the salon, clients would decrease, at first I thought it was just a coincidence, but it happened to many times and my partner was always quick to point it out.

Then there were the poor old goldfish, what courageous little employees these guys were, the Chinese say to have a certain amount of goldfish in your house or business, because they take in any bad energy that was around and nine times out of ten the poor little buggers took it in and would die. I cant quite remember what happened when a goldfish died, I think your money stopped flowing in, so as soon as one or sometimes two died my partner would be straight on the phone in a mad panic,'as soon as you get a chance can you call into the pet shop and get some more goldfish and hurry', when I look back the pet shop owners must of loved me or they thought I was just plain hopeless at looking after goldfish. I must admit everytime one of the those tough little fish died, if I didnt get it replaced within a few days the shop would be quite, and boy did I did I get a hounding from the girls if I didnt turn up with a scaly little commando.

So why do I still have reservations on Feng Shui? even after seeing on numerous occasions that it had merit. Simply I thought alot of mind over matter had alot to do with it, especially with my partner at the time, she had an amazing strong mind and will, if she whole heartedly believed in something nine times out of ten it would happen. She had also a gift of getting others to believe in her story, so not only was there one person with full faith in Feng Shui, now there were four people.

You see at the time I also had a problem with something outside of myself having power over me. I used to say 'there's no way a piece of furniture could effect my energy or moods, my energy is vibrating higher then that, are we that weak that we are so easily effected by a certain object not placed in the right area, a fish dying, a certain colour in a certain area?'. I fully believe that what ever you whole heartedly believe in will effect you in one way or another that's for sure, but aren't we taught that nothing on the outside of us can effect us or have any power over us unless we allow it?

If we are divine sparks of god, then we are creator beings ourselves just like god so what we put out there, what we think inside of ourselves is all created by us and only us. I fully believed this statement for years, but you might have picked up lately I don't know what I believe anymore, I have been striped bare of everything I thought I knew since coming back from India and as some of my wonderful friends say that's not a bad place to be. That's a whole other topic I'd like to get into soon. Here's the article.

Feng Shui in Retail Stores
"The following are questions posed to 168 Feng Shui Advisors by a student writing a paper on Feng Shui." 168fengshui
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